work sucks. you know?

so me and gwen both woke up at 7 but lazed in bed till 730 and left denise's house at 750 to get to work. grr. macs on the bus was super. filling and thankfully the bus ride wasnt too long. luckily for us. the shuttle bus arrived 1 minute after we reached the bus stop. HAHAHAH!

here are some pictures for you to laugh at:

the uniform-.- which is me? which is gwen?


before work. so happy.


then scared of work.


shall not blog too much about work. except it sucked.
give u some numbers.
1500 pax.
150 tables.
2 level ballroom.
1500 sets of each table setting which consists of. 10 items or MORE?
8 course dinner.
14 and 1/2 hours nonstop.

all that resulted in me and gwen walking like grannies now. then i went over to her place to crash and slept until. now. okay thanks bye. its like 613 now. gotta rush off soon and meet denise at dover at 715 and have dinner with love. okay now. really bye!!

peter and jane

today is a good day with new experiences. i think i like it and i dont mind doing it again HAHAHAH pls dont think dirty.

woke up at 6am. trained to kallang with bffl (no not best friend). and got caught in the rain when we were walking to SDBA and then we took shelter at the pavilion with fik. windbreaker was of no help at all. and by the time i arrived at SDBA, it was soaked. to the max ): ): and i was shivering. HAHAHAHA ehhh many thanks for bffl for blocking me from the wind. and fik was so stupid la. never bring his windbreaker. HAHAHA
so i was backpack for today. yay. aidshawn gave me a new name. peter-.- why, thanks very much ah. er. super weird rowing with the guys and right at the back somemore. but its okayyyyyyyyyyy. saw how the guys row and tried to improve myself. alot of people wore red after trng-.- and i was one of them. HAAAAA. didnt eat with the guys and went straight to mrt to go home. cause my two lovelies were waiting for me.
didnt go to NaBeh snacks in the end. shawn, he ps NB snacks for OCK. HAHAHAHA sinful to the max. so i had one curry puff too. hahahah when i got to tamp, i felt hungry AGAIN and got yam cake and carrot cake. hahaha die la. all the burnt fats came back again ): ): then accompanied bffl to get his earphones for running. cheyyyyyyyyyyy. then it started raining so we couldnt walk home. then we walked around. and i bought bread to eat (yes again). then walked home.

and today is finally saturday.
Saturday has finally arrived. Yay to the max.
met gwen at 315 at simei control station for our much awaited t(h)reesome stayover. HAHAHA. we bought long johns over to denise's. eh didnt do much la. just typical girl stuff. like eat and eat. okay that only applies to me. and then painted their nails for them. and toenails too. HAHAHA and we got to sleep in denise's room. i slept on denise's bed. gwen slept on the sister's bed. and denise slept on a bed. on the floor. i asked her to squeeze in, but she refused and i felt so bad. HAHAHAHA!
watched movies. stepup2=.= brings back certain awkward memories. HAHAHA.
I.Am.Legend. HAHA also brings back memories. HEHEHEHE.
went to sleep as me and gwen have to work the next morning at 9-.-

gwen didnt kick me while she was asleep. thank god. HAHAHAHAHA
oh no pictures cause we were too busy talking. and me and gwen were superbly hungry-.- not enough food. hahaha we finished the potato chips and the honeystars. all no more. die die die. fat to the max ah.

friday

submission for the essay is up and i did submit my essay. YAY! gymed with denise and scott. then went to denise's house and slacked before going home. went to fix my ring. yeahhhhhhhhhh. and then met zoe jeans and elizabeth (their friend) at tamp mall. HAHAHA had a good five minutes of catching up. thats all i think. okay bye. and tomorrow is finally saturday. YAY! CANT WAIT CANT WAIT.

thursdays

i dislike thursdays. make that hate (for now anyway)........

i used to like thursdays cause there would be trainings and i get to see my girls. plus!!! the next day would be friday. but now i dislike thursdays. dont ask me why cause i wont tell you. i am not obliged to tell you and you are not inclined to know anyway.

reached sch at 1045 and lessons or rather presentations ended at 12-.- so i went to school for like only an hour. and the time i took to get to school is like. an hour. wtf rightttt.......... then i went to lunch with shiya and the neopoks. plus scott. superbly filling lunch (make me feel fat only la0) then the two went to study and neopoks and i stayed in the club. and i completed all the episodes available on FTLY. yes ah! so accomplished. then me and nehnehpoks went home and she met her unknown. ff came online and the only reply i got was 'ok ok lo' HAHAHAHA sibei zai ah. i dislike short replies. i dislike it. wtf.

and denise has been meeting me like almost everyday. and i feel so stuck on her. not that its a bad thing. but i dont want any withdrawal symptoms next time when we are not as close as now. you get it? and i went over to her house to stay again. and this sat another stayover. her family surely super sian of my retard face la.

how i wish everyone can remain close or become even closer. HAHAHAHAHA.
whoever having birthday, pls make that wish on my behalf.
imissyoulawahlaofuckinghelltalktomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeefuckeduplife.baby(butnotmybaby)imissyou.

been good, i am glad.

HAHAHA. i havent been updating. i am sure all are dying to know whats going on in my life. haha but i forgot what happpened ley. haiya. days pass too quickly nowadays....... and my memory is failing me....... NOT! haha u wish!!!

TUESDAYS:
super relaxed cause submitted the project already. it wasnt my turn to present on tuesday so i super relaxed to the max. HAHA lunched with scotty, shiyayaya, yinggggg, mildred and ice chan. had fish soup (and i feel healthy and slightly less fat HAHAHA) and then i had tao huay (wahlao feel super fat liao cause eat so much). anyway ice and i had fun trying to eat tao huay with straws (to all you stupid people, if you dont get it, it means we were sucking the taohuay up okay!). then i went back to class to slack while other people presented. had alot of time to blog. but i just didnt want to ley. you little earthlings need to curb your curiousity and stop reading my blog. HAHAHA now i was joking of course. read more okay (: then i will feel loved but dont over read to the point of being a stalker ah. thats scary HAHAHAA (does anyone feel the pinch)

then i went to the library to join ice, mildred, yinggggg and lesbo (: (: and stupid ICYB got me hooked on Fated To Love You. then. after watching super alot of episodes, we left and i went to meet my
dearestandforeverLCB :D:D hahaha i was late and LCB started complaining that she wait for me for like. 40mins. helloooooooo like 40mins is better than you making me wait for 1hour okay. dont think i will forget that! LCB you. HAHAHA then we had alot of fun catching up. what ff gg aa bb cc dd ee all. HAHAHA super gossip session to the max. some things just dont change, right? super glad i have met u in this life (: ff (friends forever, dont think too much) ah! and pls give me all the food you dont want okay. i will gladly finish them. hehehehehe :S i am a pig.

