It's empty and cold without you here.

I can proudly boast that I have been to ION Orchard. I know la, damn lag right, open quite some time ago already now then go. Hahah but whatever, been there already so to those who haven't been there, DON'T GO!! Because the crowd will suffocate you alive!!

Oh dear i just typed the above and then i got distracted by happy farm on fb hahaha and i am too lazy to caps my letter 'i' and put punctuation so haha can be a full stop or sth haha uh i am lazy to update too goodbye!

I believe

that nobody ever reads my blog anymore because I am always complaining and I dont blog about interesting stuff. What to do, I am a boring person what. I feel like drinking bubble tea and eating shaker fries. I have been shaker fries crazy since it came back!! Omg, need to cut down on unhealthy food. No wonder my tummy is not going away. Hahahahahaha I wanna get my ass back to training. I miss the ladies even though I just saw them on Sunday. Attendance is getting from bad to worse. I must go for training to inject life haha with me around, it is as if 10 people are around. Don't worry ladies, I will be back.

Relax, take it easy

So I haven't been updating again because I have alot to type and there is always not enough time for me to blog when at her place because I already hog onto the laptop using facebook and if I start on blogger, I think there will be no end to the quarrels that crop up because of this hogging the laptop issue.

-While I am trying to update, my contacts are screwing up (and it's a new pair ley!!) and my nose hurts cause the classroom is too cold and my eyes are dry and I am distracted, playing happy farm and farm town and talking to spasbf on fb chat-

I am supposed to start on a concept and layout for the site but I am having a mental block and I keep thinking of ways to get more experience points hahaha shit I sound like a loser, hooked onto a stupid crop growing game where I cant earn money (well, not real money that I can spend) and did I mention that I am quite competitive when it comes to online games hahaha. Need to be at the top of my game.

Okay so the girlzies celebrated my birthday belatedly after training on tuesday. Didn't have the time to update. Hahaha and I received a new sports bra from them with a super thick padding -.-"

Anyway this is not the whole point of the post. The point is that I went into the hospital last night at twelve plus and the best part is, it's my mother's birthday omggggggg. I waited for four hours and then finally it was my turn. Shall not mention why I went to A&E department because it is fucking retarded and you are all just gonna laugh at me but I was very traumatised and cried okay. Imagine that! How much does it take for me to cry!! Was so scary! ): ): ):

All's well now and I am in class trying to think of a concept now.

So I caught Harry Potter

and I am horrified to say that it wasn't up to my standard because many things were changed. True blue HP fans will agree with me that it was nothing like the book, okay la, maybe a little the same but mostly different and I am so disappointed ): ): I hope the last 2 movies will up better since they are going to spilt it into 2 parts so I hope there will be more action and stuff.

Back to updating about my life.

Sunday: Due to training for 10km Austchamp event, we went for long distance rowing. Not very long la, but long enough to kill I guess. Met NGNG for some phototaking at CQ and then went over to her place for dinner. Signed up for a big (in my opinion) event and then went to sleep. NGNG wanted to buy her shoe online

Nice anot? And I wanted to get a pair too,


Actually there were a few more pairs that I was interested in



BUT the shipping cost was 97pounds. Like omggggggggg the shipping costs more than the pair of shoes!!

Hahahahaha then the end of Sunday.

Monday, I went to school late but late is better than never right! So yeah went to school and had submission, went home and then checked on the hamsters and went off to watch HP and got home late.

Okay, how does it feel turning 19? IT SUCKS! Because this is my last year as a teenager and 19 is in the middle of nowhere. At least when we turn 18 we can look forward to clubbing, drinking, smoking and M18 movies. 19 feels as though we have been there done that. Nothing new, nothing fun, nothing to look forward to anymore. It is as if we are one year nearer to death hahaha!

