Goddamnit.

Am I? Am I?

I am?

Also!!!

Another person told me.

"The exbf and exgf can never be good friends again. If they still remain good friends and are totally honest with each other, there is only 2 possibilities. It's either they have never loved each other deeply or they still love each other."

Well, personally, I find it true but only to a certain extent. There are some people who still remain good friends with The Ex. I believe time can heal almost everything. I mean, if you have already moved on, why not continue with the friendship.

Is getting into a relationship with your friend the best way to ruin a friendship?
Yes, things might be awkward some time, but if you have both moved on, I don't see why it should remain awkward.

Or maybe there is still love, but love in a different way. The person has been with you and naturally you will feel an instinct to just protect them and not let them get hurt.

I don't know. At least that's how I feel. HAHAHAHAHAHA BYE

Past and Presents.

Hello fat people and all the others who are not up to standard(that includes flabby and people who don't work out).
Well, by the above mentioned I am including myself also, so you can stop cursing! Hahaha.

I was(and now still) talking to my sister's exbf online and he told me that he realised that he missed out on alot of things while they were together. So that obviously set me thinking and that's why I am here to blog my ass off again(Yes, finally, you may think. Hahaha).

You know, sometimes when we are in a relationship and we get so caught up in our partners that we forsake everything else.
We can drop appointments with our friends because the gf/bf called and we want to spend time with them. We cut short our time with our friends just because we want to get home early to talk to the gf/bf on the phone. How we can argue with our friends because they don't see how great the gf/bf can be... There are of course many more glaring examples that are visible to the friends but the people in love remain oblivious. I think the previous sentence sounds weird, no? Haha.

It is funny how the person you love can become your everything and you are so willing to give up everything just for that someone. You can give up friends that you have known for 10over years just for that person. That person who came into your life less then a few months ago, or a few weeks or worst, a few motherfucking days. Well I am talking about no one in particular but everyone in general.

How hot/sexy/gorgeous/beautiful/all other positive things that your partner is. But do you still think the same way after the break-up?
How confident you think he/she is when you two were together but after the break, you might realise that the self confidence was just arrogance.
How pleasant to the ears his/her laughter is but after the break-up, her laughter just becomes plain annoying.
How funny you think he/she is when they tell a joke but after the break up, you might feel that they were just being lame.

So drastic isn't it? How things can change so easily.

Love. What a wonderful feeling but when you lose love, everything comes crashing down. It renders us helpless, yet we can't do without it.

It is the same case for money. Money, notes and coins. They have been handled by so many people. From taitais to business men to children to housewives to the fishmonger to the butcher to the tofu seller to teenagers to yappies. The note that you have in your wallet, in your hands, have you ever wondered how many people have touched it?
I cannot say the same for new notes of course.

Isn't it the same for your gf/bf? How many people have got him or her before you got them?



Okay, I shall continue next time. This is too much. The chunk of words is too huge..... HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA HAVE FUN READING. I THINK I AM DAMN NICE TO UPDATE A TOPIC THAT EVERYONE CAN CONNECT TO. HOW LOVELY I AM. I DESERVE A KISS FROM MYSELF. MUUUUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCKKKKKSSSSS LOVELOVEPAMEEPEISHAN YAY BYE AND MERRYXMAS GO DROWN YOURSELVES IN MERRY MAKING MAKE BABIES MAKE LOVE DON'T FIGHT DON'T HAVE WARS DON'T EAT TOO MUCH CAUSE YOU ALL DON'T WORK OUT, YOU DON'T WANT TO BE FAT, DO YOU?

Life is so mundane.

I don't feel like blogging anymore. There is nothing to talk about. Don't want to complain too much either. Been very happy (:

Congrats to everyone who deserves to be congratulated.
Sorry to everyone who I can't help make feel better(Did that make any sense?)

Christmas is coming. I didn't get anything for anyone. Sorry. I need pictures to make life more interesting. Hahah send me the pictures please. Thanks.

Oh, I have got a pair of crocs! How exciting!!

Good night.

Technology.

I am currently uncontactable cause I lost the phone and was previously using prepaid so I don't think that I can get back that number. God damn it. Fuck okay. And the phone doesn't even belong to me plus all the pictures are gone. What the hell. This is the first time I lost a phone and it has to be someone else's phone. How fucking lucky....

DON'T BOTHER TEXTING ME OR CALLING ME OR WHATEVER.
MAYBE IT IS A GOOD THING THAT THE OLD NUMBER IS GONE. BUT I ONLY USED IT FOR LESS THAN A YEAR. IT WAS IN FEBRUARY..... OLD TIMES. OKAY NEVER MIND. GOOD RIDDANCE TO BAD RUBBISH. OKAY THANKS BYE.

