Hello!

I love my German Potato eater!

Apple of my eye. Sweeter than apple pie.

I am irked by people who say things without thinking and then come and ask for second chances. Just fuck off and die la, seriously. Talk so much fucking nonsense and then ask for forgiveness. Do you really think that the world is so gracious? Yeah maybe you are serious about a change and whatever else you claim you will do, but do you think you deserve it? I don't think so. No, seriously. And this is all none of my concern and maybe i shouldn't even be giving you my piece of mind but. Whatever. This is like we always say, My blog, My writing rights, right?

Happy Chinese New Year everybody (:
A certain someone told me that this is the year of the COW so I must treat The Cow nicely! Well I did okay! I placed it nicely on the table instead of throwing him to the floor. Funny, you would think that the cow would be female, but this one is a Male!?!?!

Some Pictures To Break The Words.

I feel like such a baddie. Firstly, I skipped training to try to chiong my proj at my friend's place. Guilty max to skip training please. I won't even feel so guilty to skip school...... HA!!!!!
And then I ended up at UT and had major camwhore session with my world sitting on me. Like, I have my world on me. And That same World is actually sitting on Her World... So which is which...?!?!?!?!
AND THEN, I REALISE THAT I GET BORED RATHER EASILY.... CAUSE, I.
Used to be so into friendster and then I continued in friendster when facebook got hot. After that, I went into facebook. Now, I am so sick of facebooking.... Things get boring easily. And the contacts are irritating the shit out of me. They make my eye so dry and I get so (Whatever word that is) when I have to put eye drops.
It's so amazing, like I can stick my finger into my eye to put the contacts in but I can't manage to put eye drops. I had like 5mins laughinglikemadandgigglinglikecrazy session per eye when I had to put the eye drop in. I know it's supposed to soothe your eyes and all but I can't help but to struggle when I think about liquid entering my eyes..... I am paranoid kid like that yowww!! I notice that everything begins with an "I", it's as if I think so highly of myself and I simply have to talk about me, Me and ME!!!! But no, that's not usually the case....

OKAY I ACTUALLY HAVE ALOT TO TALK ABOUT. BUT I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN. THE GUILT FROM SKIPPING TRAINING IS GETTING TO ME. I FEEL LIKE CRYING NOW. PLUS PLUS PLUS!!!!! THERE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A FITNESS TEST TODAY. DAMN IT LA.... I SELDOM SKIP TRAINING FOR SCHOOL WORK. I CAN ACTUALLY SKIP SCHOOL AND THEN MAKE MY WAY DOWN FOR TRAINING..... I TRULY BELIEVE THAT I WILL BE RETAINED. I AM PREPARED TO ANYWAY.... I WOULD RATHER RETAIN AND PULL UP MY FRIKKIN' G.P.A. BUT I HAVE TO RETAIN ONE WHOLE YEAR... CAUSE ALL MY MAIN MODULES ARE YEAR LONG.... I SHALL SPEAK TO MY LECTURER SOON....

NG NG is packing her room now. I should get going to help her. And did I mention that I got my hair cut.... Hahaha and someone said I became slimmer. YAY!!!!!!
Okay thanks byebye womanizers.

FUCKED UP WORLD.