Sad to say, I have not accomplished much in my 19 years of life. While I have friends who are 19 and going to Uni this year already, I am still stuck in year 2 of poly life, whooo life sucks. While there are others who are already 19 and know how to drive, I haven't taken my btt (and I have no plans to anyway!). While there are others who are younger than me and already have successful blogshops and businesses, I have neither and nowhere near having. While there are people who are 20 and have already given birth to a bouncing baby girl by natural birth, I am also nowhere near and not planning to be near that state! I am not proud to be 19 and with nothing to my name but that is a fact. And I hope it changes by the time I turn 21 (HOPEFULLY LA!!!).

I am 19 already and I have not accomplished anything. Should I wish to die earlier?

Okay, I should say that this 19th birthday was way better than the 18th birthday. I am much happier this year when compared to last. Thank you everyone who wished me be it face to face or through sms-es or facebook or friendster (HAHAHA friendster sounds so ancient now!). Should I name everyone? Hahaha no, I have very little friends because I am a loner. Hahahahah. Thanks to Yiling, who was the last one to wish me, haha totally made me laugh la, stupid girl, I shall TRY to stop bullying you.


My 19th birthday was spent training in the morning, lunching with the some of the ladies in the afternoon, chatting over lunch going home to nap before heading over to my cousin's 21st at some chalet at Changi Coast Walk. Was so tired after training and I was almost falling asleep there, not because it was boring but because I was tired.

Uhm, I didn't eat alot because I was feeling bloated from Godknowswhat and very tired to chew. Hahaha had fun spraying foam strings on my cousin.


Okay, my wish would be to grow taller (VERY VERY IMPORTANT!!), stay happy, grow slimmer (work towards being slimmer I mean), improve my feel of water, bring SPDB (girls) to greater heights, to have the team remain in it's current size, lift heavier weights, accomplish something big and also I wish for world peace! Is it too much to ask for?

Nobuddy ever believes me

and I am too fat for my own good and I hate it.

I can't give up food to be skinny so I am going to train more. Run baby run, don't ever look back. Run more run.

*edits.
You know the sinking feeling you get in your tummy when you are very hungry and you feel like you have not eaten for a damn long time. Yea, I have that feeling now, and it's making me not wanna eat. I don't want to eat and having that feeling makes me feel so accomplished. I can control my food intake. Now now, don't think I am all mad. This is just a stress relief method. Who knows, maybe my tummybag will shrink and I do not need to injest as much food as before. My appetite has become smaller, yay. I need to eat less, train more, run more. Train more, whack more weights, starve myself, feel the pain. Feel alive.

Don't care if it is spoiling my body.
Don't care if people think I am seeking attention like that.
Don't fucking give a shit about who what where when why how anymore.

Need to be skinny and no I won't listen if you tell me I am skinny. I don't believe you. I will know whether I am or not when I step onto the weighing scale. The numbers don't lie. 49, come to me.

Back from lunch

There was training on Tuesday and my biceps are still aching and thighs too okay. I feel so loserish like, wahlao, do a little weights only then ache here ache there. How to attain my 15kgs like that. How long must I wait? Oh dear. Need to push myself harder and not get left behind. Other peepalzzz are improving rapidly, slow down and wait for me. No, I cannot be so selfish!

Wednesday was free day for me yay! So I hatched the grand plan to go have turtle soup. Tasted alright I guess, considering that it was my first time having it. Turtle meat is tougher than chicken, couldn't really break it down so I had to swallow it just like that. Hahahaaaaaa turtle soup tastes like bak kut teh ley! Quite yummy, wouldn't mind going back for more -Hints- but I don't wanna walk so far. Please carry an umbrella next time, YOU carry it okay thank you.
After turtle soup, we went to have some Rochor Beancurd and then packed some home and went to the arcade for some flying game which I crashed terribly. Maybe it's some hint that I can't fly a plane. I can't play Daytona either, so maybe it's another hint that I can't drive a car :/ How now brown cow with a crown frown? Think I need a chauffeur plzzz CAN YOU HURRY GO BOOK YOUR FTT AND THEN PASS IT AND START THE PRACTICALS AND BEFORE LONG TAKE YOUR DRIVING TEST AND PLZ DONT MOUNT KERB AND PASS IT THEN CAN FETCH ME AROUND PLZ PLZ PLZ!
Anyway, then we went to play Bishi Bashi, so goddamn addictive that I always choose the beginner stage and get to try out all the levels hehehe. Then went over to nap and have dinner. Fish Porridge, woah damn shiok. Am so thankful I get to eat good food! Heheheheheee.