OOOOOOOOOOOH and did i mention i went for a run at night, after my dinner with my BG HAHAHAHA! cool to the max and we saw someone taking picts at night with a super powerful flash and BG super scared. loser right. and i completed the run with a good distance of 6km and timing of ........... i am not too sure-.-"


WEDNESDAY:
today is MY turn to present. haha the mighty pompom (haha i like the pata pon game la). second person of the day la. wahlao super nervous like a fish out of water. gasping for breath. hyperventilating and all the bimbotikkkkkk nonsenseshits. HAHA but i guess it turned out alright la. but not enough preparation. why are all my projs always last minute (need to kick the habit-.- need to need to). and i will try my best not to wear dress for presentation. skirts are alright but how to find formal dress sia. someone tell me PLEASEEEEEE. HAHAHA i borrowed denise's laptop to class and then i was busy watching FTLY haha. die die. i am such a die hard chiongster. i feel super unsatisfied if i dont finish watching it leh. wahlao. need to chiong the episodes. hehehehehe. then i went to club and waited for denise. and before she came, there was no one in the club and i had to sit outside like i homeless kid wahlao. thanks ah thanks.
eh poks ah, dont feel too bad about your paper la. get some aura from your laogong lor. HEHEHE your laogong own his class ley.... super cocky pls. wahlao wake him up okay?

so jog-a-thon with the poks was good. she never last minute pangsai me. HAHAHAHA :D:D:D then we did weights in club. i super dislike doing weights in club la. wahlao. i want the LATS machine pls. i want to train my lats. lats i want. fats i dont want. then went home. and i walked my BG home instead cause BG super tired. sack the BG la wahlao lousy to the max.



SIDETRACK ABIT:
i have been going over to denise's quite often to chiong my proj (which has been submitted on monday, i cant help it la gotta keep mentioning it cause super happy it has ended). hahaha and yes. we have a t(h)reesome date this saturday, but no bathing tgt okay wahlao. super awkward to bathe tgt at someone else's house. whats more, three girls sia-.- HAHAHA why are u jealous of me (as mentioned on your blog)? hahaha wahhhhhhh i think your grandpa likes me. eh not call ah gong then call what la. papa also? sounds so weird to me. hehehehe. papa is daddy no? and yes. tann soon pls. wahlao run more pls. run ah. dont walk-a-thon-jog-a-thon-walk-walk-walk HAHAHAHA! and i want to visit the hello kitty shop pls. superduperuberwhatever cool TO THE MAX (: (: i think i like hello kitty too and i think i am becoming a tad too gay.

and on another superdupersuperbly HAPPY note, the trip is finally confirmed ah. YES AHHHHH!! i cant help but wait. HAHAHAHA! wrong song..........

okay okay. happy, shalalala, its so nice to be happy. shalalala. everybody should be happy. SHALALALA!!! okay super high now.

also did i mention that i am having pms. but i will still laugh at myself having pms. like what nehnehpoks said, mine is the get high pms. and nnpoks made me lose my battle with spasticatedretardedtothemaxboy. she made me talk to him by forcing me to borrow his watch from him. eh poks, good friend ah you. goooooooooooood. but i love u anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hehehehe wah this is damn gay. shit la shit.

scandal of the month

edna in green, mildred being super short. icyb in black! and yours truly in her favourite colour, ORANGE!

my heart goes shalalalala.

projectsucksmission. soooooooo its finally over already. HAHAHAHA i feel a sense of LIBERATION......... yayness to the max but............ there is still presentation on thursday and my panels DID turn out like shit. like wtfzomgiamdead................... ):

ANYWAY! submitted and then we can 'zhao' liao. so i went to club to look for denise. i think i am overdosing on denise la. been meeting her like everyday. WELL ALMOST EVERYDAY. i suspect she is overdosing on me too. HAHAH like everyday see my retarded face also sian ji pua right and i have been staying over at her place quite often. but! the only reason she wants to see me is because we can go ST HAHAHAHA wahlao the chiongster in us still not dead sia. then shiya came to club too. wahlao its been like one zillion years since i last saw shiya la. and coincidentally we were wearing the same thing so i am very convinced that she and i are fated to be with each other (but of course she doesnt want me ): she only wants EXTPCPC, shiya is a nehnehpoks) HAHAHAHA. then we had the most sinful meal for lunch but! shiya is MOST sinful okay. and i got denise hooked on rasberry waffle HAHAHAHA yay! sweet tooth rocks. HAHAHAHA then we went to club where those two tried to study for awhile then shiya left to ask her teachers some questions. she is a secret mugger. mug to the max la she. denise TRIED TO STUDY BUT ENDED UP SLPING, the lousy poks.

we went for ST and got killed. wtf la. superduperbloodyfucking endurance trng. HAHAHA wahlao eh. can die PLEASE! BUT it was raining so we got the excuse to not run. we have to run if we want to hit 50kg okay. need to hit 50kg la poks!

bffl offered for me to go run 1ok everyday and i said what if i fainted, then bffl said to leave me there alone. wahlao no heart right? like we stay super near each other and bffl cant be bothered to send me home. so near okay so near. now i know. not my bffl anymore. nehnehpoks you! HAHAHA but i believe that the 10k run will make me lose fats. hehehehe but no time leh. now exam period (not for me la, for all of the others). wahlao need to run need to run.
and DENISEPOKS, where is our jog-a-thon? fucker la you. procastinate until now also havent carry out our plan. nehnehpoks to the max pls.

anyway, the EXBFSB! haha or is it ROT-EXBF. hahaha denise, u get what i mean. anyway. i cant give you any advice but i just want you to know that whatever decision u make, i will support u. and then! i will personally give your stalker a slap if he ever bullies you. u have my word for it. and gwens too.

on a happy note.
OMGZZZZZZZZZZZZZ I AM GONNA MEET LYNETTE LCB UP TMR NIGHT AFTER HER TRNG. AH SUPER MISS HER LIKE FUCK. GOT SO MUCH TO RANT AND COMPLAIN ABOUT. AND I NEVER EVER WILL RUN OUT OF THINGS TO SAY TO YOU OKAY EVEN THOUGH U GOT SOMEONE SPECIAL AND I AM NOT IMPT ANYMORE ): U FUCKER. HAHAHAHAHAHAH I STILL LOVE YOU PLENTY. AND YOU ARE FOREVER. KEKEKEZXZXZ LOVE YOU LEYYYYYYYYYYY. OKAY SUPER GAY LIKE FUCK. DAMN IT. AHHHHHHHHHHH I CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT I AM GOING CRAZY. WTF. CHILL PAM CHILL.
*FYI! LCB is not a bad word okay..............

