dumb school

been a hectic week. excited about camp. certain arrangements are bias if i may say so. some people join the camp to get the singlet. wtf maybe we shld make ugly singlets. so they think its cool to wear the db singlet? sorry but i dont think you are worth it. so annoying. i will squeeze the life out of you. db is cool. but just joining the camp for the singlet is not. please wake up your idea. excited about camp. excited about camp. gonna bring my whole collection of fbt shorts to camp. black, blue, red, fluoro orange, orange, light blue, yellow (but not fbts). and many other singlets. need to cut my hair. someone thought ayf was gay. cause he was holding another guy's hand. apparently that guy was me-.-!!

more potatoes

i am the drummer.
need to lose weight to be the drummer. 45kg would be ideal.

i can cox too (:
seriously i can cox a 10men boat. and i can cox it on land too. wow!

bea and i in class.
i like to disturb people in class.

jae and i in class.
jae is just acting studious.

i look like the guy-.-!


close up


i look kinda slim here.
what i do during lunch, so sweet right!

deardearZXzxzxz and i (:
i lurbbeZXZxz miiee deardearZXzxz lotXZxzxz.

my face looks like a circle.


yellow nails and PSP.


shawn, bernice and i.


me and shiya(she is afraid to drown on land-.-!)
and i am using a laptop in the boat.

attack of the gummy bears!
number off! 1. 2. 3. 4. 5.

sexy potato(:

what are they doing?!

this is my sexy love.

she is coming to me(:

sexy sexy. i like that body!!

i likeZXzxzxzzxzx:D

photoshop

sucks to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!

i am using pink cause i hate pink.
i hate photoshop too.
i dont wanna go to school tomorrow.
i got nth to hand up to the teacher.
i want to quit course.
i see no future.
i dont like secrets.
i am an angry kid. whatever. bye

dear boy

Dear Boy,

I do love you. Maybe one day we will fall in love all over again. And we will discover how it felt when we first got together, during the period of Regatta. Trips to the esplanade after trainings, after dinner with the team mates. It's been 5months coming 6. I suppose things arent the way they were before. What can i do to salvage this whole thing?

Your friends think you dont deserve someone like me. My friends think that you have changed and therefore i dont deserve someone like you. But dont you think that we deserve the love that we share? The love we share is out of the world. I would very much love to be what you deserve. What you need. The person that keeps you going. I want you to be happy with me. I wish to be the one that can make you happy.

Maybe i deserve someone just like myself. Spoiled. Demanding. Stubborn. Overbearing. Annoying. And maybe a tad too proud at times. Not forgetting i am violent. And that when i talk, it seems like i am shouting. Any normal person wont be able to stand me. But i thought you were the one until one day, you went MIA. and things took a dip for the worst. Ahh. Maybe you secretly agree with them. Why are you sticking to a person like me when there are a thousand other girls out there who would worship you. Told you before, i cant be the perfect girl. Yeah why are you still with me. Every other girl out there is secretly in love with you (except maybe my db girls).

I wish i can be the right one for you. But i dont think i can be the right one for anyone. I mean. Who can stand my temper? Who can give in to me so much. Being with me is like a. Shit job. You can keep it up for a month. For two months. Three. Four. Five. Six. Or maybe a year. But can you keep it up for life? Maybe one day, i will be able to find someone who can. For now. I hope you are that someone and. Will continue to be.

But i want you to know. I still love you. More than ever. I know for sure the way i feel towards you. Its more than just a feeling. Its indescribable. I fucking love you, do you get it?

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.

I wish you were beside me to hug me to sleep through the night. Baby, you know i love you so.

another quiz!!

1. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE? yes
2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP? 1year 6 mths 1 week
3. LAST TIME YOU CRIED? last week i thinkkkkkk
4. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGMENT RING? no ):
5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT? is trng counted?
6. THINGS YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON? food la then!
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE? sushi
8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? legs
9. ONE FAVORITE SONG? blind
10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE? singapore
11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED: temasek
12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDE: starhub
13. FAVORITE MALL STORE: no favourites
14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD: this one right now: oriental banquet-.-!
15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE? no
16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE? been long since i did that.
17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED?: aunt's
18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY: do i look like i have such luck?
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND: yesterday
20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT: ljs
21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD: that they dont lie-.-!
23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?: varies
24. CAN YOU COOK?: not at all ):
25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?: i dont drive
26. BEST KISSER: myself (:
27. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?: eh. is food counted?
28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS: bittergourd?
29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: laughter :DD
30. YOUR FAVORITE OLD CD: i dont have CDs
32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?: mm. 7am-1am
33. FAVORITE MOVIE?: too much to mention
34. CAN YOU SING?: screech can la.
35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?: no money to go for concerts
36. LAST KISS?: gwen, 2 days ago.
37. LAST MOVIE RENTED: dont rent movies! no $$ ):
38. ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT: clothes?
39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT: eh. sentosa. HAHAHAHAHA! just joking!
43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?: desktop.
44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?: shiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. HAHAAAAAA
45. DO YOU SMOKE?: not at all (:
46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?: with la. i scared of cold.
47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?: my bolster la :D
48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?: never been in one :/
49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE? never la
50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST? pancakes (:
51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE? not really
52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? anyway!
53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?: its FAKE.
54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?: uh. shiya, this morning.
55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST? meimei
56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?: pamela i miss you!
58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?: 1
59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?: shirt running shorts
60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC: happy birthday to you.
61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?: grape
62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?: no
63. CAN YOU SWIM? i dont swim. but i can
64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?: banana, mango
65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?: of course!
66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: i'm never going to throw away my bolster
68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?: no
69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?: anytime i'm happy
70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?: eh now?
71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING ? 623am and i got home at 240am.
72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER? snow
73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?: -
75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?: pampampigpig
76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?: overrated but i still like leh
77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND? trng la what else
78. BIRTHDATE: 1807
79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE: intelligent.

wednesday baby

i was born on a wednesday. work was fine. buffet dinner. clearing and topping up of drinks. there were HUGE prawns yday. and sushi. enough said.

work sucks, leave me roses by the stairs.

work sucks i know.
is anybody gonna leave me roses by the stairs.
surprises let me know you care.
FAMILIAR notZXZzxzxz?
cant believe i am gonna be working, goddamnit. never mind. its okayyyy.
work=money=shopping
X1000000000000000000000times.
(proceeds to drill that into my own head.)


i am happily in class now. report writing. my lecturer looks very pretty. she has braces (: and no. i am not interested in her-.-! anyway!! i am so excited for GEMs later on. i think its so cool. AMAZING CREATURES BIG AND SMALL. whooooolala!! i likeZxzxzZxz can! HAHAHA! everybody should take that, at least that is what i feel. no exams or whatever somemore. only quizzes. and its all multiple choice. and only 1 class available. 40students. i am the lucky few, and again. thats only what i thinkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!
SO. TOTALLY. ANNOYING. THAT. YOU. ARE. LATE. FOR. CLASS.
and you know who you are. how come you stay so near, and can reach at 10am for a class that starts at 9am. while i stay so far and can reach at 9.46am for a 10am class. please be a good boy already okay. dont be late for school anymore. lets make a conscious effort to be disciplined and manage our time well. trainings have increased. i understand that you dont have much time to spend with me. i understand. i understand. i would rather you go home and rest than to spend so much time with me which means not getting enough rest. then late for class-.-! we must not let the same thing repeat itself.
G.P.A. OF 3.1 (is it too high?),
here i cummmmmmmm!(babygee, youre supposed to laugh here!)

tuesdays with morrie's friend: pammmm-.-!