Thursday, got to school late and there is training later, submission has been changed to Monday, thank God. Bye. Off to listen to the talk on the difference between Intensive and Extensive Green Roof. Whooooooo I am so cheem ley hehehe bye.

Influenza A virus also known as H1N1

I typed this really long post but somehow it got deleted and I am really annoyed now. Gonna post after lunch, damn it.

After lunch post

I have this balloon with me filled with helium right now floating in front of me but it cannot fly away because it is tied to a string which is attached to this little pouchylouchy that ♥ lent me.

I am here right now stoning in class

I don't know what to update about my life. Hair is being annoying as usual and the nice straight shiny metallic extensions have become all crumpled and it actually resembles frizzy hair like how awesome and I was planning to put more but noooooooo it's such a waste of my money but I like ley. See, I am a confused girl again.

And seriously, fuck la, Happy Farm always takes so long to load in school and it is not making me happy at all okay, this is not fun!

Training resumes today and as I am updating this, I am also supposed to draw some funny shapes using AutoCAD and I highly suspect I will fail la, seriously. How the fuck I draw in AutoCAD la, I don't wanna retain and get kicked outta school. Wait, I can't even retain again. Anyone good in AutoCAD? I am willing to pay for you to draw my plans and stuff hehehe seriously la, not joking cause I really need to pass this year. I don't wish to be a loser anymore!!

And HP6 is coming out in 2 days. I really wanna be one of the first to catch it but alas, I have school ): ): Life sucks when I don't get what I want and that happens pretty often. Life also sucks when I have got to go to school is which nearly everyday and therefore life sucks most of the time.

Shall update another post about some cheeminology topic. Lunch now anyway.

Food food and more food

I had a very sumptuous dinner last night with NJY♥ and family hehehe :D and I am proud to say that I helped out a little :B Was busy eating therefore no pictures of the food.

Wagyu beef, Angus beef, salad, baby potatoes, portebello mushrooms, minestrone soup hahahaha was so full I nearly burst! :/ As usual was being so greedy but I weighed myself this morning, hehehehe 55.0kg ley. Cool or not!

NJY♥ doesn't like feeding me, everytime I ask her for food, I gotta wait for her ): Just waited one hour for my milo and biscuits the other night. And I cannot wait to watch Harry Potter 6 lor.

All this eating is gonna take a toil on me ): they always say the weighing scales don't lie but I don't believe the weighing scale! I am always heavier when I weigh myself in school ): So which should I believe? The heavier weight right, so I feel more motivated to lose weight. Which I will.

And am planning to run the Standard Chartered Marathon this year. Shall hurry sign up and then start training. Hehehehe train until I become lean and can run in sports bra and shorts wah I so cool ley hehehehe!

Bye.

New bun in the oven

Hahah sorry for the picture spamming. hehehehehehehe

I feel like

I really need to blog and since she is gone, I shall hog onto the laptop (while watching Harry Potter) and update! (:

B's gone for dinner at Sheraton Towers and I am all alone in the TV room with the greedy dog. Thank god that small thing is in the guest room and not jumping around and bugging the shit out of me. Seriously!!!!

Forgot what I have been doing.