on a very sad note. its been so long since i saw my girls. i am going crazy okay.
yunnsin went MIA mann. i bet she is secretly mugging her life away. jiayou for now! aft exams then we chiong trng.
zakikibunZXZ is still as cock as ever. HA! super failure at remembering stuffs sia. still wanna argue with me-.-
gwen! superduper long like fuck never see u liao! and i cant wait for the stayover this saturday. t(h)reesome awesomeXZxz! hahahahah. dont get too excited ah. HAHAHAAH!
bernice! i dont even have any news of you okay! wtf are u up to! i know u ST with princeCharles okay. chiong-ster.
SUAN! u leh? die until where liao. stop dating her okay. library is NOT a conducive environment to go dating.
shiyaaaaa HAHA i just saw u. and FYI! u are not balding pls. mbf for life!
DENISE! i see u everyday siaaaaaaaa. wahlao. east siders forever la. HAHAHAAH and i have been eating your honey stars like crazy and i am growing fat ): ):

and the rest of my juniors. pls all STUDY SMART and train hard! HAHAHAHA.

cant wait for trng to resume. i hope that our bond will maintain. or maybe grow even stronger. HEHEHEHE!gay to the max. whatever. you girls, are forever (: (:

AND DID I MENTION, I GAINED WEIGHT. MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD. but i look slim BUT thats not the point. the point is.................
I AM DRIFTING FROM MY AIM. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. okay i am being crazy.

hair pee burst day

happybirthday to my PB partner, ICYB (: (: (:
may u grow hotter.
cause u are too cool now.
ice, ice baby!
17th august.

can you find the part in white? did u highlight it? are u smart enough? hahahaha.
grow hotter. yet remain cool. oh so contradicting. erm grow longer hair too.
and may our relationship (i mean friendship) never ever ever end.
and today is 17th august liao la wahlao. its like. 1230am okay.
you know i have got your back just like you have got mine. and!
may your wrist recover faster so you can do pullups!


you are old. you are older than me. but hot la hot.

FF? dont read if u think u will get offended.

how do you tell if someone is really your friend?

chanced upon that question on someone's msn personal message and it got me wondering. the time is currently 11.59pm laaaa. as usual blogger time is screwing up on me. like. what the hell right. i think blogger secretly hates me. anyway! i have got alot(maybe not alot la) to say on this topic of friends.

what are friends for?
are friends hypocrites? looking to steal away things you hold dearly in your heart while you are unaware?
are friends backstabbers? telling lies behind your back? warping the truth and making things worse then they seem?
the word 'friends' seem so overrated. are people on your friendster list your friend if you have only seen them once before. yes, friendster is a social networking site. BLAHBLAHBLAH. so what? friends only what. friends come and go. there are so few who will stay. so few who dont change. so few who can accept you for who you really are (bad breath, hairy armpits, sweaty palms, sweaty feet, gross to the max maomao, BLAHBLAH.........). HAHAHA digressed a little.

ANYWAY!
are you guilty of committing the above? guilt is eating you up inside. and you just want to confess every bad deed that you have done to someone. why not confess it. keeping it inside aint gonna do you no good.
i am aware that in this dog-eat-dog world, people who lie to get their way do exist. people who cheat to gain do exist. and people who backstab just to climb the ladder exist too. this whole world is too malicious. too evil for innocence. innocence does not exist anymore. only lies and deceit. you know you are guilty. you know you were guilty. why not stop this now? why not just end it all? why still continue? it is hurting you. hurting everyone else.

there are some friends who i do trust. with my life. even though we just got close recently. and! no that is not an exaggeration. there are some team mates who i would give up my life for cause i know they are true to me. and there are other friends who i feel are just bullcrapping to me. BC all you want. i know the truth and thats all that matters. i know this post might apply genarally to like a few people. it will be so sad if you feel guilty and think i am talking about you, but i am not. why would i? why would a person, full of pretence like you matter to me? you have got to be joking............. now now now, dont go running to someone and complain just because you think i am talking about you. i am not. i am not. dont worry about it. this is meant for no one and just for me to rant.

thats not alot to talk about after all. erm okay nights. whatever. bye.





do you know where your heart is?
do you think you can find it?
wherever the end is,
do you think you can still see it?

walking corpse

okay i gotta complete my 1000 word concept write up.



death awaits.

fridayzxzx

stayed over at denise's on thursday so which mean i went to class late la. as the saying goes, better late than never right? so i reached school at about 850. then walked denise to class and on the way to class i saw kadie. HAHAHA as usual, late. just like me. anyway, national day over liao so dont need to wear red and white anymore okay (unless u are in SPDB then the trng attire is white top red shorts la, that one is boh bian right) hahaha okay just joking. erm. went to class and chiong every thing like siao. colouring and all the shitzxZX wahlao. almost died pls and the colouring aint that great somemore-.- i am beginning to think that choosing this course is the second biggest mistake of my life. someone can just shoot me now. i am so dead. anyway, i finished my details. and i have no idea how to present my shitty panels (not that i have done my panels but i am thinking it would turn out to be shitty).

so i left class at about 4pm and went to the clubhouse to wait for denise. lo and behold i saw tp like wtf. super shocked to the max pls cause i didnt really expect anyone to be in the club, considering it is currently the study break. anyway, my heart nearly jumped out and started beating very fast. and it is still beating very fast right now. shit, i think my heart has got some problem. i cant control it.......... someone save me please? waited and waited and i fell aslp in the club and denise and scott only finished their reports at like. idk what time (cause i fell aslp). and leehan came to school for nth!! she was supposed to gym with us three. but in the end the reports took too long to be done-.- and i found out i look absolutely hideous when i sleep (not that i dont when i am not aslp but just shocking!) . so we got to the gym at only 7.45pm and know what! the gym closes at like. 8pm. HAHAHA we are so smart right. so have to chiong lor. boh bian what.................. i did like 14 stations of 30 reps. in 15mins. so did denise and scott was faster, he did 15 stations 30 reps. sibei zai right.

then we went to bathe. i am suspecting i have night blindness. zzz. cant see in the dark. i mean not DARK DARK but not very bright DARK? and my shoulders are still aching. i still need a massage.......... i think kaya waffle doesnt taste as nice as rasberry waffle. so we trained home and i finished HPOOTP. yay to the max. okay that was how my day went. bye.

anyway, i am going over to denise in the morning. and then i might be staying over at night. i need to do my panels and i need to do my panels and i need to do my panels. and i painted my nails. HAHAHAHA the other day, it was chilli sauce orange (chilli sauce isnt red okay its slightly orangey) and now. it is a glam colour. no idea how to describe it. except that i am quite pleased with the results. and the nails on my thumb are of a different colour. and i think my muscles are finally showing. yay i can be bigger and not that small already. hehehe. not THAT small doesnt mean i am small now. and doesnt mean i am big either. and my aim of 50kg is still super faraway. need to run need to run. need to run............... okay bye.

stayovers

THE SPARROWS ARE FLYING AGAIN.

sooooooooo! i went over to denise's place (again) to stay BUT this time it was with. someone else. am i supposed to give names? nevermind its okay we shall keep the identity a secret but i guess it's pretty guessable la huh? i was supposed to overnight in school then denise couldnt la so we decided to go over instead. today is a good day and i accomplished like alot of things THEREFORE, i was super duper free over at her place and went to slp early.

