what i did.............

friday:
school. slacked in class. lunched with ayf and friends. fish and chips...... make me feel like vomitting. but ayf says the portion is bigger. more value for money so i decided to get it. wrong choice. i think chicken chop nicer.......... chicken owns fish anytime. beat fish flat! FLAT! then i went to work. and ayf and friends took the same train as me. friends meaning not-so-fit shawn and that weisiong. they went to tp la. ayf sucks right? while i am off working and trying to make money to support our life, he is off looking at girls in tp....... goooooooooooooood husband right? TAMADE! work was slack. did the set up for the upcoming meetings. my toes are uglyyyyy. after work, i went to ayf's house to stay. goooooooooooooooood night(; but we slept on the floor. so pathetic right. but got the cosy feeling la. so its not bad also. but the pillow keep sliding off from under my head can. so irritating.

saturday:
training in the afternoon. seniors 2-4pm, juniors 4-6pm. tried different partnering with denise and bernice. damn stressed to pace with both of them. sorry to make shiya kayak. next time i kayak ok! love you! sorry! eh, went to ayf's to stay. washed my shorts and SB at his place. dried in time for training on sunday! goooooooooooooooooooooood night too ;D wah damn shiokkkkkkkkkk la. stayed over like 2days in a row. HEH HEH. i like lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........

sunday:
training in the morning. was damn tiring. accompanied shiya and gwen to cut their hair. as usual current-tpcpc got lost and i had to direct her. shiya sucks at directing directions la..... cabbed there. courtesy of zihao. shiya went dating on the bus...... HAHAHA zihao, gwen and i outcasted the lovebirds. HEH HEH! sorry la. the bags had to take up one seat too right? then they go cut hair. i was dozing off. met yuanfeng at tp (tanjong pagar). errrrr. took a nap. no gooooooooooooood afternoon ): HAHAHAHA. his parents invited me for dinner. but i politely declined. went home and found out my sister and mother went shopping. and my sister got the same wallet as my mother, and now i am tempted to get it. i should right? but what if it doesnt suit me? i am tempted to get it. will get it i think. ahhhhhhhhhhh. no must save money for present. maybe i should not buy present. HAHA cannot la must buy la. important also leh. ahhhhhhhhhh!! internal conflict...........

monday:
slept the whole day. visited grandmother. my poor brother had plain rice for dinner cause he didnt like the dishes. too bad. serve him right....... cut my hair. but abit no difference. in search of really cheap tidbits. recommendations anyone? and i just realised that the 8th is on a freaking sunday which means training................
TA MA DE.............

senses

so yesterday i went to school. like finally there is school but that is not the point. i went to school. supposed to finalize my layout but apparently, i was doing nothing in class as usual. went for lunch at foodcourt3 with yunnsin. and the most puzzling messaged bombed me. michelle messaged me!! asking me whether i wanted to meet her and zakkybun. HAHAHA i thought we were going to make buns. YAY! i went out with them and yunnsin, after i got over the initial shockkkkkkkkkkk!! felt so weird la. like. a lowly member, going out with the captains and vice captain. (no i am not sucking up to them by going out with them.) ayf pissed me off in the morning. we were supposed to meet at 930am at TANJONG PAGAR mrt station. he woke up and 845am. and arrived at 1015am. wtf you tell me. LIKE ITS SO NEAR HIS PLACE AND HE WOKE UP EARLY. SO WHY WAS HE LATE? i probed for the reason. and he said. he was dilly dallying at home. ahhhhhhhh!! i tell you, i am damn pissed. damn pissed. urgh >:( so pissing. there is training later on. heh heh. i think today's trng will be damn tiring? ahhhhhhhhh. i was thinking last night. how many people in this world will go train willingly and still proclaim they love dragonboat even after they have been doing the same things for a few years? even i cannot do that even though my passion is there, sometimes i do wonder what am i doing, waking up so early in the morning and going for trainings.

(insert name) : back stabbing is definitely not allowed in the team. so do not do this to anyone at all. what is said between us is supposed to be kept between us. do follow the training plans. heavy weights means heavy weights.

wtpongggggggggggggggg!

IGNTS.
did i ever say i didnt appreciate you?
told you right from the start that i wasnt gonna be a good girlfriend.
cant behave. cant talk softly. cant this cant that.
oh. most importantly.
I CANT LIVE UP TO YOUR EXPECTATIONS.
i know i know. so sad right.
so withdraw your affection then.
HAHAHA school starts at 10.00am.
u tell me thats early so cannot come and find me.
its the first day of school and why cannot come and find me.
you wouldnt have said that last time, would you?




YOU HAVE CHANGED, REALLY CHANGED AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY.
CONTINUE THIS WAY AND I AM SURE THE FEELINGS WILL FADE AWAY.
dont wish for this to happen.
life sucks.