Friday: Let's see, I went to school in the morning, though I was late, I managed to finish my part on time and then we had a submission at about 12 and I finally got to eat my Cinammon Melts! Omg, damn sweet pleazzzze and I bet Kwansiewansie will like it hahaha she has such a sweet tooth. But sweet stuff makes us fat ): Oh mann and salty stuff induces water retention and makes us have cellulite.

Met Kwansiewansie and then we went to town hehe walked from Far East to Wisma to Taka to Cine and then we took neos again! (Waiting fr her to send me the pictures so I can upload here hehehe then you all can see me and Kwansiewansie's beautiful faces (: )





Anyway, time for weight obssesion again ): Training hasn't resumed and I am losing weight now because we are not doing weights. When I get back to training, I bet my weights will decrease and my weight will increase because I'd be gaining muscle mass?

Haiya I am so full of complains and people wont wanna read my blog anymore ): Life does not suck. I am afraid I will fall into my cycle of not going to school again. Please please don't let that happen. Okay la, I shall save some money and then put more colour shiny strings in my hair hahahaha. Quite cheap but still a waste of money ley. And did I mention that I wanna grow long hair? I feel like it! Omg, this is how I will look.




Nice anot? Pretty anot? Hahahaha chio right, okay la, I know la. Can't resist borrowing people's (mainly Bernice's and Gwen's) hair and pretend it's mine hehehe.

Maybe I should go for hair extensions but they are so heavy and my hair will be flat cause it will be weighed down ):

Back to Friday, after that we met NJY and then we walked to Zara at near Liat there and then we saw this freaking x1732820594 times fat girl and I was wondering how she can fit into the Starbucks chair, omg :O Jaw dropping la, seriously. And if I ever reach like 60kg, I will kill myself. Shall train very hard from now on and try to go running everyday aiya okay la I all talk no action right. I will prove it to you!!!

And I will die to be 49kg!!!

See the new addition to my hair?

If you see the shiny thing in my hair, it is the new extension hehehe but it isn't that obvious and I think it's very cool. Might get more done if not for NJY's nagging. She said it's damn digsusting! ): Really meh, I quite like it ley! Hahaha I am a happy kid with cool hair!

Oh and

what colour should I paint my nails in and toenails too?

Hehehe collage!

She says someday she's gonna marry me

and I wonder when that day will be? (:

Because I was too bored

Name of 20 people you can think of now.
1. Ng Ji Yan
2. Rachel Kwan
3. Bernice
4. Gwen
5. Cassandra Ee
6. Wee Yunn Sin
7. 010
8. CYY
9. Mildred
10. Edna
11. Dominic Chua
12. Michelle Leong
13. Zakibunzx
14. Michelle Tan
15. Lynette Lioh
16. Chua WeiSiong
17. Yong Wei
18. Novelyn
19. Joanna Soh
20. Beatriz



How did you meet 14?
-After I joined SPDB. She was the captain then.

What would you do if you never met 1?
-I wouldn't be who I am now.

What if 9 and 20 date each other?
-That is impossible!

Will 6 and 17 date?
-Maybe since 6 wansts to!

Describe 3!
-Fucking bimbo shit hahaha I love you pacer! (:

Is 8 attractive?
-Maybe she will be after she grows taller hehehe!

Describe 7
-Short hehe easy to bully.

Do you know any of 12's family members?
-Yeah, her boyfriend HAHAHA

What at if 18 confesses to you he or she likes you?
-Cannot be la, she has hers, I have mine.

What language does 15 speak?
-English la then.

Who's going out with 9?
-Idk, seems to me she doesnt date but am not too sure!

How old is 16?
- 19 this year.

When did u last speak to 13?
-Last week of June when she came down for race!

Who is 2's favourite singer?
-5566 hahaha and me hehe

Would you ever date with 4?
-She's my deardearzzzz! (:

Will you ever date with 1?
-Hahahaha yes pleaze

Is 19 single?
-No, she has been attached since Godknowswhen?

What is 10's last name?
-Ang!

School of 3.
- Singapore Poly

Where does 6 live?
-Yishun!