i do not like denise's bolster. it is too round and not flat enough. but huggable still. anyway, the bolster tried to escape from me, it rolled away from me :( BUT I CAUGHT IT AGAIN, hehehe. and there was this flash of light (i wonder from where). super annoying. i think i slept like super lightly la cause the lights were not off. denise didnt sleep for the whole night okay. while she said i slept like a pig. eh wahlao i didnt okay.

eh what did i want to say? oh ya. to all of you(i am sure no one-.-) who are wondering, i have finished my book already. remember The Dark Half by Stephen King. haha superbly gory la that book. i like i like. hahaha the front part all not important. the part that matters is the part whereby Thad triumphs over George. (like you all know who like that. chehhhhh) anyway! the ending is that George the evil one, got eaten alive by the sparrows. the sparrows play an important part in the story hehehe. they are the Psychopomps (i like that word! sounds so cute), and they are supposed to bring the dead back to the dead. or is it they are the harbringers of death. or sth like that. and the psychopomps is the word that matters.

PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS

fuck sia. so many colours. sibei act cute.

PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS
PSYCHOPOMPS

ah thats better.

okay should i talk about hair again? should i get influenced and cut my hair also, or grow it long? damn damn damn. when i grow up, i wanna have long hair and wear dresses. HEHEHEHE but i think like kinda gross to be thinking about all these la, when my hair is superbly short now. eh but i am thinking of cutting it, so it will be shorter than even your father's hair. cut slope. cut slope. hahah plus flat top. wahhh cool to the max right. someone save me from the nightmares of my hair. and did i mention that my tail is beginning to curl? damn it. but actually its still alright.

and my body is giving me problems. pls give me a massage someone. especially my traps. i am beginning to think that shoulder shrugs are damn super cool and i found someone i want to look like (as in the body size la not facial features.) guess who? hahahaha. but the others say super buff and gross. but i like ley. tell you all la. its josceline yeo, heheh the swimmer, is it spelt like that? okay. blogger timing is still screwed la. nehnehpoks to the max pls.

and wah fuck. i need to like complete my proj la before sunday. it is a miracle that i dont need to print it. but like. i am still blogging in class. i need to learn not to do last minute work la. fuck and my traps are aching la. so are my shoulders. and i am still typing away. cheebye. i need to learn la. shit shit shit. and i conclude that doing work at denise's place is super effective. seriously. i like. and she keeps getting high on M&Ms. u get what i mean. i mean, denise, you get what i mean.


fuck i still think about you everyday and night. and every single minute i am awake. plfa.
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away
Forever could even start today.

sucky point of my life

wednesday:
went to school after staying over in mob AGAIN. wahlao i think mob become like my second home. HAHAHAHA no la joking. i dont like mob cause super cold there. and denise didnt stay la. sian diao. RWP submission in the morning. sian diao. ended lessons at 11. and went to look for scott at fc2. erm then went to mob. saw gwen(: and denise. HYEAHAHA then went fc6 to look for ICYB. zzz. then went to mob again, and saw em there wahlao got a shock of my life. HAHAHA then i didnt get to hear her laugh sian diao. okay went to gym with ZR. haha i am like weak to the max. need to train harder. need to train harder. okay thats all for wednesday. eh went home with mx and denise. HEHEHEHE and the train got like super alot of ******S haha super gross TO THE MAX WAHLAOOOOO.

thursday:
called denise at 6 am. then she never pick up. so i jitao sian diao and went back to sleep so we didnt meet up at 7 to go sch tgt. when i called her at 9.15, she was still home. then we met up at 1030 and went to sch tgt. HAHAHA. then i went to class after lunch. got alot to say but not now. okay bye. and i did some drawings in class and i am super proud of them ok. proud to the max.

tuesdays are uber long

so i went over to denise's place to stay. and then we got to school at 9. cause we were supposed to wake up att 7 but we lazed till bout 7.18 haha and i went to shower in the morning. i am a clean girl (denise you are super smart so i presume u understand that i am shooting you HEHEHEHE) and for like. once (okay not once but many times liao), i was early. i am pro to the max. and then i bought honey green tea to class. the pearls are super nice to the max today. like soft and chewy kind.

lunch was at fc1 with denise and i had chicken chop which didnt taste all that great and i dont understand what the fuss is about over the fc1 chickychopZXz while she had her international food. like she forever having that pls. the sauce is always creamy. HAHA. and i met shawn for lunch again at fc2 again but this time i didnt eat and i watched him eat. shawn is damn retarded to the max and SUPER UNHEALTHY PLS. he eats like macspicy and upsize them somemore. i think he is secretly a cheap skate and he just wants to get the cup. HAHA but cool la the cup. then i went back to class.

*remember to paragraph X1000000times*

actually i aint got much to say about a tuesday. except it is quite shitty for me and i havent gotten started on my details and my section drawings arent that great! dont even ask me about perspectives. gives me the creeps to even think about it. HAHAHA! when submissions are near, i feel like i want exams-.- but i know when exams are near, i would feel like doing proj. this is why the grass is always greener and you cant always have what you want. if only we could......................... then i would be a superbly happy girl.

eh what else. did i mention i am stuck in school again. but this time round, i have got a laptop to accompany me so its not too bad, right? erm. its currently 1.20am and i am supposed to give ice a ring at 7 in the morning but i suspect that pig would be slping super soundly. and have i ever mentioned that moberly is a freaking cold place to be in and most of the time, my pee freezes. oooh so cool! i have frozen pee.

erm did i also mention that i painted my nails orange and i thought that they look like carrot juice colour but after today, i think they look more like chilli sauce. hehehe.

ALSO!! today someone asked me not to be superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr friendlyyyyyyyyyyyyyy anymore so as to avoifd trouble. but. i dont usually go around looking for trouble. trouble looks for me. and i am super scared of trouble. cause i am super small in size. therefore. i shld go for ST and train super duper uber luber rubber hard. then i wont be scared of all the bullies anymore. HAHA but i am not afraid la. i have got a bodyguard hahahaha secret bodyguard. so you all better be careful ah. later i ask 'it' to beat you all up *smug look* my BG very fit and strong one okay. i trust my choice of BG(:

actually got alot of shits to post. but i have saved all as drafts. okay not all. just maybe 2 posts as drafts. and if u wanna read, do hack into my account okay (: or u ask my for my acct password then maybe i will give you.

ohhhhhya. i finally remembered what i want to say. i feel that somehow guys can be better friends than girls. but by saying that i am not trying to say that all guys can fit that position and of course my girls are still the best :D:D eh. i know the feeling suucks when the person u are interested in is interested in another friend of yours. and what worst, that friend happens to be a best friend. isnt is supremely awkward? HAHAHA. so random. but yeah. what if all three happen to be in the same class or same CCA or what. super awkward pls. and then! you still have to help be the match maker. wah isnt it like sian ji pua nehnehpoks to the max kind. hahaha i can relate to all that because the same thing happened to me when i was in primary sch ): ):

okay nights bye. its already 133am. and to all the shittieZXzxz who are mugging their balls and nehnehs off out there. too bad la. who ask you to do last minute job. but jiayou okay. dont screw up your life and sacrifice everything. stupid egg (direct translate into chinese if it sounds stupid, dont be stupid).