tuesdays gone bad. i feel so lousy. trng yday. 2.4km run. timing was what i expected. i knew it. good run with shiya(: muacks you shiya!! bad news for the girls team. we are all shocked and thrown into confusion by the sudden news. cant tell you earthlings out there what it is though. if you know, you know. if you dont. i guess you will find out soon? i am having panic attacks at the thought of that. and all thanks to her, the secret slacker. anyway. weights were extremely heavy but few reps. trng was fast yday. weights chopchop. medicine ball chopchop. but after trng all of us dilly dally and talked about the impt decision that has to be made ): really hope that more thought would be put into it. this will affect the whole girls team.
you know who you are. if you are reading this. the whole purpose is to make you feel guilty. which i am sure you already are. so. yeahhhhhhhhhh. my attempt: FAILED!!

ahhhhhhhhh

this cannot be.
i am working tmr.
i am working on friday.
both at 5pm.

somebody can shoot me now. just shoot me. goddamnit.

letters of the alphabet.

THE LETTER 'A'
Are you Available?
No.

What is your Age?
Going 18.

What Annoys you?
People walking very fast and leaving me behind.

THE LETTER 'Y'
Do you like the color yellow?
Yeah, used to be my favourite colour.

What Year were you born in?
1990.

THE LETTER 'F'
Favorite Flower?
Sunflower or Lily.




THE LETTER 'P'
What one fear are you most Paranoid about?
People leaving me. Be it friends or whoever.

What Personality traits you look for in the opposite sex you like?
Patience.

THE LETTER 'E'
Have you ever been in the emergency room?
No.

Did you had a crush that starts w/letter E?
Ee Pei Shan? Crush myself.

THE LETTER 'I'
What's your favorite Ice cream?
Any kind. Got ice cream can liaoZXzxzxzxz.

Have you ever Ice skated?
No.

Do you play an Instrument? And what is it?
I dont, unless recorder is counted.

THE LETTER 'S'
Do you prefer sun or rain?
I like the sun so that i can sun tan.
I like the rain cause Ayf's sister is called Rain.

THE LETTER 'H'
What's your Height?
16 SOMETHING la. The higher end (:

What color is your Hair?
Brownish?

THE LETTER 'A'
Are you Available?
No.

What is your Age?
Going 18.

THE LETTER 'N'
Do you have a Nickname?
Pampers-.-!

What's your favorite Number?
7, 18.

Do you prefer Night over day?
Yupps. I like night activities.

another one-.-

1. Your status please.
Attached to ayf.

2. How many hours do you sleep?
Long long hours.

3.Do you own a laptop or cellphone?
I have both.

4 Where is your bf/gf?
In class?

5.Last person you kissed?
Ayf-.-!

6. Have you been to the movie in last5 days?
NO! Bring me please.

7.Last food that you ate?
Pocky (:

8 . Your dream vacation?
Egypt.

9.Have you been in love?
Yeah.

10. Do you miss anyone right now?
Yeah.

11. What are you listening to right now?
Classmates talking.

12. Do you collect anything?
I collect stickers.

13. Last time you took shower?
This morning.

14. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
Yeah ):

15. Have you ever broken someone else's heart?
Should be.

16. If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
Yeah.

17. What's in your mind?
This quiz very long.

18. How do you feel right now?
Cold.

19. What was the last SMS you receive about?
'You careful okay. I love you! Muack!'

20. Do you smoke?
No la. I am an athelete.

21. Usual first impression on you.
Stuck-up.

22. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Ayf.

23. What's yr answer in no.8?
Go see la.

24 . When's the best time to eat icecream
Anytime also can la.

25. What are you doing tomorrow?
School, out with may?

26. Were you a nerd in 5th grade?
No, never a nerd.

27. Have you ever been on Tv?
No.

28. Have you ever loved so much that you're willing to sacrifice your life for him/her?
I would, for ayf.

29. 3 things about yourself?
Lazy, fat, stubborn. Noisy. OOPS more than 3.

30. What's bothering you?
My shoulder ache.

31. What are you thinking abt?
Menses suck?

33 . Best childhood memory :
Buying storybooks!!