It's a Small World after all.

Hello lesbians and gays. Fatty-s and skinny-s. Ugly-s and pretty-s. Long haired and short haired and shaved (: (:

The world is very small and looks can be deceiving. Hehehe.

Didn't do much for one whole day as usual. What has gotten into me? I am becoming so weird and lazy and fat and flabby. Haaaaa! What's new...

Sent L to the same place. Met soooo many freaking people! How exciting! Home-d and then dozed off like some pig, yet again. I do not for one moment think that I am turning into a nocturnal creature but somehow my habits seem so. A walking contradiction, irony. Hahaha that's what I am....

They said she is a better choice than the previous and congratulated me. So much cuter and all but are looks really all that matter? How can looks compare to how quickly my heart beats whenever I'm with her.
Whenever we look at each other and give each other stupid faces, priceless.
Whenever we fight on the streets, none can compare.
Whenever we try to count stars, irreplaceable.
Whenever we wait for each other when the other party has got something on, the wait is worth it.

I know it is.

All Rise.

Thomson Prata House's prata is not nice at all. Feels as though you are drinking oil. After waking up at about 330pm, lunch consisted of 2 strips of chee cheong fan. Someone had like 5 blooming strips. And we went to Pratahouse for 1 plain prata(hers), 1 egg prata(mine) and 1 paper prata(shared). All were soaked in oil.... And 1 milo dino. The only good thing to come out of Pratahouse was the packet of tissue, only 30cents.

I am not gonna make myself promise not to go to Mambo night. It is actually rather fun and I can train my abs at the same time. I need to learn the Mambo moves so I can join in the madness instead of laughing at them until my tummy aches. Hahahaha!
To all those who love Mambo, please please please teach me the movesssssss!

To BabyG, thank you for taking care of me last night on the dancefloor. Sorry to have caused you to get 6(fucking) blisters and making you so tired. Sorry if you couldn't handle me. I know I am rather big and fat :/ But I assure you I wasn't hai, oops, I meant high. Just wanted to get into the Mambo mood. I guess I succeeded. Hahahahahaha.

The Way I Are.

Land training today, 9th December, Tuesday.
Yunn Sin lied. She said there was alot of stations. Hahaha which turned out to be only 6? HAHAHAHAH scared the shit out of me. Anyway, there isn't any training on Thursday which might turn out to be a blessing in disguise, I hope! All the sick people please get well soon! Please please please. And, I still haven't lost any significant amount of weight to look gorgeous/sexy/pretty in a dress. Thank God the dress is black, which might make me look slimmer. Hahahahaaa.

Lunched with the girlzzxzxz (: They had like (freakingsinful) KFC!! I resisted the temptation and went with my noodles, no meat and extra vegetable somemore, and I had lemon juice. Hahahah. Uh, went to National Library after lunch with my deardearzxzxz. And we borrowed 3 books. How very unimaginable!! Me and Gwen actually going to the library to read. Hahaha I finished a new book!!!! (: (: (: Damn proud of myself. But the book doesn't belong to me. And it only cost 5 bucks. HAHAHAHAHHA damn value for money. I likeylikey. The title of the book, Double Fault. Very interesting. Very tragic ending or maybe I am too emotional. Haaaaaaa okay whatever. I really stink now, need to shower, need to get off this page, need to pee, need to eat, need to drink, need to relieve myself, need to please myself. I am so bored and the rest of the girls are looking for their dresses this Friday. By the rest, I mean Yunn Sin and Zakikikibunzxz. Hehehehe cause Bernice already got her dress, Shiya and Gwen already bought it and I already borrowed from Bunnice. Hehehehehe damn cheapskate I know. BUT I DONT SEE THE POINT OF BUYING A DRESS WHICH I WEAR ONLY ONCE. THE ONE I GOT LAST YEAR, I ONLY WORE IT TWICE. ONCE TO THE PASSING OVER CEREMONY AND ANOTHER TIME TO A PRESENTATION. HAHAHAHAHAH SUCH A WASTE OF MONEY, DAMN IT.

Need to shower. Okay, nights to all skinny people. Fat people should be still eating tubs of ice cream, and stalking blogs like mine. Hahahahah bye.

Before I leave to indulge in the shower which is currently occupied, a quote from the book I just finished.
"But wasn't it human enough when you loved someone, to want to make them happy even more than yourself? Was it so dreadful to have grown less selfish?"

Don't this all happen to us? When we love someone more than we love ourselves and we go out of our way to please them. We live in the illusion that when they are happy, we will be happy too. That is not often the case. When we try to make that important someone happy, we have to sacrifice other things, other people. When we give up things that matter to us, are we really happy?