ayf is my babylovelovelovelovelovelove.

wah damn smart damn smart. i so tired until my face is about 3cm off the laptop screen. super pro. my eyesight is failing me. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh somebody save me *plays the smallville song*

secret contortionist.

so lets see. what did i do in school? nothing. joking :D:D i have decided to stop being so slack (and its only a decision that will last for.... i dont know how long. okay make it short?). so i went to sch in the morning and it is a miracle i wasnt late. and i dont understand how come the train likes to be annoying to the max. whenever i wanna bounce train, then the bloody train i am in has to terminate it's service and i HAVE TO ALIGHT AND BOARD THE NEXT TRAIN AT PASIR RIS. WTFWTF. but anyway, i reached class in good time.

note to self: REMEMBER TO PARAGRAPH.

eh superbly annoying to the max when i reach class then like super little people in class. i feel so demoralised to the max please-.- like........... when i finally decided to go to class (after skipping lessons for 3 days the previous week) then very little shitheads go to class. so i decided to slack in class until lunch but i did manage to finally complete my bloody layout (and aft that comes all the tedious shitZXz). i met denise for lunch (yes i did say never to meet her again but...) and know what!!! SHE WAS LATE AGAIN, THAT NEHNEHPOKS. wahlao. so i decided to like buy my spags first. super filling to the max and i cannot finish-.- and knowing what a big eater i am. ohholyfuck. i think there is sth wrong with my stomach hehehe but no problem la. can lose weight leyyyy, i like! then scott came. wee came. erm, qy, fik and yuguang?! came too. and those three actually wanted to anitsocial and sit elsewhere. zzzz i tell you, sometimes its so exasperating to try and bond with people, but since i am so cool to the max and pro to the max. i did it i did it. i think...............

erm, okay. after sch, i went to MobZXzxzx then, mx aids angel ash and joanna were there. super awkward kind cause all damn quiet to the max kind. then i went to pool gym to look for scott and denise. apparently they ST la. hahaha aids went with me. erm then we went to Mob to try to mug. and after plenty of time online and doing nth much, i decided to go over to denise house to stay and try to complete my rwp. there were like super unglam moments over at her place. haha and we decided to go midnight shopping-.- no la, actually her parents came back from m'sia. then me (being the super wanna get into her parents good books and actually i am still kinda nice kind, do u get it?) went down with denise to help carry the stuffs up. HEHEHE i am a good kid. denise is super unglam and a very awkward but superbly funny moment happened while we were taking the elevator down-.- HAHAHAHA dont tell you all what it is......

erm, then i really did work okay. i did my report writing. so i conclude that studying/mugging/chionging/stressinng/rushing project at denise's is rather effective. HEHEHEHE.
then we went to slp at about 2am in the bloody morning. and denise is a contortionist when asleep la. we laid like 2 mattress on the floor, and she like contorted and shifted her body to my side of the mattress. her head was at my waist. gave me the shock of my life pls. and i was damn afraid to move in case i squashed her head...........

and did i mention, my plaster is back on again. damn it.

peekies?

shawn is covering....... and i caught qy making faces at me. he hates me):


ling is super smart that she is taller (just for that moment)


left to right: gwen, zakikibun, me, icyb, edna, 010.


pizza hut. HAHAH bun cut her hair.............

details

i think i neglect the most important things. like details. like. i dont ever mention in detail what i ate (i am sure the contents would shock most balls off) or. what i do when i bathe (that is too explicit, skali you get high). i dont mention all the minute little shits that go through my mind (so many things HAHA). so tell me what do you wanna know and i can blabber my mouth off non-stop. if you love me, then i think love for you, must be both blind and deaf. yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh blind cause i am not pretty. deaf cause i am superbly loud to the max. so how can you stand me? and i am a slacker to the max. i dont study and my results suck. HAHAHA and i think i am superbly pro. submission is on friday and i havent done any shits at all. and i dont pay any attention to my dressing. sch is boring to the max and there is no point dressing up cause i am busy self trng like. almost all the time. almost everyday. hahahahah! i love my tees and shorts to the MAX AH!!!!

back to my point. i superbly hate it when people are trying to be all fake. like pls. you think i dont know whats going on? you really think i am stupid? you think. i dont know you are just trying to humour me? i am smart. really (dont roll your eyes). my PSLE score is 25_ HAHAHA make a guess. got prize one okay. and i got distinction for my HMT too. though my o's suck due to putting too much effort and time into canoeing and i am still damn bloody super noob at canoeing (actually not THAT noob but must be humble). okay. back to my point (again). i hate it when people lie. even though we are not THAT familiar. but when i ask a question, i expect to get an honest answer. talking means any form of communication, right.. so when i talk to you, i definitely know whether you are telling the truth or not. yes i do know information that you dont think i know. so dont take me for a ride. cause i am no fool.

and relatives can be sooooooooooooooooo totally annoying. why dont you ever wanna believe that i lost weight. so i am short. but cant my mass be like muscles! damn it. so what if i am only 166 and 55kg. I CANNOT BE 55 KG ISIT!!! EH I JUST RECENTLY LOST WEIGHT AND YOU DONT BELIEVE. NNH! and yes i did lose weight. eh. really la. i am very unlikable and there is noone around who likes me. haha so dont think very easy for me to find people who like me okay. i lead a super sad life. and i only eat and sleep. HAHAHAHA

i think my pig is getting super fat and cute to the max. yes pig was given by mrtp but that doesnt mean i will stop taking care of pig. i super love pig to the max. when i get the pictures of pig, then i post. then u all can marvel at why it is so big and fat. i think pig is super aptly named. it only eats and sleep. and eats and sleep. and poops and pee. HAHAHAHA i think its just like me.

and i found out i have so many things in common with bffl. HAHAHAHA like. we dont sleep on our pillows. like. we love our bolster to the max. eh. what else. ohhhhhh! the most important one is that we have sweaty palms and feet. hahahaha eh eh eh not our fault that we have sweaty limbs right.......... when i find out more in common then i say again.