34. 5 of your biggest fears:
Standing broad jump, pull ups, shuttle run, 30mins warm up run, losing.

35 . Would you ever get back together with any of your ex's if they askedyou?
If ayf broke up with me, yes.

36. Want to marry?
Yes please.

37. To whom?
Ayf.

38. Alaska or Hawaii?
Hawaii. Cant stand the cold.

39.Do you love chocolates?
Yeah, love dark. But any chocs will do.

40. Words for the day.
I dont wanna die.

a long quizZxzzxzxzZXzxz

1. Does it matter to you if your bf/gf smoke?
Wont force you to quit. but thankfully, ayf doesnt(:

2. How about drinking?
We can drink together and get drunk together too.

3. Do you want someone you cant have?
I have him alr.

4. If someone liked you right now,would u want them to tell u?
I want to know. I don't mind knowing.

5. Whats your favorite sport?
Body building-.-! No kidding, heh heh.

6. Its saturday night, you're home alone.. what do you do?
Sleep, what else?

8. Can you do the splits?
Yes. LAST TIME. Will practice if you wanna see o.O!

9. Do you like roller coasters?
Yeah, so coolZXzxz!

10. Whens the perfect time to have a boyfriend/girl?
When you can commit?

11. If you could date any celebrity,who would it be?
No wish to.

12. Whats your favorite band?
I dont have favourites.

13. What are you doing this weekend?
Training-.-!

14. Whats your favorite restaurant?
Fast food restaurants :D

15. Do you usually fall for the right or wrong girl/boy?
-.-!

16. Have you ever hugged someone?
If i say no, will you believe?

17. Ever kissed someone you werent attracted to?
Truth or dare kind?

18. Do you like anyone right now?
Not like. Love.

21. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Legs!!

23. Which do you prefer, beach or the mountains?
Beach la then.

24. What kind of phone do you have?
Motorola?

26. Computer or laptop?
Laptop?

27. What is your favorite store?
FOOD STORES.

28. Jeans or sweats?
Shorts. Heh!

29. Which year has been the best so far?
2007.

30. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
18. AHHHHH! So old-.-!

31. What should you be doing right now?
Editing powerpoints for projs ):

32. What is your favorite tv show?
Any show will do. I am a TV addict.

33. Color?
Bright ones. ORANGE!

34. Are you attracted to girls that smoke?
Fine with it?

35. Would you want a chilled laid back gf/bf or a party animal?
Anything, thankful to have one already.

36. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
Yes. At orchard =_=!

37. Explain your dream car:
Dont know much about cars.

38. What do you do when you're at home?
Sleep, bathe, eat.

39. Whats your favorite subject?
I dont like to study.

40. Where do you want to go to college?
Not too sure.

41. Do you like to go to concerts?
Only some.

42. Favorite type of music?
English songs?

43. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Right.

