I am going to outdo myself yet again. Project submission is on Monday and I still havent done a thing, how long has it been already? GOOG GAME LA PAM! HAHAHAHA. Uh, the lecturer said I wont fail, which is a good thing but i dont feel like doing my project... AT ALL! Someone save me please. I think I am addicted to something which is good for me but too much of it can be a bad thing too. And I am addicted to training. Damn it. Life kinda sucks. I want to take showers with my bathing partner! I miss youuuuuu. And you know who you are, G (: I cannot wait for trainings to resume. I miss all of you(s) already okay. Now, it's time to start a new diet. Go self train. I need to be 49kg. I NEED TO BE 49KG! But I know I cant be, cause I am getting fed with food all the time, like -rolls eyes- ALL THE TIME. I need to be fit, not fat ):


Okay, IGNTS.

Ride forever.

I have alot on my mind.

We should not believe we can comprehend the imcomprehensible, we may not compare the incomparable.

Is it so that when you say 'knew,' the most you can actually do is assume, and that when you say 'believe,' you are actually making things up?

A life made up of advances that were actually frantic retreats and victories that were concealed defeats.

And if I was not guilty because one cannot be guilty of betraying a criminal, then I was guilty of having loved a criminal.

There are matters one simply cannot get drawn into, that one must distance oneself from, if the price is not life and limb.


Everything was easy; nothing weighed heavily.

Why? Again?

Why? Why does what was beautiful suddenly shatter in hindsight because it concealed dark truths? Why does the memory of happy marriage turn to gall when our partner is revealed to have had a lover all those years? Sometimes the memory of happiness cannot stay true because it ended unhappily. Because happiness is only real if it lasts forever?

This is almost true for all relationships isnt it? So happy together for so many months then when it all ends, the two parties revert to strangers. It is as if everything that was shared has never been shared. Hahaha. The way humans/homosapiens behave..... Tragic indeed..

Loser-fied.

Today is the day, I feel like quitting school and just killing myself. Wait, today is one day out of the many days that I wanna give up on life cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe. Even the air doesnt smell as nice or as fresh as before. People are becoming scarier and more sinister. I feel so suffocated. I cannot breathe properly. It is after Regatta and I think I am suffering from Post-Regatta symptoms. I feel like I have nothing to live for anymore because trainings have been reduced, in fact, there isnt any training for the next two weeks. And I have a freaking project submission on monday. I havent even done anything, like seriously nothing at all, yet. I feel like a loser, seriously.

I HATE SCHOOL.
I HATE PROJECTS.
I HATE DAYS WITHOUT TRAININGS.


I highly suspect that if I didnt join dragonboat and met all my ladies, I would have quit school long ago. Thank you for everything that you all have done, be it big or small. You girls have touched my heart in one way or another and I know that I can never bear to leave anyone of you. And we are all going to grow stronger, together or, what's left of us that is.

RANDOM

I am very bored BUT I dont feel like typing so much. I shall give short sentences.

1. I ate MegaMacSpicy when the girls went to Suntec Macs after Regatta.
2. Only I ate the MMS while they had the MacSpicy only.
3. I feel like a pig.
4. I like to eat bananas but i dont like banana.
5. Are marbles made of glass?
6. I am starting the ST and the D (:
7. I shall not talk about Regatta.
8. I feel stupid for feeling sad for your team.
9. Fuck you(s).

I dont think this is considered updating but whatever-er-er.

AND MY HAIR GREW ALREADY LA WAHLAO SO FAST I DONT LIKE IT AT ALL. WASTE MY $$$$$$$$$$$$$$ ):

And the time is 1036am. It is the 24th.

WOESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSs

I went with gwen to look for her bag yesterday and I found the benefits of being a student. While buying bags can get discount. Hahahaha. I think I better get used to people looking at me on the streets. It is such a chore to be a girl and having shaved sides. I think my mummy finally let the shock of my new hairstyle sink in cause she nagged at me this morning and then she made me promise not to cut it again. But, as if I care. Hahaha my hair, I do it the way I want. Uh, protein loading tmr :/ We are going to Seoul Garden. Wahhh sure fat until die. Then the boat sink, then how to win?! Hahah then die luhhh, other people better than I am ): I will surely cry okay. Yes, I am a cry baby. Uh, uh, uh. Gwen, cheer up please. You still have me through it all. And, I will hold your hand if you wanna hold mine, that is. Hahahaha.