SUNDAY:
never ever meet denise again la. she is always super late. plus she is also sick to the max. like physically sick and not. sick in the head (though at times i feel she is). erm we were supposed to meet at 8am at simei MRT (info for u stalkers) then i had to buy a cake for our 3some partner, so i told her meet at 8.15 cause i scared i late la. then i read the newspaper until like overshot so i alighted at tanahmerah instead. and i called and she told me she still home ): like. sad to the max. hahahahaha! then we took a long (like fuck) train ride to jurongeast to change train to bukit batok (another piece of info for u stalkers). then we bought mac breakfast for her. and then we took a bus to her place. and denise made me alight at the wrong stop so we had to walk a long stretch of road. and climb up a hill where our Royal Highness resides. then the A*N**security directed us to the wrong lobby. tsk.... then me and denise like TOTALLY spent half an hour wandering about. and trying to find our way. then she called HRH's house like THREE BLOODY TIMES. and when we finally got to HRH place, HRH was awake. so there goes the surprise. HAHAHAHA whatever la. HRH was touched. so yeah. anyway i think bigbreakfast super not worth it. cause i am not full after i finish it. wahlao. i think bigmac is the best. then must upsize. then shiok to the max ah!

is this like paragraphed enough? is it still one chunk? i think i need to pay more attention when paragraphing. this looks mighty fine though. okay bye.

and did i mention, i took out the bloody plaster from my nose alr. and there is a white patch. now make me uglier than ever. wahlao. i super ugly to the max now. worse than ever. but i cant put the plaster there forever. so better to be ugly now when the tann difference is NOT THATTTTT obvious. then when i chaota, then lagi worse. HAHA anyone wanna go tann with me? HEHEHEHE to see me in a bikini is. cool to the max pls. promise you wont puke. i have got a good figure (flat as a stick, which means i am not that fat).

enough details? i think i am losing my touch for blogging. i am talking nonsense-.-

HAVE U EVER?

i think i am feeling out of sorts recently. made alot of new friends. make that. erm, got closer to a few friends? whats up with having like super alot of friends but none that you are close to? how many friends in your friendster or facebook do you actually keep in contact with? how many are those that you really know? how many do you add for the sake of adding just to view them and end up not talking to them at all? how many do you add just to increase the number of friends that you have? HAHA in case tou are wondering, i have 666 friends in my friendster. and i am about to delete the ones that i am not familiar with. when i have new friends who i really know. cause i want the number to remain at 666. yeah yeah. whatever la.

anyway. i think i am very superbly retarded. because sometimes, i feel close to like new people who i have just met and i feel like i can tell them every single little shit about my life. because they cannot judge me and can only listen to me, because we are new friends and they dont really know me that well? but i dont think i am the sort who will paint an angelic picture of myself in front of strangers. that is sooooooooooo totally retarded. but i dont think i would mind painting a bimbo picture of myself in front of others cause thats a different story. and. i think i am super smart yet super stupid la. cause i tell like new found friends like damn alot about myself. but i feel safe cause i know they can be trusted? hah so u better not break my trust or i will break your penis or smacl your cb. and! because like i have mentioned. i always appear as the bad person in everybody's eyes. i am the one who is super unworthy of anybody at all. and everything i do will be judged. but sometimes, i think people dont know how i feel. like. i am not very very very ugly. not very very very fat. (notice all the very-s i put in front) ya. but i know i have like. very very very short hair which is unbecoming of a girl-.- eh just cause i talk alot then i very bad meh. HAHAHA why like that! but luckily there are some people out there who do see the good side of me! so thanks very much to the handful out there!!

anyway, i feel superbly awkward. cause what used to be is not not to be. not anymore i think. when all my plans for 11.11.11 is dashed. HAHA i was so looking forward to that. because of you. parts of me died. yes yes. i still dont wanna mention anything on my blog because i am sure all the people do read and if you have any brains AT ALL, you would be able to guess what has alr fucking happened. and if those people who know, pretend they dont. let me tell you, stop being so fake la. it is not appreciated. i would rather you give me your fucking condolences and offer me a piece of pathetic tissue then to pretend you dont know anything............... and then. ya as i was saying. so bloody awkward. came across STALKER's blog. and i find it so true. what happens now? all the avoidance? all the me trying so hard to just be friends but i dont think it is working. i forot what i wanted to say. but anyway, i know more things than people think i do. hahahaha. okay there is nth much to say. this post is not as guai lan as how i wanted to make it sound. so i think i am a good girl (:

to you:
yes, we may have been and maybe we were supposed to be, but somehow, somewhere, something went wrong. and i am kinda sure that 99.9% of it is my fault. cause you are the greatest ever. and i mean that from the bottom of my broken heart.

patriots to our country, not.

THURSDAY:
eh since i stayed over in sch on wednesday, thursday i cui-ed also la. therefore i conclude that i shall not ever stay over in sch. HAHAHA cause no point. as usual run and gym. then i forgot what else i did. except to find out some information which caused me to die. but sadly (to all those who hate me, i am still very much alive and kicking.) eh, then my stomach hurt damn bad and i almost died on the train home.

FRIDAY:
didnt do anything much either cause my butter paper was spread on the bread and eaten. run again. gym also. lunched with mx, aids, qy and enqi. then the God said this super inspiring thing.
' i wish i were less of a thinking man, and more of a fool who is less afraid of rejection.' wahsehhhh!! also did nothing much. haha denise is super afraid of durians. HAHAHA we went for the broadcast of the olympics. principal invited us over for dinner. like buffet dinner. and there were alot of fruits. and i totally ate like. 5000 durians. okay. maybe that is exaggeration. but the whole point is i ate alot of durians.

SATURDAY:
pro to the max. only me and the bun attended trng. HAHAH yunnsin stomachache. cause of the durians. see la. i so pro eat so much also havent die of heaty-ness. yaaa. pizzahut with the girls to celebrate ruifangtheretarded's belated bday. she is damn annoying. cant make up her mind on what to eat. and she is a super hotdog freak. uh then yinggggg got new camera so we camwhored with that. then. a cake was bought for gwen. haha she damn touced i thinkkk. then i went for the national day dinner celebrationgatheringnonsense thing at my aunts house. and i am still there now. and they say i became slimmer. wah wah wah. eh but i still damn short when compared to my cousins. zzzzz. damn sian. and i am damn bored right now. and i got nth to update about. okay bye. and happy national day. whatever......

hectic days (or nights maybe)

hello earthlings and stalkers and what notZxzx and. all the ghostly beings out there. GAHHHHH! its the seventh month!