What is your favourite thing about 5?
-The fact that she is my sister!

Have you seen 2 naked?
-Nope, don't think she will let me see ):

When I was young,

I wanted to marry this guy!!

Typing Maniac is fucking addictive!

As I am trying to update this blog, Typing Maniac is open in another window hehehe!

Anyway, it seems as if after everyone else got Twitter, nobody really updates their blog anymore. Sometimes it gets a little boring reading one liners and you still feel empty. Yes, with Twitter, bitching definitely comes in bite sized pieces for those who cannot stomach too much bitchiness but nooooooooo! Somedays, we need a whole chunk/load of bitchy blog/lj posts to feel full. Doesn't anybody out there agree with me? :O

I hope everybody gets Twitter so nobody talks in class anymore woah! Coolio!

About my day/life

Before I continue to drone on about my day my this my that blah blah I need to complain first.
THE NEW HAPPY FARM LAYOUT SUCKS BIGGGGGGGG TIME! OMG AND IT TAKES SO LONG TO LOAD, SPOILING ALL MY MOOD TO BE A HAPPY FARM CAMPER! THE SMALL WORMS LOOK SO UGLY NOW AND THE WEEDS LOOK SO CHILDISH. AHH I AM SO ANNOYED! WHILE I AM TYPING THIS, IT IS STILL LOADING, STUCK AT 70% OKAY GODDAMN SLOWWWWWWWWWW :/

Anyway, I do not have lessons on Wednesday so I decided to plan an outing for me, kwansiewansie♥ and NJY♥!

Here goes a post about my life.
Met kwansiewansie♥ at cineleisure at about 12 and wanted to go see the NUM slippers hahaha kwansiewansie♥ was dying to get her slims (noob la, after so long and havent gotten the slims yet!) She wanted the black slims and there wasnt any stock at Cine so we decided to go to The Cathay to get it but too bad her feet too small and there wasn't any slipper that was of her size hahahaha who ask you to be 35/36 instead of 37/38!!!! After walking around NUM, we decided to take neo prints, so pretty ley hehehe ^^ then we went to get a secret weapon for the Sushi buffet later but we didn't get to use it at all! ): ): Then we began our long walk to The Cathay the weather was so hot and I almost died! Both of us were wearing our same top and we decided on shorts and slippers hehehe so cool ley look like sisters just that kwansiewansie♥ is the more ahlian version and yours truly would be the ahbeng version hahaha!


NJY♥ took so long to come and by the time she arrived, kwansiewansie♥ and I already finished walking around The Cathay and all three of us slacked around a little more before the high tea buffet started at 230 whoooo we the tai tai and now I am lazy to update somemore. Oh then as usual I helped kwansiewansie♥ to paint her nails. I also painted my nails a medium shade of blue hehehe and hers is now a shimmery lime green which does not, in my honest opinion look like green at all :/ Hahahahahahha change colour soon la kwansiewansie♥ so we can have the same colour hehehehe (: (:

After waiting for her nails to dry, she left for home to prepare to go to the airport while me and NJY♥ went to catch a movie hehehe ICE AGE 3, I swear it's damn funny and we accidentally bought the tickets for 2.40pm instead of 4.45pm and it was so embarrassing to be found sitting in someone else's seat like omg where to hide my face sia. Then we found another seat at the back of the theatre so not so bad la hahaha.

We walked to PS after the movie cause I wanted to see this bag in this shop but they didn't have it and I also went to top up my ezlink card and bought Yami Yoghurt too hehehe boysenberry, weird, I don't really like it. Walked to the bus stop and after much debate about whether to be kpo to check out KPO, we decided not to and boarded the bus home. Hehehehehehe frog rice for dinner and caught the re-run of The Ultimatum, last episode but NJY♥ had trng on Tues so she caught it only yday. Up to her room to do the ppt slides and then sleep. So tired :/

Off to school and here I am updating this boring old blog. Oh well and have I mentioned that I was the 3rd to arrive in class today hehehe feel a sense of accomplishment!!!!!!! Shall maintain it, to feel good whooo!