Life has been so mundane. School. Training. Eating. Sleeping. Uh, other mundane stuffs. Really feel like running away. I cannot wait for Regatta to be over, then can shake leg at coffeeshop and read my storybook. Hahahah. I have run out of money. I have run out of oats. I have run out of things to say here. And, I really, really, really cannot wait for Regatta to be over-er-er. So many things to doooooooo!!


OKAY BYE.

R to the A to the NTS.

I so need to rant. As usual you all will say, whats new?

So i got the hair I wanted but somehow I am still unsatisfied. There is this saying, The Grass is always Greener. And I find it so true. But luckily it only applies to hair issues and not my love issue. Can you imagine if I already have a love and I am still unsatisfied and I go looking for another love. Oh, I think M will be devastated. Hahaha. Now I am in class, like I always say, blogger's timing is screwed. It is currently 1027am on a freaking Monday. I feel like I havent been into friendster for freaking long. Friendster, you are killing me. Hahahaha!
Came into class and the reaction I get from people when they see my hair, HAHAHA damn epic luh their faces. Please do not think that I am an attention seeker, because I am not. If only there was a camera in my head, I can snap pictures of their reactions and post it online, and it will be so, funny? Okay sorry to be mean! But I never ley so I am not that mean. I need to post pictures on my blog already. It is getting very Very VERY mundane. Earthlings, I am sorry.

Oh and I never got the chance to mention, I have truly outdone myself about one week back where my weight shot up to 60.7kg. Can you(s) fucking believe it? I got a shock when I stood on the weighing scale. So being the paranoid little(okay maybe not so little) pest that I am, I bugged people to guess my weight, and luckily noone guessed that I was 60.7kg or I would have really killed myself or would have gone on a crash diet. I guess Carbo loading doesnt work for me. I have been having mixed rice for damn long already. Sometimes lunch and dinner both also mixed rice. Wah, so much rice okay AND SOMETIMES I still add rice. Cannot take it..... I am amazed by how much I eat at times though it is not alot when compared to others. I wonder how people can add rice and then manage to eat faster than meeeeee! Why! For the record, I am no longer 60.7kg. I am back to my 57-58kg range and I am still aiming to be 49kg. I am sure I can do it. I hope I can do it.

Okay, I guess this post is crap. I should really just type and type and then save as draft and not publish anything. I was at Maui yday and then I read this mag. And there was this section: 126 reasons to have sex. And reason15 was, Because we feel horny. I cannot believe it. If you have sex with your gf/bf just cause you feel horny, then where is the sexual connection? Doesnt it cross your mind that you might only be using him/her to relieve your urge? If you feel horny, you can always go masturbate right......? Hahaha! Earthlings nowadays, tsktsktskkk.

Ooooh, it's 1111am! Somebody must be missing me.

MFMAMFJ (:

There is a long story about this Martian and this Magneto. And I am thinking of whether I should tell the Earthlings and MoonMen about the story. But then again, it is an exclusive story so I will just keep it to myself for now.

And they say....

Alaska Kerr, your cherry stalk knotter. says:
all those time during sec school i was perving at your tanned tonned legs

Alaska Kerr, your cherry stalk knotter. says:
HAHHAHAHA

Alaska Kerr, your cherry stalk knotter. says:
omg.

I say:
haha wah!! i used to think that my leg damn nice until i come poly, gorgeous legs a plenty...

Alaska Kerr, your cherry stalk knotter. says:
i dont care about other legs!

Alaska Kerr, your cherry stalk knotter. says:
HAHA

Alaska Kerr, your cherry stalk knotter. says:
only pam pam pmamamama



HAHAHAH thank you very much, cherry stalk knotter, my future hair cutter!!! (: (:
And then, there will be people commenting on my legs, confirm. every part of me, there are people who will diss.... Whatever!!!! Who cares what you think!

Boredom Strikes

This post shall be about Me, Myself and I (: Those are my three friends and I am very happy to have them (:

But I have no idea what to post. Did I mention that individual proj has started and Me is very afraid. I have until the 1st of Dec to complete everything and then submit them. I am so dead. Can anyone who is good in MicroStation or AutoCad help me out please. I can make sure my layout is easy so you can help me draw it (: Why, Thank You Very Much. I need to go consult my lecturer on my layout.