HI HOES AND BITCHES. SLUTS AND WHORES. NOT FORGETTING BASTARDS AND BUGGERS(OOPS I JUST FEEL LIKE CALLING NAMES AND SWEARING BADLY). I FUCKING LOST MY EZLINK CARD. I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE I DROPPED IT. THIS HAS GOTTA BE THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE EVER. LOSING SO MANY THINGS IN A SPAN OF LESS THAN A MONTH. PHONE, SPECS, FREAKING EZLINK. GOD DAMN. I AM SO ANNOYED RIGHT NOW, NA NA NA. EVEN IF I WERE TO HAVE 500 BUCKS NOW, IT WOULDN'T BE ENOUGH TO REPLACE EVERYTHING. GRRR!!! TRAINING IS ABOUT TO START RIGHT NOW AND I AM STILL ON DARREN'S LAPPIE. THIS IS JUST GREAT. WHEN I WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL, I HAVE TO LOSE MY EZLINK. IT IS A SIGN, A SIGN TO TELL ME THAT I DON'T NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL. THIS IS JUST GREAAAAAAAAAAAT. TOTALLY. I NEED A BREAK. I NEED A BREAK FROM EVERYTHING. I NEED MONEY. I NEED MORE TIME FOR MYSELF. AND I JUST NEED TO CONNECT WITH MYSELF RIGHT NOW. LIFE SUCKS. I NEED MONEY I NEED MONEY I NEED MONEY I NEED MONEY. ANYWAY, I READ IN A MAGAZINE THAT WE ABSORB THE 'QI' FROM HEAVEN AND EARTH AND THAT DETERMINES OUR FUTURE AND LIFE. FROM THEN ON, OUR LIFE GOES UP AND DOWN IN INTERVALS OF 10YEARS. SO I AM 19 THIS YEAR, 1 MORE YEAR OF SHIT THEN MAYBE MY LIFE WILL IMPROVE. PLEASE IMPROVE. HOPEFULLY I STRIKE FIRST PRIZE IN TOTO. OR 4D. PLEASE PLEASE............... THAT'S ALL THE BAD SIDE.

ON THE GOOD SIDE,
AND TODAY IS THE 20TH WHOOOOOOOO.

I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

Random shit.

I DO NOT LIKE THE SILENCES, IT IS KILLING ME.

Now I get what they mean by silence can be deafening. To hell with silence is golden. That, is total bullcrap.

Now I realise that it is not any other bug but The Bug. The Bug that multiplies when you have doubts, when you feel insecure, when you do not feel reassured, when those nightmares come looking for you and haunting you. And then the bug gets stamped out by proclaimations of forever love. And when the darkness gets too dark and snuffs out the light, The Bug returns with new poison under it's fangs, the venom more lethal than before. What do you do?

Now I find out that it is the grey areas that are so hard to sit out. When black is not clearly black. When black is not pure dark, pure evil, pure sinister anymore. When you actually begin to see a tinge of light in the darkness. Purest white has actually a slight tinge of blue. And then sometimes the blue becomes so dull that it actually resembles a shade of grey, what do you do? Do you sit and wait it out? Do you try to make it white again? Or do you just let the darkness overwhelm and then engulf you? Grey, when nothing is definite, when nothing is for sure, when anything you say or do can either make or break you. Do you let your mind or let your heart win this epic battle? It is the choices that we make that make us who we are. It is what we learn from these choices. The choices that we have made, that we have chosen. May it be for the better or for worse, it has moulded us into this bloodyfuckingannoying heck of a person that we are now.

Now it is clear that perceptions and images of people that we have in our minds are as fickle as the wind. It can blow in their favour anytime and then change directions and go against them in no time, at all. It is as everchanging as the clouds above us when touched by the wind. A light gust can change everything. A wrong choice, A wrong word can change whatvever good points that other people once had of you. Yet, when things fall apart, a smile, a wave, an acknowledgement can change the negative to positive again.
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"Now I know what Love is. Now that I have you. Since you came into my life. You've made everything new. You're the Greatest Gift from up above. And I'm so thankful for your love. Now I know what Love is. Now that I have you."

Another Achievement!!!

Okay, there are two news.
One good and one bad.

Do you all want to know the good news first or bad?

Too bad I leave you with no choice. I shall start with the bad news, this is my blog, so HAHAHAHA too bad!!!!! Okay, the bad news is that I lost my (fuckingexpensive!!!!!!!)specs during sea rowing today and I have no idea how it happened!!! I just suddenly realized that my specs was not hanging by my side, on the string/strap of the lifevest anymore. Uh, yeah there goes threehundredandthirtyeightmotherfuckingdollars. I am damn annoyed. How can this fucking happen to me? Fucking hell. God damn it.

But the good news is, I got a pair of contacts for now. Don't worry please. I am going back to specs. I find that specs make me look more intelligent. And as I am typing this chunk of shit, I have already removed my contacts, so I am typing and typing, I think there are many typos.... But then again, maybe not, cause I can still see... Slightly la... Hahaha don't even try to imagine my face half an inch from the screen cause that isn't happening!! And another piece of good news is that there are still kind souls in the world, thank God(even though he made me loose my frikkin' expensive specs!!!) for them!