My new aim

is to be leaner and actually I dont really care how much weights I can do anymore HAHAHAHAHA no la, I am still aiming 15kg biceps hehehehe.

Has anyone ever noticed that it is only skinny people who are models? I mean of course there are fat models but they are a minority. Who in their right minds want to see fat models? Skinny models are who we look up to, no? I feel that most skinny people, no matter how they dress, they still look beautiful. Blame it on Asian bones maybe, we have bones so small that we need to be so skinny in order for our bones to be visible.

I will give you 3 images now.
First, imagine a FAT girl wearing shorts and singlet, second, this MEDIUM girl wearing shorts and singlet and lastly this SKINNY girl wearing shorts and singlet. Which appeals to you most? Definitely not the FAT girl right? I suppose MEDIUM would appeal to most because skinny sounds too, boney maybe? But then again it depends on what kinda shorts and singlet you are talking about. If it's FBTs and trng singlet, then the MEDIUM girl would be ideal BUT if I were talking about hotpants/shorts and racer back tee, the SKINNY girl would be appealing. Okay whatever. Anyway, the whole point is SKINNY is the new MEDIUM HAHAHAHAHAHA! And MEDIUM is the new FAT. And FAT is the new suicide. Oh no, I am the new FAT ): ): ):

60, 59, 58, 57, 56, 55, 54, 53, 52, 51, 50. 49 please.

Architecture&Built Form

Actually the above title has no relevance to whatever that I am about to post now. I am addicted to L4D even though playing alone is of no fun and I get quite scared because I am like the team leader among the computer controlled players and I don't know what to do. I know la, I am a L4D noob since I only JUST started playing hehehe I think I wanna go to the LAN shop to play again with the ladies!!!!! Come okay all join me ley.

School has been treating me alright. Can't complain much cause I didn't even attend school much. Wonder how my groupmates felt when they found out I was in their group. Hahahah saw them today and thankfully they haven't torn their hair out. Blogger is kinda user friendly hehehe I like. And I like the fact that everyone can see this post whereas in LJ, I can choose to make it friends only.

Suddenly I feel like I wanna gym and I cannot wait for B to arrive in SP so I can go off with her. It is because of my ladies that I am sticking in school and I definitely won't give my team up, no matter what.
Think positive, stay strong.
Hahaha such a wrong reason for me to stay in school but I don't care. I feel like going for Nteam trial (go ahead, laugh at me) but what for, I asked myself. I have a school team that is already close to my heart, besides, I cannot commit to both school and outside team. That would be a fail proof way to kill myself, with my studies already dying. Hahahahahahaha fat hope la, I won't go into Nteam, don't really wanna embarrass myself. The only way I would consider that is when my 2.4km can finally reach below 10mins and biceps 15kg and 18pullups (that is near impossible!!). Okay wait, nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer hahahahahahaha.

Bye

Team (:

Start of July (:

The last time being

before the race and now after the race. What am I talking about? My updates on this blog, what else!!

JR is now over, obviously we see where we stand. Just too bad that there is only one JR per year. Well, quite retarded saying that because in every year, there is only one month of JUNE! It's okay, because we still have 10km challenge to work for (that is if we are participating!) and also Sava and Regatta. I wonder who will be the Sava babe this year :/ HAHAHAHAHA I feel perfectly fine that we didnt get anything for this race. There are other races to train for and I am glad that I have one more chance next year to get whatever we aim for. Though my batch will be graduating and I am not sure how the current year2s will think of me, I am really scared. What would I do without the rest of the 5 year3s? Yes, YunnSin will still be with me but only for half a year, how am I supposed to survive the next half a year without her? What if I feel left out?

Used to be so heck care about retaining, but now I know, now I know.