44. Scariest thing you've ever done?
Nothing? I lead a boring life -.-Zzzz

45. Whats the best feature about you would say?
Hair.

46. What annoys you?
When ppl walk very fast and leave me behind.

47. If you had one super power, what would it be?
I want to know what you're thinking.

48. Ever gone to saturday school?
Yeah.

49. Been kicked out of class?
Unfortunately, yes.

50. If you could say anything to anyone?
This is getting boring.

51. What are some of your favorite quotes?
(NOT) VALUE FOR MONEY $$!!

52. Are you jealous person?
Yeah, i guess so. Make that very!

53. Are you friends with people that you shouldnt be friends with?
Like?

54. What is your deepest fear?
Death-.-!

passed liaoZXzxzxzzxz

yes ah. today! i finally went on my date.
went to orchard. took 106 there la-.-! and i thought gonnna take train cause ayf and i got train concession. i know. we very budget la. but 4 rides leh. then in the end i used 2 only.
NOT VALUE FOR MONEY!!!! ahhhh!
we went to wisma. to repair the sony ericsson phone, oh how i wish for that phone to be back. cause i can so totally camwhore! yes that is totally bimbotikkkkkkkk, but whatever!! hahaha so beachy rightttt?!
yes we quarrelled over something stupid. i forgot what. then we saw the 52inch HD tv. damn bloody big and nice. but i want the 70inch one. but costs a bomb. ohhh. i better study hard and be a successful landscape architect. i wish to roll in money but thats like damn smelly. money is smelly. money is dirty. but i cant live without money ): pathetic i know. damn it! i want like alot of things in my future house. and in the event that me and ayf were to get married, he is not going to pay for everything okay!! i am not that mean.
i will be a rich person. i will be a rich person. i will be a rich person.
(proceeds to drill that into all of your heads)
i found out that when ayf is pissed. he likes to walk damn fast and leave me behind.
i also found out that ayf is damn amused by me using 10fingers to eat. and no. i dont exactly look unglam when i eat. no idea why 10 fingers come into place. maybe more help, lesser mess? HAHAHA! i was using 10fingers to eat the cheezzzzzzzzeeeeey meltZXzxzxz from KFC. ahhh cheeeZxzxz is so niceZXzxz. i like!
anyway we got the slipper, red havianas. it was 39/40 then i thought it fitted ayf just right but we went home then his parents said it was too fitting. not nice. therefore. i am gonna take his pair and go get a new pair for him=_=!! and i am gonna get one size bigger. his feet is like so small and cute. AHHH! damn cute.
after we got home. he showered. i put lotion on his sunburnt skin. then we went to sleep. like.


okay byeeeee.

monday

mondays are spent photoshopping in class=.=!!
i dont like school.
supposed to go on a date with ayf. ahh! will it fail again..................
zzzzZZZZzzzzz-.-!

sunday

supposed to go on a date with my ayf. but alas i had to go visit my grandma. therefore date failed............

secretly trng.

its a sat. the girls have their one star course for kayaking. so there wasnt trng. but me and denise went for secret training. we went to tamp gym. and di rowing for like. 1000m. timing was not bad la. lower end of 4 minutes. heh i aim to be on par with shiya for rowing machine. i think shiya secretly trains with her brother or sth. how can she be so powerful. cannot! i must train harder. i am missing the girls team alot. because there will usually be trngs on saturday la. ah! maybe i am like secretly in love with all the members of my girls team (: hellos yous girls reading this post. please love me more too and support me more during my failure pullups -.-!!

THURSDAY:
trng after sch and yunn sin didnt attend because she was sick. went to ayf's house to stayover. good night sleep. but he rolled off in the middle of the night. he would rather sleep on the floor. arghhhhhhh! but i pulled him up. and he had to sleep beside me again. i was feeling cold la. no idea why he always feels warm. i think he is a super warm blooded animal.
FRIDAY:

woke up late for school. therefore i didnt even bother to attend my lessons. i feel like a bad kid. skipped school twice in like. 5 days. wow! anyway. ayf kinda pissed me off in the morning. ah! waited for about an hour in the club for him. then went over to his place. some of the db guys went to his mother's shop to get their hair cut and he had to go down to accompany them. so i stayed alone at his place. luckily i had rijin and zhi gao to accompany me. not forgetting cheng feng. HAHAHA trying to guess who are they right? watch ch55 lor.

gain some lose some

started out a good day. lessons at 10. ended at 12. joined gwen and shiya for lunch at fc3. gems at t16. AMAZING CREATURES BIG AND SMALL. teacher is damn funny. i like. have to learn the scientific names of the animals and stuff. panthera leo, panthera onca, panthera tigris. hahaha. and guess what is homo erectus?? eh dont think dirty ah!
shopped with gwen, bernice and shiya after my gems. bought a bag. i think its so cool but SOME people dont really like leh. i bought a dress? well. its plain old grey dress. no laces or frills. but i think its cool too. but again, SOME people dont like. cause too short. hello is your gf tall okay. wth-.-!! and gwen lost her phone! ah! and we only realised it when i sent her a wrong message and she wanted to check what i sent. oh mann. we retraced our steps and couldnt find anything. sorry buddy. cant really help much. hope you werent screwed too badly. love you buddy!