):

Lolli has popped and is still dead :/

Happy Holidays! (HH) Hahahaha!

Finally, there was training yesterday. I got to see my girls, namely Yunn Sin, Gwen, Shiya and even Suanling. Well, and some juniors also (: (: Good to see that none became very flabby. Hahahah and guess where did Zakikibunzxz go? She was packing the house, she is moving house. So I asked why didn't she cancel training? We could all go help her carry things what... Then she called me a loser. Hahaha, wahlao. People offer help and want to be nice all then call me a loser, what the hell ah zakkkk!! AND THE BLOODY BUNNICE! WHERE IN THE WORLD WERE YOU? DAMN CHAMPION YOU, LEAVE ME ALONE TO PACE. THANKS AH. NO LOVE NO LOVE!!!!

Anyway!! The holidays are here which means more trainings. I cannot say that I have been a very good kid for this term. I haven't been doing work, always staying out late, not going home, taking far too long in the showers, sleeping till late in the morning or early afternoon and end up skipping school. But it's okay. I have next term to make up for it but I highly suspect that the same cycle will repeat itself or maybe not since The Reason has projects too... Uh, I have to rush my project too, yes, the one that I didn't complete. Speaking of December!, it means that Christmas is here! And all the people who have their birthdays at the last month of the year, good news, your birthday is (FINALLY!!!!!!!)here, your turn to be a price/princess/spoiltbrat (: (: Daddy's birthday is on the 7th. And I have some friends whose birthday is on the 31st (: how cool is that! To be the last baby of the year when everyone wants to be 1st hahaha and Sueann(I know you will never read this :/ ) has her birthday on the 1st of January, so it's coming too! Hahahaha imagine if you have friends of the same year(1989) having a birthday like 5th January(Zak) and another on the 18th December(Bernice). It's like when Zak learnt how to walk, that Bunnice was just born. Hahahaha. Oh, Zak's birthday is coming too!! Hahahahaha!!

And speaking of the month of Dec, the girls are going overseas :/ while I am gonna be stuck in S'pore which is not necessarily a bad thing, right? There are many things to do like, read books, read books, read books :/ Oh, do I sound like a bookwerm? Hahahaha.

Haven't been doing much for the past week. Just gorging on Mac breakfasts(MEGA sausage mcgriddles). Very sinful please. All hell broke loose after Regatta. No more mixed rice. Hahahah and Carl's junior after training yesterday. Thank God it was raining so I didn't attend the B&J's ChunkFest. Or I would have gotten rather fat. Have been eating ice cream too :/ My money is all flying away. Oh my Gosh, save me please. If I have got no money, then how to buy that cutest-thing-on-Earth?

Did I mention that I ran 10rounds stadium on thursday? Hahahahaha that's only 4km. The lolli ran only 3rounds and went to do sprints and then accompanied me on my last round. But, she is running the (full)marathon on the 7th. And the full marathon is like 42.195km please. But my mind is made up, I have decided to run the marathon next year (: (: Anybody wanna go run with me? Okay, make that jog/walk/slow pace. But if you get first for the marathon, you get money ley! $35,000 yknow?!?!?! Hahahah is that motivation enough?

Uh, I forgot what else did I wanted to say. Okay, feels so good to see the girls (: (: Love all of you very much please!

Back to bed. It's the 7th December, 1050am.

Hi all the fat/heavy/ugly(There are not many people who are skinny/light/goodlooking now) people with long hair(Cause not many people have short hair nowadays).

I caught Bolt and Bolt is damn cool. Well, I didn't exactly catch the lightning bolt la, obviously. But I cried during the show. How in touch I am with my tearducts and emotions. And Rhino the hamster is so freaking fat and cute and hyper active. It just reminds me of Pig, my hamster ): ): ): But Pig died already :/

Uh, I saw the cutest thing on Earth yesterday and I am going to get it. HAHAHAHAHAH next week!! When I get it then I bring and showoff okay!

Okay, shower time. Byebye!

Complain x38749389793485

HELLO UGLY FACES AND FAT PEOPLE.

So I went to the gym and then running. I don't feel very accomplished because I didn't manage to chiong my 29stations. I did only like, er, 13stations only. Poor deltoids. I neglected you. I shall gym again on Wednesday to make it up to you. And, my toes currently have blisters now ): How sad. Dumb long toes, you are too long for my own good. After I finished running around in circles again and came back to school after a looooooooooooooong time, I met Shiya at FC5. HAHAHAHA damn unhealthy. And the first thing she asked was, Your project how? Wahlao. I am never gonna post anything about the shitty projects on my blog anymore. The whole world will find out what a slacker I am(NOT NERDY AT ALL). Damn it.

