FF? dont read if u think u will get offended.

how do you tell if someone is really your friend?

chanced upon that question on someone's msn personal message and it got me wondering. the time is currently 11.59pm laaaa. as usual blogger time is screwing up on me. like. what the hell right. i think blogger secretly hates me. anyway! i have got alot(maybe not alot la) to say on this topic of friends.

what are friends for?
are friends hypocrites? looking to steal away things you hold dearly in your heart while you are unaware?
are friends backstabbers? telling lies behind your back? warping the truth and making things worse then they seem?
the word 'friends' seem so overrated. are people on your friendster list your friend if you have only seen them once before. yes, friendster is a social networking site. BLAHBLAHBLAH. so what? friends only what. friends come and go. there are so few who will stay. so few who dont change. so few who can accept you for who you really are (bad breath, hairy armpits, sweaty palms, sweaty feet, gross to the max maomao, BLAHBLAH.........). HAHAHA digressed a little.

ANYWAY!
are you guilty of committing the above? guilt is eating you up inside. and you just want to confess every bad deed that you have done to someone. why not confess it. keeping it inside aint gonna do you no good.
i am aware that in this dog-eat-dog world, people who lie to get their way do exist. people who cheat to gain do exist. and people who backstab just to climb the ladder exist too. this whole world is too malicious. too evil for innocence. innocence does not exist anymore. only lies and deceit. you know you are guilty. you know you were guilty. why not stop this now? why not just end it all? why still continue? it is hurting you. hurting everyone else.

there are some friends who i do trust. with my life. even though we just got close recently. and! no that is not an exaggeration. there are some team mates who i would give up my life for cause i know they are true to me. and there are other friends who i feel are just bullcrapping to me. BC all you want. i know the truth and thats all that matters. i know this post might apply genarally to like a few people. it will be so sad if you feel guilty and think i am talking about you, but i am not. why would i? why would a person, full of pretence like you matter to me? you have got to be joking............. now now now, dont go running to someone and complain just because you think i am talking about you. i am not. i am not. dont worry about it. this is meant for no one and just for me to rant.

thats not alot to talk about after all. erm okay nights. whatever. bye.





do you know where your heart is?
do you think you can find it?
wherever the end is,
do you think you can still see it?