Emotional Intelligence

It is with the heart than one sees rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.

-The Little Prince

It's like a story of love

Who in the world will give in to me all the time and let me prod and poke and punch and pinch and bully to no end and at the end of the day isn't even angry with me? I don't even know whether to call it dumb or should I feel flattered. Hahaha I guess I am one hell of a lucky person hehehe

Having blogger and livejournal is really taking a toil on my brain juices! D: Don't feel like updating anything leh. Much to be said but even more to be controlled. Life sucks when you gotta keep everything to yourself but thank God for sissypoodlelulu because she listens to my rants every night when she is not on the phone. HI MEIMEI THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LISTENING TO MY NONSENSE ALL THE TIME HEHE I GOT SO MUCH MORE TO TELL YOUUUUUUUU

And I finished 900ml of low fat milk today whoohoo I am gonna grow taller! And bigger and more muscular. No dieting for me. More exercising hehe please let me be 65kg.

Day 5: My dreams

Dreams meaning those stuff that I dream of when I am asleep or what I dream to become? :/

Okay fine I shall take it as the former because it is so much easier hehe.

I have plenty of dreams but they always only have one ending. I go to the toilet, pull down my shorts and underwear, sit on the toilet bowl and pee. Wtf?

Day 4: My sibling

Hi Sister. I know you will read this therefore I have decided to dedicate this post to you hehe and I am waiting for a post for me too hehehe :D

Stop taking my clothes to wear and then start to keep them inside your cupboard because they are mine and as much as I would like to share, I can't fucking share because you wear and you don't fucking wash them. Get more clothes of your own lah wahlaozz get cheaper clothes lah stop buying girlie stuff with lace or flowers or beads because I can't wear them and you are so tall so you buy one size bigger and they look huge and long on me because I am only 1.66cm unlike you 1.73cm piece of long bean. Stop wearing my clothes and stretching them!!!!! I am angry. Promise that if you stop wearing my clothes, I will stop wearing your adidas sports bra and speaking of which, where is my yellow running shorts! Knn.

Love how I can constantly annoy you but you seldom get angry. Thanks for letting my punch and poke you all the time. Heheheheh. Oh yeaaaaaaaaa remember how we used to make up our own songs and take turns to sing to each other when we were younger hehe I love my Pomeranian song hehe I can sing to you again haha and love how you can always listen to me talk non stop. Stop being so fierce to me lah wahlao.

Day 3: My Parents

Hello mummy and daddy. I know you will never ever ever read this, confirm plus chop never ever because you both aren't even internet savvy unlike your daughter, me heheh.

Anyway, much nonsense going on in the messy house of ours. But I am thankful that I have somewhere to go home to. Even though it's been godknows how long since you both last talked and need me to be the messenger all the time, I am glad you two are still together for the kids, maybe?

To mummy:
Thank you for all the time, money and effort wasted on nagging at me because they always fall on deaf ears. Thank you for giving me all the freedom any child could ever ask for. Thank you for opening the doors for me in the middle of the night during the days when I lost my keys. Thank you for having washed my clothes for idk how many years and thank you for teaching me how to use the washing machine. Thank you for cooking dinner for me and trying to teach me how to cook. Thank you for pretending to not care about me being in DB but always ask whether got win or not. Even though you are biased towards boyboy, it's okay because you still care about me.

To daddy:
Thank you for providing for the house. Thank you for smsing to ask whether I want dinner or not. Thank you for not quarreling with mummy but going into the room to hide. Even though you are obviously biased towards meimei, it's okay cause no matter what, I am sure you love me too.

Thank yous for everything. I don't say it to you but I love you lah.

Eeeeeeeee so mushy.

Day 2: My Crush

I am sure an 18 year old girl(yes lah, I am 18 niaaaaaaa) has had plenty of crushes and there are too many to name so I am just gonna talk about my first crush?