(insert name)
please do not say you will message me when you know you have no time to. or should i say cant be bothered to. excuses. dont tell me you have no time at all? and that you need one week to think of a message to send to me? i know trainings have increased and i do understand. name of the school at stake right. you say i didnt appreciate you. please be thankful i am understanding enough to ASK YOU NOT TO SEND ME HOME. or else you would be alone on your way home instead of talking to me on the phone and telling me you want to hang up when i start talking about you know who. urrrgh the thought of him pisses me off. anyway, please do not compare my camp and your camp because apparently my camp can see both sides of the picture. okay la but i still love you la. so you know who you are?

(insert name)
so! tell me what did you do to my denise? please la. karma comes around okay. one day you are going to get it real bad. oh, remember we were in the clubhouse then we were looking at gwen's friend's friendster profile, okay cut the complicated thing. we were looking at ABC's friendster profile? and you say you have seen her around school? haha! come on. even ABC has a girlfriend and you dont. doesnt that already signify that something is terribly wrong? yes. i dont encourage/promote lesbianism because i currently have a wonderful ayf which is constantly listening to your 'kah-ing of my jiaowei'. but i am not against lesbianism either. well any idea why girls fall for girls? maybe it's because of jerks like you? oh sure. i have heard about many girls liking you or whatever else. or how this girl wants your number. or that you have alot of girls outside school? problem is. its only happening. not even a solid relationship? come on. i dont choose to disbelieve. i disbelieve because it doesnt come true. if you think you are so great, please get a girlfriend yourself and lecture her. dont come and lecture us girls. yes you have rights to lecture us in the team. lecture about trainings. but hello? you condone vulgarity? look who gave me the finger when i said even ABC has a gf and you dont? please practice what you preach will you? yes i agree with denise. respect needs to be earned. and i think you should work doubly hard to earn it. i know nobody in the team SINCERELY wish that me and ayf stay together. well no guys i mean. but its his life isnt it? PERSONAL life to be exact. you are neither his father nor his mother. not even his sister. just so you know. his family doesnt exactly dislike me. or maybe i should say they like me? take that! yes as i was saying, none of you think i am worth ayf. but does anyone of them show it like you do? eh please laaaaaaaa. wanna talk bad about me, please do it like. on the phone with him. or on msn. where no one else can overhear the conversation right. or complain about it to someone who wont tell me? use your brains la. you tell ayf, then if i ask he will sure tell me because of the simple reason i am his gf. and you are just his team mate? brothers, sureeeeeeee. BUT tell me which brother will ask him to break with the gf? do you want good for him or do you want to cause him harm? think please. i still have got alot to say. but i wont cause you didnt do anything to me yesterday.
and please do remember that if the girls are hurt emotionally or mentally by your words again, we wont do well for the races. and the SPDB name will be tarnished. now i am sure as VC of SPDB, you wouldnt want that to happen, would you?