HAHAHA and I wanna talk about proms!! Oh this is the period when the JC proms all start. Imagine nerdy people in promdresses and a huge chunk of gunk on their faces(meaning make-up la, stupids) whoaaaaaaa epikkkk!! And i dont understand why there is so much fuss over Prom night. You pay so much money for the bloody ticket(which is expensive like hell cause JCs wanna hold their Proms in hotel all cheyyy) and get a freaking dress(which you wear like, maybe only once?! cause you dont wanna get caught dead in the same dress at another prom, right?!) Prom is a waste of money. What for pay so much to say bye to the weird/fat/ugly/nerdy people in school; people you don't even like cause they study wayyyy harder when compared to you and they don't go out to shop like any other normal human beings so they have a huge stash of money hidden maybe in their underwear(thats the only place where they think it's safe because they don't trust banks cause banks have a conspiracy to eat up all our $$$$$$$$$$) and they use that secret stash to pay for the incredibly expensive Prom ticket and the wannabe Daniel Yam dresses. Bullshitttttttttttttttt. This is bullshittttzxzxzx. Okay, maybe you think I am sore cause I don't get to go to Prom, but I don't give a shit about Prom. I DO NOT LIKE PROMS. I would rather snuggle up in bed, under the covers and read a good book. HAHAHA (SO NERDYYYYYYY!) Oh, I am a walking contradiction.

I hate exams. Well, I DONTHAVEEXAMSEATTHAT. But I still hate exams because it takes up too much time from the people I love leading to them not having time for me so I cannot see them, cannot spend time with them ): ): ): Life sucks, at this point of time. The classroom is freezing my fingers and toes. I am hungry. And I still need to lose weight. 10kg, off you go. I hope you go away in the shortest time frame possible. I need a crash diet. The Passing Over Ceremony is coming and of course I would want to look good and slim and gorgeous but I highly doubt it because of the length of my hair. I mean, since when did Miss Singapore Universe have short hair with shaved sides. Urgh. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOPSSSSSSS am i contradicting myself again? Okay, to hell with whatever you think.
Okay, I shouldn't bother too much about what other shitheads think when everything on the planet Jupiter already thinks that I am the most brilliant person alive ever other than the times when I poke and prod her, get onto her last few nerves, beat her up, shout and embarrass her. Boy, am I thankful for Jupzxzxzxz (: (:

Contemplations.

CLASH OF THE TITANS.









When can we, again?

Some things in my brains.

Everything is the same but there is just that difference.

Havent been in the club for damn long already. I suppose the same chairs are always there. The same air-con that always spoils(and then we need those air-con fixers to come in and fix it). The same smelly old weights rack. The shoe bag rack full of smelly shoes(i brought mine home already!!). The bench press corner/sleeping corner. The same wooden benches on which we place our bags. The computer table where I am always stuck, playing solitaire. The top of the cupboard also known as the best sleeping place cause the sleeping bag is there. There is just this feeling of skipping school because there wont be any trainings in the evening. Yes, there is always self trainings but what can be better than training with the girls? It is just different, i know you all feel it too.

Sucks to have withdrawal syndromes from trainings and girls. It is at this point of time that I wish that time can rewind. So I can spend more time with my girls. I need all of you with me ): ):

Just back from lunch. BabyG sent me this text.
"Hello pbaby:) today's the first. Do you still remb?! Haha our dunno what monthsary already! Lol. Okay hope you're doing great. Miss you truckloads! <3"
Seems so long ago, I remember it was April's fool. Then we went to Gelare for our date. That was our first month (: SO TODAY IS THE 9TH MONTH. And I miss you loads too. I cannot wait for all the shitty exams to be over so we can start partying!

Just came back from lunch. I shall bring something to the club to show all of you soon okay (: I bet you all will have a good laugh and then have abs! Yay! I know I am damn mean but then again, who isn't? Search your heart. If you haven't been mean before then good for you, you get to go to heaven. But so what? Hell is where all the fun is.....

Okay I got loads to say but there is simply no time. So byebye.

Okay. I highly suspect that I will get retained. I did not do anything for my individual project. Well, nothing at all. I am so proud of myself. And for the past week, I have been home and sleeping in my bed only all of but once. And today is a freaking Monday already. What date? 1st December. And I have a project submission. While everyone is busy doing their last minute slides, I am actually blogging. Can I have a round of applause and a standing ovation, oh, can I have a bouquet of flowers too?! Thank you very much.



It's 9.42am on a Monday.