Everybody is excited about Regatta. I say Fuck Regatta! Damn annoying. I dont feel like I am up to it. I feel very small and insignificant, wait! Is it insignificant or unsignificant? It should be insignificant right? It sounds significantly correct... Hahahah. Actually, I shouldnt put all the blame on Regatta. Cause I can do my work nowwww(!!!!) but am still blogging away. What if other people tell me that I keep blogging and I blog nonsense/rubbish/bullshit/a load of shit!? Oh mann. I need to stop procrastinating. I still havent thought of my in depth concept. The current unexpanded concept is: Tropical Fusion.... Hahaha what does it remind you of? And the place that I am designing is.... Fucking Kallang!!! What the hell. Is it a coincidence or coincidence!! Oh, this is just great!

Anyway, I am in class now, it's freezing and my heart is beating really quickly. Keeps thumping and thumping. I think I am gonna die. Not so bad la... Die early then wont be very ugly on my death bed. I have been a very grumpy person recently. Sorry to all who have been on the receving end. I am sure you know I dont mean it, besides, I am usually alright in about 5 minutes. Yeaaaaa, my mood changes like the wind.

Rants!!

i am in the clubhouse now and gwen is sitting next to me. i feel very very happy that she is beside me now. i am very dependent on her and denise and i feel like i will die if i dont see them for a day or so. for all those out there, if you make me feel this way, then you know you are definitely in my heart (: and you are very very important to me. this space in my heart belongs to my dbgirls. and maybe to some random lucky person. and if anyone were to hurt them, i shall train to erm, 15kg biceps and other stations and kill them idiots. okay thanks bye.

i believe that no one can force you to do whatever that you dont want to do. if it is against your choice, then we had better think twice about it. i dont see why we cant rebel against the other party's intention. there is no point. and as the saying goes, it's always bros over hoes. and in our case, we girls are the bros... if you get what i mean.

i am always ranting and ranting and not slowing down to see what could go wrong in life. maybe i am too preoccupied with my own life to give a shit about the going ons in other people's life. uh, hair issues. uh, fats issues. i really dont like people touching my fats. like, squeezing my fats ): i know i am fat. -work in progress- i shall get rid of the fats. unless you are someone important. okay bye. training starting...

!

And I forgot to mention that after my lover and I meet up. We are going to elope to Saturn. Uh oh. Did I just tell the whole world that? Dont stalk please. Thank You Very Much. Bye Bye.

It Is When Things Seem Worst, That You Must Not Quit.

Hahaha actually, I dont know what I want to say. Hahaha I am not having any second thoughts about the shaving of my sides. But, maybe I should stop being so obsessed with my hair. Hahaha I sound like some, wannabe. Okay, I AM SECRETLY A WANNABE. I secretly want to be a guy. Eh, wait. I openly want to be a guy. I dont want any boobies...

When I say I am full of shit. Does that mean I am shity?
S-lut
H-ussy
I-rritating
T-otally
Y-ou

So does it mean You are full of shit too? I hope you do realise it by now that there exists many people in the world and each and everyone of them have differing opinions so obviously there are some people who think I AM FULL OF SHIT. There are some who know that I have alot to defecate. Or some people might think that I have a shit face. But that cannot be possible because I, for one do not smear shit over my face, neither is my face as dark as other people's. You see, there are a few different types of tann. And mine happens to be the orangey kinda tann which makes me look like a carrot :/ And then there is the yellowish kinda tann which makes you look like you have jaundice(no offence, i had jaundice when i was younger). And, there is of course the just black like shit kinda tann where one turns dark brown and there is no healthy, golden tann, which, in a way, makes you look more like shit then i do. Oh, not forgetting, there are some who are naturally dark, they cannot help it so I shall not comment. Hahaha.



There is a last piece of General Knowledge that i wanna share. Just in case you didnt know.
Mars and Jupiter are separated by an asteroid belt. The distance between them is 3.7 AUs (Astronomical Units). One AU is equal to the distance between The Sun and The Earth.
Then, the minimum distance from Earth to The Sun is 146 million km (91 million miles) and the maximum is 152 million km (94.5 million miles).
Which means that the minimum distance from Mars to Jupiter is 5402 million km or 5624 million km. That's so far.... How to go find my lover? I think a rocket is needed.

Everybody needs some time alone sometimes.

HAHAHAHA anybody wanna help me cut hair? Well, the word 'shave' would be more accurate. But, I scared. And obviously I am not gonna shave the whole head. Just, the sides and maybe shorten my back. I am keeping my fringe. Hahahaha I can save money if someone helps me.... Yes luh, I am budget can or nottttt!?