just shut your trap

(INSERT NAME HERE) you know who you are.
please just stop talking bad about me in front of ayf, thankyouverymuch. i mean. just too bad if you dont think i am good enough for ayf. you need dettol for your mouth for all the filthy things you say about me in front of ayf. why not tell me straight in front of my face? stop asking ayf to break up with me. stop asking ayf to get a new girlfriend. stop all of your crap like how bad i am and such. do you really think ayf doesnt know my bad points? sorry. we are 5 months and going strong. you only see the bad side of me. you think ayf is perfect? no. he is far from perfect for no one is perfect. but so what. i can accept his flaws. he can accept mine too. who do you think you are to try to influence him. if you are so great, go get a gf yourself and then try to make her your dog. let me make it clear. i wont be a dog to ayf. i can listen to him. i can try to change in order to suit him. but whatever you say just totally turns me off. just to spite you, i can oppose him. but whats the point? you are so not worth it. i am not going to quarrel with him over you. yes i do agree you have authority in SPDB. but you have no right to control the relationships in the team. this relationship between me and ayf is not affecting the team. if it is, please do not worry because i will put the team first. my girls team is more important. glory of SPDB what. if the girls do not do well, isnt it going to spoil the image of the team? like, the girls cant win compared to the boys. because of ayf, i am going to train hard. the girls are going to train hard. to get sth for all the hard work. dont you think that will make ayf proud of me? oh that will be so sad for you right. because ayf is happy with me. sorry he is just not into you.
want me to answer your questions as to why he wont break up with me? why he wont get a new girlfriend? because he knows that inside of me is a good that all you narrow minded people cant see. that's why. take that.
and i dont understand why you can ask him to break up with me, if we do break up, it is going to affect him negatively. then i cannot see your guys team doing well. i am sure you wouldnt want that right? that'd be so sad. i dont understand why my camp can support me and ayf being together. being my camp, i am sure they know my bad points. they can see my good points. other than that, they can also see the change in ayf. they ask why am i still with him. it works both ways. just that your camp, being so narrow minded, cannot understand what good ayf sees in me. sorry if you all think i dont treat him well. i do, in ways you all cant see. because you are not observant enough.

i still have got alot to say. just that i think you are not worth me squeezing my brain juice dry just to tell the whole world what a jerk you are. and that girls should turn to lesbian instead of getting together with you. just so you know, you turn me off as much as you are against me and ayf being together, oh! if not even more.
please stop pretending to be friendly in front of me. i do not need your hypocrisy.
and you can go bury your head in some girl's boob and thankfully stay there and shut up.

okay bye.
i hope some guys in the team sees this post and reflect to you about it. you need a wake up call.

AMAZING

MONDAY!!
didnt do much in class today.
did like photoshopping the whole day in class.
teacher was quite pleased with my work.
HAHAHA i got talent okay.
gotta use photoshop to do slides.
woah and i thought photoshop only used to edit the pimples.
anyway.
LUNCH was at fc1, with
yunnsin, shiya, denise and anni.
ANNI came like damn late. like AFTER we finished eating.
what the ponggggggggggggg?!?!?!
she is so dumbZxzxzzxz.
after that went to the clubhouse.
john goh came down for the guys heart to heart talk.
the girls were outside the club for about.
TWO AND A HALF HOURS.
haha are we dumb or dumb to wait so long.
meeting about the calling of the freshies for the DB camp.
we have to call like. about 20 people each.
then i walked off after the meeting.
AYF went to eat with the guys and he didnt text me.
i went to tanjong pagar to look for him.
waited roughly for about an hour?
then i got to meet him and stayed over at his place.
yes went home in the morning while he went to sch.

TUESDAY!!
skipped school the whole day.
waited for my sister then we left the house together.
met her friend at tamp small mac.
trained down to cityhall.
they were going to bugis.
collected my pay.
ahh so many things i wanna get.
actually just 2 things.
a new school bag.
and another pair of shoes on discount! $89 only.
anyone wanna get for me?
HAHA trng was a killer.
biceps with dumbbells are a killer.
rowing machine in the pool gym almost killed me too.
DAMN it. am i that unfit?
wtffffffffffffffffffff. better train my thighs. hahaha
1000m rowing can kill okay.



WEDNESDAY!!
i seem to talk alot today. i am currently in class now.
having report writing.
hahaha had to write a compo?!
guess what topic i wrote?
MY PAST EXPERIENCE LEARNING ENGLISH.
needless to say. i crapped all the way.
yay!

wtpongggggggggggggggg!

