Incredibly selfish

Your actions make my blood boil, but you dont know that, do you? You are so incredible and amazing. I have just had about enough and I wish I could blow you off the face of this Earth, hopefully I wont see you ever again.

Anyway, second week of school has passed and Regatta is nearing. Read Hydrotribe and somehow, the things that they post there amuses me. It is so funny that I keep laughing and sniggering to myself. Most probably the people who post there are guys, which kinda explains the ego thing? Not too sure. Dont really wanna find out.

And uhm, been pretty happy lately. Gym sessions are good. Feel myself pushing. Getting plenty of blisters which hurts when I bathe. But, no pain no gain right! (:

Been MIA for so long now that I am not too sure what to post.

Oh HAPPY HALLOWEEN.

Ahhh, you know how things arent always what they seem? Like you may think one thing and then actually another is happening. Been disappointed and it seems like I am losing faith ): Booohooo.

Ohhhh today is a Saturday and morning training is cancelled so I am sitting at starbucks with Yunn Sin and Denise (who has currently gone MIA) and hogging on YS's computer.

Alright gtg, YS's awake.

TUESDAY

TRAINING. WE GOTTA PUSH PUSH PUSH. NO EXCUSES.

FUCK YOU IF YOU DONT GIVE YOUR HUNDRED PERCENT.

5 weeks of hell with the ladies

5 weeks to the race. 5 weeks, it's either we do or die. 5 weeks, it's how much we wanna push. 5 weeks, we have nothing to lose. 5 weeks, we can change our future. 5 weeks, it's in our hands. 5 weeks and nobody will look at us the same again.

the question is, are we ready for change?

today is a monday and the following day will be a tuesday. training will start. land training. no matter whether you like it or not, we are in this together as a team. it's our school's name that we have to fight for. there is no personal glory. we are a team and a team, we will stay.

5 weeks, this is all we have left to let the year3s leave with sth that they are proud of. it isnt about the medal, or maybe it is. more importantly, it is about how hard we are able to push ourselves. we must believe in ourselves in order to make it work. we must be selfless. whatever we do, we need to think about the team. everything we do affects our teammates in one way or the other. if your running sucks, please go run more. i hate to see people lagging behind when the pace is already average. if your weights suck, please go self train. do not be afraid to lift heavy. for fuck you join dragonboat if you are afraid to bulk up?

5 weeks. i do not wish to see them leave without nothing. i will be doing my part, will you be doing yours?

anyway, might i also add that i dislike and abhor people who treat dragonboat as a hotel. please please do not come for trainings if you dont think you will be able to commit. i dont think that this is fair to the others. how much have they progressed? dont you realise or even feel that if you come back, you will only be a burden to them? think twice, this is not about you, this is not about me, this is about your batch mates. please do not be a mother fucking selfish piece of shit. you dont attend trainings, you dont know how hard they have been pushing. yes, in case you didnt know, it was them, they were the ones pushing when you disappeared into thin air. think about them before you make your selfish decision.

Back to school

and guess what? freaking internet is so slow that i cant even play my happy farm ): Sucks to be me. Actually school is much funner than work because i get to play on the computer even though we are not allowed to. and the school cant sack me, so there!

project 2 started already haha currently it's the group project and we have to go site visiting, on the first day of school. the weather has been such a killer and no one is really starting on the project.

update when i finish my group discussion!

Everybody makes mistakes,

but it's a matter of whether we learn from our mistakes or not.

Why cant we or rather they leave with what they started with?

One more year, I have got one more year with the junior ladies to prove SPDBgirls's worth. I want to make that one last year worth it all. Together, we can achieve more. We have got the numbers, but it's the quantity and the quality. No (wo)man is alone in this. We will all work together, for this last 5 weeks, for the year 3s and for the next year, we will push harder to get what we want, to get what everyone wants.

It all boils down to how much we want it. Hell yeah?

Peekies from SAVA!

comparing this year's to last year's, did I grow slimmer? HAHAHAHAHAHA.

I'll be screaming out your name

Be the one and only, wait for me
Will you be the only one
Will you be, be the one and only
Wait for me, will you be the only one

Feels good to be going home to you.

Post SAVA mood

cant say i regret anything. twas a good last sava with bernice, gwen, yunn sin, shiya and suanling. one more sava to go with the year twos. ahhh not forgetting the year ones, one more sava to go with you all too (: let's all train hard.

regatta is coming, butterflies are already in my tummy, i must make it to the team, i cannot let myself down or the people from my batch down. i need to make it to the team or i would regret not being able to row with the year threes for one last time.

the need to train and push ourselves to higher levels is there but who is really doing it? we need to start now. need to control our diet, portion control and no fried food, no oily stuff, no spice. as sports people, we need to have the discipline. so who's with me? fish soup and yong tau foo daily for the rest of the five weeks.

run more. run faster.
lift more. lift heavier.
pull more. pull higher.

I WANT TO

revive this blog because it is my first ever but the tagboard cannot be seen ):

And the princes all blame the maidens

Sava came and went. Nope, girls didnt do well, not in my opinion but good job to the juniors. But, FUCK SAVA, I say. Regatta is when we prove what we are worth. Who needs those blokes anyway? We depend on ourselves, no one else. It's how much WE want it. We don't need others who only know how to pass judgement. They don't feel like we do, they don't know what we go through. They are not us and will never be.