TUESDAY:
HAHAHA due to like overnighting in school, i totally cui-ed on tuesday. and i slept like in the club from like. 7am to like 11am. on the bench. i am soooooooooooooooooooooo bloooooody goooooooooood at camouflaging myself that noone noticed i was there. maybe its cause i was wearing the jacket (black) and then using a fbt singlet (black) to cover my face. like i cant help it but to cover my face. because i dont like to show my face when i sleeping. not to like random SPDB people anyway, cause they would most probably take like pictures of your unglam face when you are sleeping. booo! so better to be safe than sorry right. HAHA but mrtp has seen my sleeping face before (: BUT THAT WAS LAST TIME PLEASE!!! hahaha not i sleep much more glam i think. luckily i never spasm siaaaaaaaaaaaa. anyway, denise thinks i am damn pro to squeeze myself into a hole and stay in that position. hahaha i think i am pro too. cause usually i like to squueze with people. hahahaha esp mrtp.............. but again, that was last time. eh so i slacked in club the whole day trying to sleep. then went for trng with the junior girls. but i was just running with them, one round outside sch. while denise went with the killer(scott). and whats more, she almost died cause she had a stitch and she didnt like wear her stuff properly, HAHAHAHA i dont tell you what is it. hahaha. and i couldnt run properly also cause like my THING came like the previous day when i stayed over in sch and i survived one whole night without my protection. am i pro or pro. HAHAHA! i think i am damn pro once more. ST with denise and scott. once more, killed. i mean, i got killed and denise like damn happy cause she exceeded her expectationZXz.

i was there when you doing your pullups. yeah so what if you can do? is it the quality of the pullups that count or the quantity? if you want quantity, i can give you quantity. but whats the point of doing half fucked pullups. i tell you, i can even do better ones then you, though my quantity may be much lesser. it is people like YOU that make me want to push myself even harder. yeah, just so i can win you. so what if i want to win you for the sake of winning you? i win you, i am contributing to my girls team also. it means i have become stronger. yes, thanks to YOU(: and in the gym, HAHAHA bicep station. so what? a guy doing 10kg? half fucked 10kg? i can do it too. half fucked what. anything half fucked i also can do, but whats the point? i would rather do my bicep stations properly and have nice biceps. instead of half fucked biceps, which i am sure you will get. so, enough about you (: bye. have fun doing half fucked stuff. i wont bother about you (:

WEDNESDAY:
no rwp in the morning so i morning called scott at like 6?!?!?! and then i went back to sleep. haha wanted to go to school to run earlier. but i was damn tired. so i wasted the whole day away. went for GEMs for only 5 (bloody short) minutes. cause i completed the quiz in like 4 (shorter than bloody short) minutes. HAHAHA am i pro or pro? PLEASE TAKE MY GEMS! die die must take cause damn easy! AMAZING CREATURES BIG AND SMALL (: recommended by pamelaeepeishan! then i slacked at club. caught up with gwen again. and then went to poly50 event. and now i am in school again. like damn pro please. and the time is about 3.54am in the morning and i am wide awake typing this composition (or so scott claims) hahaha.

okay. everybody has a stoned face now. and today's study session like a BIT more productive for me. hahaha there are more people now! me, denise, scott, ruifang, ying, ling, bing, aaron (where is yun ah?) hahaha! errrrrrr. okay. update more again la. staying in school is damn fun. and lessons are in approximately 4 hours time. HAHA i think i am gonna take a nap..... or maybe i wont...... okay. and i love taking photos please. and i love to blog as if i am writing an essay. it gives me a sense of satisfaction that i can talk so much and keep typing to myself. i feel as though when i blog, i am actually talking to myself. is there like a problem with me? AHHHHHHH! i think so. eh i think i am crazy. and khim gonna scold me la. i got no paragraphing. and i need to train harder. need to need to.

and did i mention. someone (I SOOOOOOOO WONDER WHO) nominated me for MMSP (likw wtf). i am never gonna get selected please. cause the typical people are looking for the typical girls. fair skinned (which cant be possible because i am in like a CCA which requires me to have constant sun exposure) with long hair (which i want but it gets annoying and kinda gross if your hair is just dry and has spilt ends) and big eyes (which i have when i stare at people) and do not wear specs (while i wear mine like ALL THE TIME, except for when i sleep). eh what else. put make up (gross to the max unless like u put concealer on the lips and make yourself look pale and sickly, which i like) or wear like damn nice (which i never bother to cause i basically train almost everyday and besides, wear so nice for what? no one wants to see please-.- HAHA) so. the point is. i am not gonna get selected. because people are just too.... typical? or maybe, i wont get selected cause i am too fat. too muscular. er. too ugly (yes i know i am ugly so shut up pls you dont need to tell me, i know myself) and did i mention i am planning to wear singlet and shorts to the interview. HAHAHAHAH! okay. and i did paragraph the thing after all. cause i also read until buaytahan siaaaaa. so dumb, yes, no?
and its like 4.09am now. i am sooooooooooooooooooooooo gonna take a nap.

simple words: i'll wait, i'll wait.

HAHAHAHAHA pict of the month.

HAHAHAHA spastic face.

pictures! finally!

AHAHAHA today is POLY50. so here are some of the picts. the rest are in AIDS' phone. will post them up when he sends me. denise and i were at the site of the run. and we were the camera women. HAHAAA and we didnt camwhore much okay ):
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
intoducing:

THE ORGASMIC FACE(or so he claims. and denise claims.)


AIDShawn. wahsehhhh got aura sia!


successfully hidden behind AIDShawn HAHAAAA!


whats that behind! mike 'qiang jing tou'


HAHAHAHA embrace his aura (wait! why do i look confused?)


RAS embracing the sun while i still try to figure out whats so great.


mike and i have wide smiles (and i am trying to act cute).


HAHAHA scott! what did you do to make denise so sad?


BRATHER in arms (well, biceps in this case).


what is it you are trying to say!?


SCOTT is damn reluctant to take picture with me ):


pole dancing. HAHAHAHAHA


our new favourite move. mike is the outcast. HAHAHAHA


fik isnt that amused by me.


fik has a blur face right! must be the flash!!!


QY IS FINALLY SMILING NICELY. HAHAHAHA.


he trying to copy my move ):


me, denise and fik!


SPASTICS ALERT!!


SCOTTY is a killer.


why are u copying me!!


YOURS TRULY(: (:

overnighting

soooooooooooooo! here i am, staying overnight in school today with my fellow lovers. gwen and denise. and scott, would be the bodyguard of the night (provided he is not that afraid) wahlao i dont know why am i staying over also lor. and today, the day i decided to do my work properly, is the day i get left behind.......... sounds bad. the day i stay in class till the end of lesson is the day when all my friends leave early. i swear, i am a little (maybe not that little) oddball. i go against the flow. like i skip classes when everyone else is in class. BUT I STAY UNTIL DAMN LATE WHEN EVERYONE ELSE LEAVE LIAO! what is this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel so out of place. i am not connecting with myself. i must connect with myself!!!!!! (X10000000000times)

so today was lunch with alot of people. can it be called a bonding session? me, denise, yunnsin, enqi, khim, and aaron. qy was supposed to join us too. but he got proj. scott and charles were at gym. if not, it would be damn fun mann. and i didnt finish my chicken rice! ZZZZ waste food. i feel so sinful! we all talked damn alot. HAHA and khim told me he actually reads my blog! my god! i so didnt expect it. hahaha. and he complained that i blog in one chunk and his eyes always strain to read the words-.- therefore, i have decided to anyhow paragraph my words. HAHAHA happy khim? and i never put the smallest font liao la. i put normal only. normal looks too big though. after lunch, i went to library to borrow a book and its by Stephen King, The Dark Half. about 460 pages. will tell you all when i finish reading it okay? my aim is. less than a week. or less than 3 days, if i read it continuously. HAHA!