I am all that doesnt matter.

I decided to do an introduction about (what I think about) myself in case I change in any way after Regatta.

I talk nonsense all the time so do not under any circumstances hope/pray/wish for me to make sense because I dont make sense, and yes, not even to myself. I have alot of things to say even when there is nothing to say for my brain is always looking for things to comment on, looking for words to blurt out and then hurt others unknowingly. I hate it when I text people and I dont get a reply immediately because I usually reply ASAP for I standby my phone 24/7, yes even when I am showering. If I dont reply, there is only possibility. 1, my phone died because I have already been texting the whole day, therefore the battery is flat. I reply even when I am eating and that means the phone would get dirty but I dont do that now because I am using another phone. I even reply halfway through sex and the other party would get all annoyed. I reply when I am already out with the most important people in my life simply because I have other things to tell the people who text me. And I bring my phone into the toilet when I am bathing or shitting but I have since cut down on those. HAHAHAH! I love shouting and screaming over insignificant things and that irks people. I love irking people so that they can use the word 'irksome' which has been lying dormant in their dictionaries because there is no one that they can apply it to. Sometimes I wake up and thinking about what I have done to my life and most of the time, I just laugh it away. But there are just some people and some events that I can never forget. Maybe I will push them to the back of my brain and shut them there but inevitably, these thoughts crawl out again and I have to shove them back in, yet again. The whole cycle repeats itself over and over and over-er-er.
There are times when I am full of self doubt and self pity, questioning my actions. I feel like I am most pathetic when i see other couples openly displaying their affections. I feel like a coward for not having the balls/guts to stand up to judgements and comments that others are going to pass. I know they are going to do it, I am prepared for it but I just dont wish to stand up to it... Not yet. But soon, I will. Come what may. I will make it though all the stormy weathers. I will survive all the flashes of lightning that all will strike me with.
Because there is someone huddled up with me, under that blanket of warmth, security and reassurance. There is someone who will protect me, even though i may weigh a hefty something-something kaygee. Why, keep guessing my weight then. I wish that I can be consistent in my school work and in keeping my friends but everything just slips away before I can even get a firm grip on them. Maybe it is the things that I have done, the choices I make that they are unhappy with, the decisions that do not fufil their expectations that black is supposed to be black and white would be just pure white. It is they who divide the line so clearly, they are the ones who are making my life utterly miserable where I cannot even be comfortable in my own skin. If you think you know me, think again. How can you know me when I dont even have an inkling about who I am. If I get labelled a bitch, am I a bitch in terms of your definitions? I eat alot and I shit alot. I wouldnt mind if anyone said I were full of shit because I am literally full of shit.

Now, I wanna shit.

The End Is A New Beginning

yes, master series finally ended. like f-i-n-a-l-l-y. it ended on a good note i hope. tell me why dont the feel tally with the timing.. as long as i feel gooooooood, then i am happyyyyyyyyyyy cause i felt it.

okay 9th Nov marks the end of masters series and Regatta is arriving in approximately 2 freaking weeks. how many sea rowings left. how many gym sessions left. AHHHHHHHHHHH! i am gonna freeeeeeeeeak out! 2 weeks to improve. 2 weeks to maintain. 2 weeks for the race of this year. 2 weeks. 14 days. 336hours. 20160minutes. 1209600seconds. you get the drill.

come on, 2 weeks. and i am sure EVERYBODY has a common goal for the gold. HAHAHAHA. say it quickly 5 times in a row. a common goal for the gold x5. HAHAHAHA so fun!

okay i will update again.

water washes almost everything away.

1)How many texts are in your inbox?
- 1044 and counting.

2)When did your last hug take place?
- wednesday morning? ):

3)Are you a jealous person?
- yes, very, so be careful!

4)Are you tired right now?
- whats new. yes, i am, as always.

5)Do you chew on your straws?
- yes, when i finish my drink.

6)Have you ever been called a tease?
- uh i suppose so?

7)Do you like to cuddle?
- cdddle someone fat or skinny or muscular?

8)Do you cry easily?
- yes, though i pretend i am yawning or sth.

9)Are you a heavy sleeper?
- as heavy as my weight. which is quite heavy...

10)Where is your cellphone?
- in front of me. i standby it 24/7.

11)Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
- uh yes, why not? unless the person dumps me ): ):

12)Are you mad at someone right now?
- i am always mad at someone out there.

