the need to;

explode and let out my feelings.

do you know how hard it is to suppress your feelings and having no vent to let it out for fear of hurting your feelings. you(s) make me keep it all inside. why, thank you(s) very much. the more i try to explain, the more bitch you(s) think i am. if i dont say anything, i get accused of keeping it all inside, not giving comments. and what happens then, when i give my comments and say whatever that is really fucking me up, inside out, upside down? i get labelled the bitch. what the fuck is this?!?!?!?!?!?! as usual, everything i do is wrong, in one way or another. i always appear as the BadPerson, TheBitch, TheFucker, TheMeanie, no matter what. fuck all of you(s). really, fuckity fuck....

I. Need. To. Channel. All. This. Rage. Into. Aggression.
aggression while doing weights.
aggression in the water.
aggression then gets channelled into passion when having sex, whoaaaaaa!
it seems that.
aggression can be useful when channelled correctly......