So boring

After regatta i have got no life because there is no training and i dont feel like going to school anymore. thank god for b though hehehe

Like awesome

I still can't believe that I shaved both my sides last year for Regatta, sets me thinking. What should I do to my hair this Regatta? Last year with the batch, I wanna make it memorable hehehehe.

Oh and credits to Yiling for the picture, I got it off her blog!

I read something in the newspaper and I wanted to share

but I cant seem to remember what it was about ):

Look at how we have grown?

From a team so small to the last year's team. Can't wait for this year's girls team photo (:

This is it.

The last race of the year, the last race for my batch, the last race of my official 3 years in DB is about to come and then end in just 2 days, over the weekend and I feel so unprepared and nervous.

So many what ifs running through my head.

It isnt the lanes, it isnt the boat. It is us, it is the rowers.

Anyway, weekend training was okay. Felt good but there is always room for improvement. Oh do the seniors look like they are blind or do they look like they failed their maths or sth? Why does it seem like you think we do not know how to count? Or maybe my eyes are there for the sake of being there? Puzzlinggggg.

Omg omg omg 300m or less determines where I put my face. God damn it. Please let it be somewhere high and nice.

Pretty lights

So many events.

So little pictorial evidence.

Carbs load; Choice pictures (Read: Epic moments!) The rest are up on FB la, duh.








hehehe look at CY's face ^^

End product.

One last everything

this is the last race with the ladies. There are pangs of regret since we do not have a mixed race but I guess it's somewhat better and we can be more focused on our own race. I know it will feel empty without them for future trainings but I gotta be strong to make them proud of our future achivements.

One full year of races ahead of me, awaiting me. Another batch of girls coming in soon. Nobody ever wants to really leave the team that they grow up with and bond with but who really has a choice.

I know in my heart, every single one if you will never be replaced and we will be a team. For now, for ever, for always.

What have we left? Just 10 days or so. Whack hard. Minimise the mistakes. And hopefully achieve something.

Peeks I got off the web

So we're left with what?

11 days?

anyway this few days have been rather good cause i shat like alot. feel so much slimmer now.

now watch me, now watch me, now watch me shut this thang down

its my life imma do what i do and if you dont like it its cool fuck you

(sing along to Pitbull, Shut It Down lyrics! ^^ Last part of the song!)

I cant believe my ears

How can it be that with competition so near, you tell me that you dont want it as much, that there is no fire? Should I be disappointed or disappointed? It is as if we pushed for nothing. Mentioned it once before, there can be no excuses. What the fuck was going through all of your minds during training.

Wedneday training was alright even though some felt that the discipline wasnt there but we can work on the discipline. The important thing is to get our fire. Where the fuck in the world is the fire? The more I think about it, the more pissed I get. I feel like fucking all of you upside down. This is so pissy. You are all so fucked up!

Everytime a comp nears us, we change, more conflicts appear and we cannot seem to solve it. Tell me why this has to happen? We are a team and we are supposed to work together. Together, there is no I in the team. Everyone is in it, together.

I hate fuckers who don't come for trainings. After giving your promise to them, you don't fulfill it. How the fuck do you expect people to trust you? Okay fine, you may have a valid reason but no, why the fuck should we accept it? I dislike it that you drag the team down.
Seriously? If you ask me, we are all better off without you. How's that? We don't need you!

Okay off to gems, good day.

Hoyeaaaa

before i forget, there is a project submission tomorrow and we are almost done i think but no i didnt play a big part but my small part is enough to screw me up ):

I screw up most of the times

Most times when I screw up, I can change and do it better.
Sometimes when I screw up, there is no looking back and I cant change a thing.

We all need a time machine to rewind time and start from the beginning. If I could, I would go back to.................

So freaking tired and my eyes are swollen

there is so much that we do not know about each other.

what exactly have i achieved in my 19 years of life.
i am such a loser. dragonboat cant feed me for life.

Back to school after a self declared one week break

clock is ticking and the day is nearing. i have been so tired lately. regatta is coming but i dont see everyone pushing hard. lies and more lies. the need to push themselves isnt even there. why is this happening? i thought we were a team. i am so freaking annoyed and i wanna scold the shit out of you but no, it will cause more friction and the team might fall apart but then again maybe not because majority will be on my side nanny nanny poo poo.

training later on and i am feeling so lethargic boo. lazy to update. will do so when i find inspiration.