Guys will always be guys. Brainless fools who only think with their lower body.

Four you say? Five for you then.

BUDDY (:

first time

Hi world I am trying to blog while using bee's touch at my grandma's place. Kinds difficult to as I am so clumsy and I keep typing wrongly haha and my punctuations are like shit. Thinking bout Sava makes me so nervous. I cannot do anything about it ): I will feel bad for dragging my team down. ITO has transformed me into a stupid fat lumppp ): hate the way I can't do any heavy weights and dislike the way I pant after running a short distance ):

how many days have we left?

Omgggg sava is nearing and i borrowed the instax already so time for pictures during sava. but need to use it carefully. hahaha damn fucking exp la the film... zzzzzz.

shorts

haha thats the most recent movie that i have caught since like uhm maybe a week or two ago haha no $$ no time.

meep meep.

uhm this saturday and sunday. scary scary. hahaha i hope i get my pay today if not i will cry. boohoohoo. okay i am gonna mail out letters now. byebye

Tension is rising

due to the upcoming race I suppose, everybody wants to do well but everyone's got their own way of doing it which is why there are bound to be frictions.

On the other hand, this is already the start of the 5th week of work. hopefully i can make it through this 6 weeks and go back to school. how i miss my friends. work sucks. stupid dumb fat china bitch.

finally

a saturday training that i attended. cant say it was good but then again it wasnt too bad. i just cant seem to find a word to describe it. going for training today, yes it is good to see the girls pushing but sometimes, they come across as a tad too, uhm how do i phrase it? over enthu and unserious about the upcoming comp? maybe they are but they just dont know how to show it?

i am neither prepared nor excited about the upcoming comp. i just wonder how badly we will do. yes we are pushing we are training but what makes you think that the other schools are not pushing as hard or training even harder than us? if this carries on, we will forever be at the bottom. we will only be average, so-so and we will never come out top or become the best. is this what we want ourselves to be? to be forever under other people? we need to push harder and train harder. yes it may seem easy to say but really doing it is the thing that matters, well, you should get what i mean.

dined with amy, peiying, kaden and sooling hahahaha so weird right yea i know but whut to do, seniors all not eating ahhhhh depressing ): i finally come for a saturday trng and this is what i get ): ): ): thanks for the company though, juniors (:

nights. time to recharge for tmrw's trng (:

Together forever and never to part.

As the spring in it's bloom, the summer starts and the moon
Come dance with me my love, we will be one
As the leaves and the trees, the oceans celebrate you and me
We will live to see many days, and we will dream, we'll dream

Recently hooked on songs by The Fray. Dont know why either but maybe because there is a playlist filled with 12 of their songs that is in the touch. Sick of electronikkk, or elements of life and also electronik4life. Haha not sick sick but still, I have grown tired of listening to all the bass and maybe some keyboards would be nice for a change.

Today is a Friday and it also happens to be the birthday of this very annoying creature who came into my life exactly 14 years ago and disrupted peace and stole the love for me from my mother from me ): That creature happens to be none other than my younger brother. Needless to say, him being the youngest and a male at that gives him an edge over me in terms of whatever. He gets what he wants and now, he becomes this unruly fat pig who only knows how to eat. Okay la, shouldn't be so mean since he is my little brother (not little at all, rather fat and almost, ALMOST reaching my height!!), even though I know he wont read my blog, I will still wish him a happy 14th birthday. May you become more handsome and have lesser pimples, have cooler hair, become more muscular, start wearing contacts, stop being an ah beng, become smarter and able to absorb whatever the lousy teacher is teaching, stop playing LAN games (fucking waste money), hurry get a girlfriend and intro her to me and meimei and last but not least, be nicer to the MM because she gives you $$!

Thursday was spent in the gym and mann, have i shrunk ): I have no idea whether to be happy with my smaller arms or lament the fact that I cant carry as much weights as before (not that I could carry very heavy weight before but thats what makes it worse right, weak to weaker!). This is so disgraceful. Need to push myself harder. I cannot carry lighter weights than my juniors, no no no!!!!

Ohhhhhh beezees has a new password hahaha it's meep meep ^^ she has to say it everynight before we go to sleep. HAHAHAHAHHHAHAHHAHAaljascs;c

Lantern festival, shall we go carry lanterns? (:

Is it good or is it?

it's already a thursday and i am ending my fourth week of itp. aint got work this saturday so i am finally going down for a saturday rowing yay!!!! can you hear me whooping and see me jumping around in joy haha no actually i am not because i am sitted nicely on the office chair typing this.

work has been boring. i do filing and invoice checking the whole day and i have already gone through the residence and government files like 4 times. seriously. and the in charge, he doesnt trust or believe anyone except for himself. seriously, how MCP can he be.

cannot wait to get pay and cannot wait to go training this saturday. while i am getting all fat and flabby, they are all getting skinny. oh mann what is this? what is itp doing to me!!! ):