13)Do you believe in love at first sight?
- more like lust then.....

14)What makes you laugh out loud?
- every single little shit.

15)Who was the last person you talked to?
- face to face? msn? sms?

16)Name one person on your top friends who is most like you.
- nobody is like me.. no one at all.

17)Do you get butterflies when around the person you like?
- yes and bees and all other insects too...

18)Will you get married?
- wanted to, to a guy. to a girl, can i?

19)When was the last time you smiled?
- 3secs ago when someone shared how naked they were.... HAHAHAHAH!

20)Does anyone, like you?
- everybody loves me, thank you v much.

21)Do you secretly like someone?
- i dont like anyone at all. i hate everybody.

22)Who was the first person you talked to today?
- sms? msn? same person.... face to face? my friend who sent me to school!

23)Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
- the usuals.

24)What are you NOT looking forward to?
- feeling hungry when i just finish eating.....

25)Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
- i hope they meant it, or they are so dead.

26)Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?
- its over what. so what? i dont give a shit.

27)Are you a forgiving person?
- quite. forgive, not forget..

28)What's something you really want right now?
- MORE TIME......

29)Do you fall for people easily?
- not really.....

30)Have you ever fallen for your best friend ex's ?
- hahaha nope.

31)What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
- uh my toothbrush?

32)Have you ever kissed anyone named Michelle?
- uh no! michelle reminds me of my capt!

33)Who was the last person you drove with?
- i dont drive. HAHAHA

34)How late did you stay up last night and why?
- i knocked out at 11 i think.

35)If you could move somewhere else, would you?
- overseas or what? nah, i wanna stay here....

36)Do you prefer to call or text?
- text. but you can call me....

37)When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
- end of june.

38)Who took your profile picture?
- you mean blog profile? or friendster?

39)Who was the last person you took a picture of?
- uh, i took a picture of the clubhse, and many ppl were in it?

40)Can you live a day without TV?
- yeahhhhh, no time anyway..

kthxbye

must be a slow death.

sometimes i feel like robbing a bank and hopefully get away with all the money.
other times i feel like eating alot and then purging everything out.
some other times i feel like sleeping my life away with the person i love.
and most of the times i just feel like killing people. and you, you and you(s) are all included.

beware. all of you(s) have got an angsty friend.

i need a recorder to record all the things i have gotta rant about and then replay it to many people. or maybe i should record and listen to the things i rant about. and hear for myself how annoying i sound....

the need to;

explode and let out my feelings.

do you know how hard it is to suppress your feelings and having no vent to let it out for fear of hurting your feelings. you(s) make me keep it all inside. why, thank you(s) very much. the more i try to explain, the more bitch you(s) think i am. if i dont say anything, i get accused of keeping it all inside, not giving comments. and what happens then, when i give my comments and say whatever that is really fucking me up, inside out, upside down? i get labelled the bitch. what the fuck is this?!?!?!?!?!?! as usual, everything i do is wrong, in one way or another. i always appear as the BadPerson, TheBitch, TheFucker, TheMeanie, no matter what. fuck all of you(s). really, fuckity fuck....

I. Need. To. Channel. All. This. Rage. Into. Aggression.
aggression while doing weights.
aggression in the water.
aggression then gets channelled into passion when having sex, whoaaaaaa!
it seems that.
aggression can be useful when channelled correctly......

days like these;

there are days when you wake up and you feel like doing something drastic to your life. for example giving yourself a makeover. you feel like shaving your hair or having extensions that reach all the way down to your ass. or having a full back tattoo put on you, pain from the needle keeps you alive. or maybe you feel like going on a crash diet just to lose the weight that you feel make you look ugly and fat. i feel stupid for saying all these already.

there are days when you wake up and you just dont feel like waking up at all cause you feel that there is nothing to do and life is such a chore. you feel like you just wanna plonk back down into bed and drift off to dreamland and stay there for as long as possible. life is mundane x100000 times.

then there are days when you wake up with no feeling at all. you seem to have lost the mood to do anything and even breathing feels so tiring. i ask myself, pacer ley. how can i lose the feel? but reality is such. i have lost the feel. the feel to eat. yes, I, Pamela Ee, actually dont even feel like eating. how incredible...

maybe it has something to do this a certain someone. i havent seen that certain someone for a day already and this feeling is terrible!
and what makes is worse is that my phone has no signal and i cant even send or receive texts. how fucked up can my day get.... i am so annoyed right now.

when it all falls apart

let the rain fall down.