It happened when I was in Primary One. There was this tall(not-so tall actually), dark and handsome boy in my class and I liked him! Hahaha because I was a tomboy since young and was definitely outgoing and loud and blahblah, well, I basically was everything that I am right now, we could clique and we played together and he was nice to me and blahblah hehehe so I think I fell for him. Ya lah so anyway I liked this boy right but all along I thought he liked this other girl lah. Hahah so I didn't confess D: Besides, I was only in Primary One leh!!!!

The crush lasted for 3 years I think. P1 all the way to P3. Hahaha very 'chi qing' right. I know I know. I guess I was too young and I am not really sure whether it is considered a crush or not. Hahahaha. So he went to the best class in P4 and I went to the second class. Then we were still in different class in P5 and 6. After that then we drifted apart all the way until poly omg. Hehehehehehe fate has it that he came to SP and became my junior in DB-.- of all things. I recognized him immediately hahaha and whoohoo back to being friends now, going home together after training. Talking on the train and bus ride home. Hahaha it is a realllllly loooooooong way back to Tamp from Dover okay.

Anyway, it doesn't matter. I was happy and he was too I guess. Being just playmates and friends. Hi, I know you will never read this but stay strong and jia you :D

Took some 30 day nonsense from Kwansie

Day 1: My best friend.

Friends are aplenty but what is considered best? I shall just talk about one person and she happens to be the first best friend that I had AND she will most probably never ever read my blog anyway cause we have drifted apart due to busy lives and all that crap but it's okay because I already spent a good 6 years of my life with her. Wow, that's like 1/3 of my life. Hehehe I am only 18 remember! :D

Anyway, she was the tallest girl in my class and we were in the same class for a good 6 years, the whole duration of my primary school life. She was everything I wasn't. She was tall, smart, and pretty. The apple of any teacher's eye. And me, I was the naughty one, the loud one and only God knows how many times have the teachers met my parents. She was the first person I bathed with, took neoprints with. She was class monitress from P1-3 and then prefect in P4, moved on to become Assistant Head Prefect when in P5 and finally became the Head Prefect in P6.

Never knew that we could become such close friends. It's like, we were the opposite of each other. I guess the saying that 'Opposites attract' is true? I still remember that whenever I was naughty, she would threaten to not be my friend anymore and in a way it worked because I treasured my friendship with her too much.

Thank you LSH for everything. Twas a good 6 years of being your classmate and friend. Cheers to 14 years of friendship and still counting! :D

I should start on this after reading Rachel's.

day 1 — your best friend

day 2 — your crush

day 3 — your parents

day 4 — your sibling (or closest relative)

day 5 — your dreams

day 6 — a stranger

day 7 — your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

day 8 — your favorite internet friend

day 9 — someone you wish you could meet

day 10 — someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

day 11 — a deceased person you wish you could talk to

day 12 — the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

day 13 — someone you wish could forgive you

day 14 — someone you’ve drifted away from

day 15 — the person you miss the most

day 16 — someone that’s not in your state/country

day 17 — someone from your childhood

day 18 — the person that you wish you could be

day 19 — someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

day 20 — the one that broke your heart the hardest

day 21 — someone you judged by their first impression

day 22 — someone you want to give a second chance to

day 23 — the last person you kissed

day 24 — the person that gave you your favorite memory

day 25 — the person you know that is going through the worst of times

day 26 — the last person you made a pinky promise to

day 27 — the friendliest person you knew for only one day

day 28 — someone that changed your life

day 29 — the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

day 30 — your reflection in the mirror

Thoughts before turning 18 HAHAHA

Quite a few people asked me how I am gonna celebrate my birthday but I answered with 'I don't know what's there to celebrate about' hahaha I am becoming older and older and yet remaining as childish as ever D: really makes me wonder when I will ever grow up. So here I am at my grandma's and there is this fat blob of a baby cousin that I really want to play with but because he doesn't see me often therefore he's a little anti social and refuses to let me carry him. I've been holed up in the room ever since after dinner because I am lamenting the fact that a baby, for crying out loud, a baby refuses to play with me, which sets me thinking... Am I that scary? Hahahahaha what will happen when I have a baby of my own hehe will my baby be friendly or will the baby be a scared cat? Hahahaha..