And I need fucking donations for my new specs!!! All the generous people out there, you all can just sponsor like 2dollars each. I don't believe I have that little friends but then again. obviously I am just joking, I love injecting humour into my posts. Hahahah, don't you find it so funny?!!?!?!?!

I have a poet down with a flu currently sitting on my lap now and after every paragraph that i type, she will have a sentence to add into her poem, the one she is currently composing. How cool. I want to catch all her thoughts and keep them all in a jar and only take them out when I want to admire them.

And during rowing today, there was a little incident. Morale was pretty high during rowing and i hope that the incident will not dampen anyone's spirit. We are still a team and it IS a water sport!!! (: (: (: (: (:

And, I so need to complain, there is this prick(some anon shite) who is commenting on my blog and says that it's fun observing me here on my blog and then proceeds to ask about my weight and then when I tell the truth, that prick claims that I am heavier. Oh, like, okay how would I know for sure I am heavier when I don't even know who you are?! Hahaha amusement, it provides me!!!

Life kinda sucks when you ask a question and you already know the answer and the person doesn't even five you the answer that you already know.
Life kinda sucks when you ask a question and three out of five times, you get a blnk answer(meaning no answer).
I hate it when I talk and other people just go, mm hmmm, oh!, I see I see, Huh! Why like that?, Tsk Tsk, and all the other brainless comments that does not indicate that any attention was paid during your speech. That is when I feel dumb.
Life kinda sucks when the person you are excited over isn't as excited about you as you are about her.
Life sucks when.......... Shit happens. And trust me, shit happens quite often.

Okay, it's all okay. It's all cool. I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore,

JUST DANCE;
IT WILL BE OKAY.

And there she goes, scribbling into her notebook
Penning down thoughts which I will never understand
Even though I ask, I am not the least bit enlightened.

More lovin'

I guess that this blogger is pretty much neglected so I am back to give it some tender loving care. Hahahaha. The time now is 2.12am in the frikkin' morning and I just finished showering. Epic moments in the shower. What's with spitting of the water all....

Caught RedCliff today. If you are a reader of my lj, then I guess you would have known, but whatever, I am here now. RedCliff was the sex okay. I cried(as usual) when people died. Hahaha other than that, nothing much.

I am going to sleep now. There is training tomorrow. Someone just kill me already. I seem to have lost my motivation to go to school. Luckily there is training, or I wouldn't even attend school. Seriously. Haha someone(I think everyone wants to!!) needs to slap me and wake up my fucking idea. I should go clean my ears now. Someone said they are dirty. Okay nights Earthlings.....

Adrenaline moving through my veins.

I got so much to say just that I dont know where to start. I want to drown myself in the showers but the water just drains away as quick as it flows. Sometimes I wish I had the power to erase memories. Or turn back time. Hahaha. Or just ctrl-z everything in my life.
Good looking people should die, skinny people too. All the perfect little beings out there should all die. Seriously.

I wish I were to be a little taller and a little skinnier and it won't kill for me to weigh a little lesser. Let's say taller by about 5cm so I can at least surpass the 170 range. And if I were to weigh a little lesser when I am taller, I would appear skinnier right. Life sucks like that. We all just want to be a little more perfect. But we can't. No one is perfect. Neverperfectpam, so don't expect me to be perfect. We all make mistakes in life and it happens that we cannot erase anything. Hahaha our would-be-perfect lives are tainted by all the little spots of black that we can't erase. How tragic.

2009 just started and all the fucking troubles are coming towards me. Not one at a time but just piling up on me. I am so fucked and I have half the mind to quit school but DB and the girls are the ones that are keeping me in school. Seriously, what am I going to do without them. Bros over hoes.

Words are cheap. It is so easy saying some things but so difficult to practice what we preach. I cannot say I practice whatever I preach so I avoid saying things. Hahahahaha I shall head to bed soon. Okay thanks bye. Someone is getting annoyed with me cause I have been hogging the computer and not getting to bed.

'There's only two types of people in this world. The ones that entertain and the ones that observe.'


Goodnight suckerzzzzzzzz
ALL EYES ON ME

My past always comes back to haunt me.