then after class, i went to club then dinner with gwen and denise, scott and vincent. and me and gwen got a **** ******. hahahah try guessing? then we went to club to slack. gwen went home. and now we are at moberly. i am blogging my ass off. my god! i went to the toilet like. FIVE times already today. my a****** HURTS pls. cause i am continuously ****ting. HAHAHA! so what if i am full of shit? erm, okay i am getting annoyed cause someone is not replying my msg. cause i think someone fell asleep. and i found out some stuff that is really killing me la.

and erm, i still think opposites attract pls. front left. right back.
front left, front left may be similiar. but i prefer opposites. or right front also can.
i cant move on, and i am sure you know how it feels, AHHHHH!
and i know it isnt possible la. cause my heart aint got no more space.........................

its like 1116pm now. why is blogger timing so screwed?

updates

FRIDAY:
after running with denise, then i went to gym with my new bffl(: HAHAHA guess who....... actually we were at the upper gym. and then everyone else left so only left me and bffl-.- then, the BBs came and i was scared so i dragged bffl to the pool gym. HAHAHAHA and we met bernice there. zzzzz. after we ended gym, then we went to FC3 to lunch (actually i am the one eating and ppl watching) and my selfproclaimed best friend came to join me and bffl. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA oops that sounds so mean. then i went to club. slacked. then went to stadium to look for FATZZZZZZZZ then, see him do pullups. then accompanied FATZZZZZZZZ to fc6 for his jap food. wahlao. so ma fan pls. then waited for gwen at club. zzz then we went out. and i feel that whenever we go out, we talk damn alot. haha got alot of gossips sia. HAHAHA but i like (:

SATURDAY:
met gwen in the morning to KLP for like breakfast. wanted to study but didnt la, obviously. HAHAHA cause we talk damn alot.......... girls..... tsktsktsk. deposited paddles with our 'papa' HAHAHAHA. then we walked back to SDBA at 12 and reached early and we saw................... my EC. wah damn fit pls (: (: (: running was a killer under the hot sun. many casualties. and i am proud to say i am not one of them. grrr! super super love running. then rowing. so what if mrtp came for trng. my heart is dead. dead la okay. i know whats going on. so what if you came. so what if i went for trng too. does it matter to you? fuck! so stalker had backpain. get well soon pls. dont over train la. you paranoid piece of shit. HAHAHAHA yes hello to you....... then we ate. burger king for dinner. FAT pls ): then ZIHAO came and he helped me carry my paddle. HAHAHA thanksthanks!

SUNDAY:
didnt do much. fell fucking sick. fucking fever. fucking diarrhoea. fucking pms. fucking gym. fucking no sun. fucking cannot tann. fucking long ride to orchard with denise to study. fucking freezing. fucking go to toilet for about. 10 times. to pee and shit and pee and shit and pee and shit. fucking keep peeing and shitting. fuck. okay i am having pms. everybody should just die right now. fuck la. especially you, stop causing me so much heartache. but you shouldnt die. but fuck la fuck.

my goshhhhhhhh

HAHAHA i think u smiled at me. did you? did you?
(fuck i am damn high now la. i am so high over your smile. ahhhhhhhh i am going crazy. please smile at me more?)

its friday, 12.50pm. i just finished running the perimeter of the school with denise and MX.
and i clocked my PB(:
denise's too. hehehehe we are ST partners <3 love you PLEASE(in that irritaing voice. HAHAHA)
okay the above colour looks damn gay. but whatever. denise likes red and orange. HAHAHAHA so do i. pink is too gayyyyy-.-

trainings are killerZXz

ohyeah. just realised that there is this so called peak period where everyone leaves. after a major race(june race in this case), there will definitely be such events happening. this misfortune happened to the guys team. and it befell our girls team too. i cant say much to those who leave but. yeahhh just want you to know that we do support your decision. though we cant do anything about it. it is ultimately still your choice. if you feel you will fare better having left the team, then all the best (: no sarcasm intended. i, the great one HAHAHA, too have been through my fair shares of people leaving. people coming back. people almost quitting. when people leave the team, does it mean that their passion is not there anymore? maybe they HAD to leave because of certain reasons. maybe they will come back stronger than before. but, when they wanna come back, would we welcome them? would be treat them the same again? some of the answers might be yes, some of the answers might be no. different people have differing views and it is not up to us to control what other people think. dragonboat, is not only about yourself, it is also about your team. can you imagine the pain you put us through when people leave? leaving the team, is not a joke. its about you leaving your sisters and brothers behind. i do not for once think that you take the issue of yourself leaving as a joke. but if thats really the best, then. go for what you want (: it is not that i do not want to show emotions, but when i act nonchalant, it is a shield to protect me, myself and i from the pain. the best way to not get hurt is to not bother so much right. what for delve into the affairs that are not within your control. i cannot say this doesnt bother me much. it does. but, i am sure it bothers the junior girls even more. cause, we are a different batch, i am sure they would have bonded much closer with other juniors instead. what would happen if one of us seniors were to quit? i dont know and i dont wish to think about it. i have no more space in my brains to think about anything else anymore.

coach came down for today's training. and today is the day when i realise that i should not try so hard anymore. it is not within my control. i still feel the same, if not even more (and i am sure you are damn sick of listening to me say that and proclaiming that). but what i feel is not within my control. though i have been telling people that i wanna give up, i cant. i know i wont. i am not even sure of what you think anymore. when you speak to me, it is as if you cant wait to get rid of me. it is as if i am a piece of rubbish. do you even think twice before saying whatever you wanna say? HAHA okay not gonna emo anymore. anyway, i forgot what i wanted to post. hahaha weights were good. erm, pool rowing was a killer. and! i ate instant noodles after trng. but i didnt finish the noodles. i just transfered the noodles into a pudding cup and proclaimed 'HAHA, cup noodles' with a gleeful smile on my face, only to meet with the stone faces of denise, gwen, zakiki and yunnsin. so much for trying to crack a joke. HAHA i am such a loser. oh well. ehh then trained home with denise, zakiki, mildred, edna and the invisible girl (ruifang). haha we were trying to outcast her and i must say we were rather successful at doing that (: yay three cheers to us. erm, we were SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO successful that after mildred and edna alighted at outram (this information is for you stalkers, in case you wanna stalk them) then me denise and zakiki forgot all about ruifang until she alighted at kallang and knocked on the window then we remembered her presence. wah wah we damn good at forgetting la. HAHAHAHA okay erm then i walked home and i got damn scared cause got many people burning incense paper and joss stick and like i got damn scared la. but the park there got bright and colourful lights for the national day dinner so it was alright. HAHAHA i like the lights and i want to go sit at the park and look at the lightssss. anyyyyyyyyooooooooooneeeeeee gonnnaaaaa date me? pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee hahahahaha!