IGNTS.
did i ever say i didnt appreciate you?
told you right from the start that i wasnt gonna be a good girlfriend.
cant behave. cant talk softly. cant this cant that.
oh. most importantly.
I CANT LIVE UP TO YOUR EXPECTATIONS.
i know i know. so sad right.
so withdraw your affection then.
HAHAHA school starts at 10.00am.
u tell me thats early so cannot come and find me.
its the first day of school and why cannot come and find me.
you wouldnt have said that last time, would you?




YOU HAVE CHANGED, REALLY CHANGED AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY.
CONTINUE THIS WAY AND I AM SURE THE FEELINGS WILL FADE AWAY.
dont wish for this to happen.
life sucks.

spdb banner

POL-ITE

thursday:
cafe cartel with gwen, shiya and bernice.
kyte was working.
i found out her real name.
cool yo!

friday:
work from 12 noon to 1.30 am.
got home only at 2.45am cause the bus came late.
(maybe that is why we didnt do well. HAHAHA!)

saturday:
third placing.
among republic poly. ngee ann poly. nanyang poly. and ite.
five boats.
third placing means we are neither good nor bad.
no prizes for guessing the top two.
neoprints with the surviving five as the rest had left cause of their appointment.
pam, yunnsin, anni, bernice and zak!
HAHAHA ZAK took neos. YAY!
OLD SCHOOL YO!
neos are a form of stress relief.
but they didnt allow me to scribble.
tskkkkk. spdb girls ah.



sorry pictureless post.

peeeeeeeeektures

me and my sister

before we started.

extravagance.

the love that will never die


anni's card.

gwen and i.


deardearZXZXzzxz

sp 11. my first love


and happy birthday to tan-anni-versary

rainbow

first leg of masters is over. good race. but bad timing?
first heats: we got 3rd. timing was 2:52:?? so we qualified for the repecharge.
repecharge: we got 2nd. but alas. we didnt qualify for grand finals. timing was 2:54:??
minor finals: we got 4th. timing was 3:00:??
yes as you can see. timing is going down from bad to worse.
HAHAHA. but i can say starts improved. now is the time to work on our strength and stamina.
lets do it girls. lets all do it together. we must do it together.


I AM A ROWER.
YOU ARE A ROWER.
ROW TOGETHERRRRRRRRRRRRR.

i never felt like this before.
i miss sleeping with you.
i want to cuddle beside you.
i want to hide under the blanket with you.
i want to feel your arm under my head.
i want to push you off the bed.
i want to kick you off the bed.
AND YOU KNOW I WILL PULL YOU UP AGAIN.
ahhhh.



WHO ARE YOU TO MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY?
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MY BOLSTER, I LOVE YOU ;D
HAHA GOTCHA!

master's series

anni and i, pre-MR500.

tmr is master's series.

no expectations.

i have got alot to say but i just dont know where to start.

lets just give it all i guess.

school is starting soon.

anni is going to leave the team.

then what is going to happen to me.

i mean like.

we have been pacing together for quite some time already.

HOW HOW HOW?

we have come so far.

i will miss you.

HAHAHA i make it sound like you are not coming back ):

but i really am very affected.

BOOO!

four of us. i miss those times.

AHHHHHHHHHHH i wanna go cry one corner. i am a sad and depressed little kid.

monthsary with dearXzdearXzx~~

1st april:
gwen became my deArZXzzdearZzxzZX(:
hahahahaha collected our pay. ate alot. talked alot.
heart to heart yo?
db girls pranked their bfs.
got into trouble.

2nd april:
gems appointment.
AMAZING CREATURES BIG AND small.

3rd april:
sea training.
starts wasnt good.
some last charges were good.
feel really lousy. cause i pacing with anni.

me and shiya. bugis. after training.

4th april:
5th month with mr MIA.
feels good to have come so far.
in school to paint the dragonboat banner.
need to wait till 2pm to get the classroom key,
and even then, we might not get it -.-!!

you are my something special.
i love you AYF!
you jyst walked out of my dreams.
other girls cant get to you, why am i the lucky one?

i still cant believe you are mine.