trials and error.

haha i think i was too subtle in my previous post. HAHAHHA some stupid girl thought i wanted to quit spdb after regatta. like wth. to set the record straight, when i embarked on this journey with my girls, i have never once thought about leaving them. so, dont expect me to quit. HAHAHAHAHAH you are all stuck with me for another year or so (if all goes well and i dont retain in yr2) or worse come to worst, you are stuck with me for another 2yrs lor. HAHAHAHAHA pacer forever! yay! HAHAHAHAHA. and for the 1st para of the previous post, i was talking bout my hair la........ HAHAHA!

treasure(s), treasure(d), treasur(ing)

in about 2 weeks it will be gone, not all gone but half maybe? it is going to be a new feeling. a new experience. i think i will like it. i dont think you all will be supportive. but heck, it's mine therefore my choice. too bad!!

anyway, saturday was THE TIME TRIAL. i am quite pleased with my effort and my results. though i may not be the best, but at least i was honest to myself. i rowed like how i would row if i were to be in the boat with my ladies. individual rowing is bullshit. cause everyone wants to win, to be the best and therefore everyone would put in extra effort to stretch out further. BULLSHIT please.
ask yourself deep down inside, do you really stretch so far when we are rowing as a team? no. do you really row like a crazyfucker and cough all your guts out when you finish a set? no. of course, i wouldnt know. i am not you. i dont know how much effort you put in. do you really think we cannot see the difference? i think you think we are stupid cause we appear stupid but i tell you, we are not (:

die luh pam, you so bitchy(refers to the above). everybody hates you.......... you are so gonna receive hate mail. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

to my dearest ShowerPartnerNo2, i will personally bash The Boy up if TB ever bullies you okay. i have had enough of all the shitty guys that have came and gone from your life. please protect yourself. i cannot bear for you to get hurt again. please please please take care of yourself, in every way possible.
to my dearest ShowerPartnerNo1, hang in there and everything will get better in time (: hold your head high and be alert all the time. me and SP2 will always be there for you. i hope you know what i'm talking about. i am sure you do.

to precious time,
please slow down. i think i should try to trap you in a container and use you sparingly, as and when needed. i need more of you and i feel like i have not enough of you. another 2 weeks of you is gonna pass and i am gonna lose it and have to wait for it again. after i lose it, i hope i can exchange time for aura then i can do well in about 2 and a half weeks time. please conserve yourself for the benefit of all mankind. you are really passing too fast............

and i keep having typos cause B is just next to N on the keyboard(just like G is next to H and K is next to L). so instead of benefit, i typed nenefit?! like wtf. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA nebefit is worse.........

and O is next to P? who is O? optimus prime ah? HAHAHAHAHAH! okay, i need to stop being so self absorbed. i need to take a breather, slow down and take a look around me. i need to understand eh-ver-ree-thingggg thats gonna happen/happened/is happening. HAHAHAHAHAH!

oh today is the 3rd, tmr will be 4th!, then 5th, then 6th, then 7th 8th 9th 10th............. and 22nd and 23rd. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA liberation on the 24th. yay! then i will go for self trngs v v v x100000000 often. to lose flabs and fats. and tone up and firm up. hot body, here i (try to) come. i have motivation from, victoria beckham. HAHAHAHA i like her waist but not her boobs. too overwhelming. imagine, in your face. like whoaaaaaaaaaaa! motivation from madonna, angelina jolie, megan fox. OH MY FUCKING GOSHHHHHHHH they are so frikkin' hot okay. like TOTALLEHHHHH!

anyway, goodbye Earthlings. i am going to Jupiter to look for my lover. Mars aint that far from Jupiter, is it? i am happy with everything that i have nowwwwww (: (: thank you v v v v v v x3 much to all the people who i have in my life now. i am very happy with you(s). I LOVE YOU(s) (:

and did i mention that my sister's hamster died?! my gosh. poor little female hamster. after giving birth to 13 babies, i am sure that has really taken a toil on your little body. RIP.

the right thing to do.

what is the right thing to do?

there is no fine line seperating right from wrong or black from white. but just the areas of gray/grey in between. even so, some areas of gray/grey maybe so dark that you just think it is black. whereas, some gray/greys so light that you may mistake it for white.

my point is, whatever you do, there are some people who will just think it is wrong. then, there might be some who are supportive. different people have different opinion. we cannot aim to please everybody... i think we should start by pleasing ourselves first. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.