I should really settle down and stop playing so much!!

Oh man. I am getting nearer to death.

Another picture spam?

Some way overdue pictures just to fill up the wordiness of this blog hehehehe :D

This old blog

has been with me for a few years(epic years of my life) now. Seeing me through the many races that I have experienced in this short DB life of mine and it really sucks to say, for the second year in the fucking row, I got a bloody fucking 4th in POLITE!! Fuck my life. Anyway this race was quite bad lah with me being in a bad mood immediately after the race, coughing my guts out, with the throat so fucking dry seeing 3 other boats cross that bloody finishing line before mine did and my temper got the better of me and whooo I threw the almightly paddle which got me through the race into water hehehe what a great show for the spectators(and I have absolutelynofucking idea why I did that, seriously) D: Anyway, it doesn't matter anymore because what is over is already over and I have indeed alongside throwing the paddle, thrown my face and we can only set our sights on the next race, the next cookie to get, the next podium finish to aim for.

We are only as strong as out weakest paddler. And. We can never doubt our team mates.

Digressing abit here:

I hate losing lah. I seriously hate it. (Okay who likes losing right?) Knowing what we could have gotten but didn't. Ah fuck this feeling sucks. We all know how it feels to lose and NOBODY IN THEIR RIGHT MIND WILL LIKE IT. Ah fuck fuck fuck. Fuckity fuck fuck. It doesn't really matter what I sound like right now. To most, I probably sound like some sore loser but anyway, just so you know, your opinions don't matter because I am pissed enough to not care about anything. I am sure SPDB trained hard but the other schools trained even harder. They wanted it more than we did. They were hungry for it and they fought for it. They were fierce and I guess, not all of us were fierce enough. It would be pointless to say right now that if the race were to be 810m, it would have been ours but too bad, it was only 800m and no we didn't get it so guess what... Too bad lor.

Digressing even more:

Looking back at the previous June Race posts and seeing the pictures, I realised how fat my thighs have grown D: D: D: Ahhh the horror!!!!!! Ahhhh someone can just kill me now, please. And my obsession with the weighing scales is coming back (or rather, it was never gone) and it's scaring me to see the numbers slowly(sometimes not so slowly) creep up and it seldom comes down!!! Life is so unfair! I need to get it down by September or I am never ever gonna be pretty enough for that dress/gown. OOOOOOH YES you guessed right, I am getting married-.-

July spells a bad bad month. Firstly, I don't get to win anything and I am getting older. God damn it. Oh dear July, please go away quickly.

'Bronze is an achievement. Gold is an obsession.'

Are we obsessed enough?

More things to say. Now that I am finally leaving the teenage years behind and stepping into the 20+ range, I feel quite unprepared for adulthood. It kinda secretly thrills me that the people at the ticketing office want to check my student pass for an NC-16 movie hahaha but sometimes I feel irked. Indecisive is me. Can't believe that I am really gonna turn 20 and still be so indecisive about my hair. Anyway, problem will be solved soon. HfH is calling out to meeeeeeeeeeeeee hehehe.

Goodday. Hopefully this blog post is long enough. It's the longest blog post since like, godknowswhen hahaha.

Cause now it's over

and we gotta:

Work it harder make it better do it faster makes us stronger more than ever hour after our work is never over.

Anyway monday blues lah. Woke up early. Went back to sleep. Seriously in nua mode right now. Got to school at only 3 hehe but then there is still nothing to do, only researching for inspirational images :/

Happy occasions in the family :D Can't reveal what though.. Not sure if she will like it or not but it's kinda exciting :D Hehehe and am rather happy for her!

Comp's over. Back to training mode.

Stronger, better, faster.

Cold and rainy week

Been drizzling like crazy the whole week if I remember correctly and I hope heaven has had its share of the rain and will stop raining pls stop raining okay maybe can rain after SDBF lahhh

Worried! And sleepy. No updates and filled with disgust to say that I didn't manage to clock 30km kns!