Loser-fied.

Today is the day, I feel like quitting school and just killing myself. Wait, today is one day out of the many days that I wanna give up on life cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe. Even the air doesnt smell as nice or as fresh as before. People are becoming scarier and more sinister. I feel so suffocated. I cannot breathe properly. It is after Regatta and I think I am suffering from Post-Regatta symptoms. I feel like I have nothing to live for anymore because trainings have been reduced, in fact, there isnt any training for the next two weeks. And I have a freaking project submission on monday. I havent even done anything, like seriously nothing at all, yet. I feel like a loser, seriously.

I HATE SCHOOL.
I HATE PROJECTS.
I HATE DAYS WITHOUT TRAININGS.


I highly suspect that if I didnt join dragonboat and met all my ladies, I would have quit school long ago. Thank you for everything that you all have done, be it big or small. You girls have touched my heart in one way or another and I know that I can never bear to leave anyone of you. And we are all going to grow stronger, together or, what's left of us that is.