After a long (well, not that long) absence,

yes, I am back here again.

I have been thinking lately about the upcoming competition. And I find myself wondering what is it like to get a podium finish and on top of that, the inedible medium sized gold cookie. How does it really feel? All my life, I have never been top of anything that I have done except for 2006 in sec4 where I finished first in Xcountry but I don't think that was counted because the fastest runner (in my opinion) in my batch couldn't participate.

Studies, I did well in Pri Sch but I was never first in class. Top 3 yes, but never the first. Then all slid downhill when I got into Sec Sch, maybe I lost my interest to study. My results were so bad that I almost had to retain back in Sec 3. It became even worse when I got into Poly (results so bad how to go JC?), not the least bit interested in my course. I had thought it was gonna be fun initially but then I am obviously not going to get a degree in Landscape Architecture so I can never be a qualified Landscape architect so what's the point of continuing, I constantly ask myself.

CCA in Sec Sch, don't even talk about it.

CCA in Poly, maybe we can start talking about it now.
There was no girls team previously and if you are talking about a young team, I think we have done pretty damn well. I would really love to win, to show other people that we have improved. Improving a little isn't enough because there are other people who have improved too. Sometimes, we should all have a little confidence in ourselves. Sometimes, we should all attend trainings dilligently. Sometimes, we should not listen to the voices that pull us down. We should all believe in ourselves.

Sometimes we want to aim high, and then we end up falling down instead. How does it feel? How does it feel to have someone say that you can do it but you didn't achieve it in the end and then you feel so stupid to have listened to that person? We should believe in what is possible. There is no reason to aim for the stars that are so faraway. Maybe we should all just aim for the skies and then fall back on and into the trees, at least the canopy of the trees would provide a nice cushioning.

We all want what we cannot have but what if we get it? Would we appreciate it and be thankful?

Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer

Let me recall what have I been doing for the past few days. Actually, I forgot HAHAHAHA :/

Other than monster trainings starting, the killer sun that I have been under for the past few days, there is actually nothing much happening in my life HAHAHAHHAHAHAAAAAAA

Okay am rather bored posting here and I shall hop over to LJ right nowwwwwww BYEEEEE

You know like

i keep updating on my lj and i never ever do post here. i used to but not anymore. should i get back to blogger i find it easier to type here than blogger and i feel rather idk la. hahaha anyway it doesnt really matter whether i post here or there. anyway i have been hooked onto facebook games haaha the new game is uh double fall and this 50red thing that makes me go blind and see stars.

i think i am losing my touch to blog alot. the things i have to say seem so little now. i am also quite proud to say that my attendance for school isnt that bad hahaha starting to pick up already, am quite positive that i can keep it up hehehe uhm maybe it is due to the painted nails that make me turn over a new leaf heh and my command of the english language is getting rather terrible.

been wanting to lose weight for a freaking long time already but i havent gotten round to doing so. i quite like my nails now but i suspect they are going to chip off soon and therefore i need to paint new colours already. lets see, which colour should i paint next?

this blog holds plenty of memories. from when i was crazy to when i was heartbroken to other feelings. hahaha sometimes i do read back on the archives and then find out what exactly was i crazy over and about and i dont understand how i could have felt that way. i am happy now and i wouldnt trade now for anything. i am satisfied with my life now except for some little bits here and there. like the fact that i am retained and will graduate one year later than my beloved ladies. but then again i shouldnt be so concerned right because i have yunn sin with me and we can bring spdb to greater heights during our extended stay in the school hahahaha. maybe i should really go lose weight and then be a drummer. who says that drummers dont need to train?

oh my i am getting it i am getting it back la hahahaha i am typing alot more now and i wonder who will read my blog heheheheheheheee

i miss you whenever you are not with me and i can never find someone else like you not now not ever and i know you are the one girl for me

Oh the vanity in me

it has been awhile since i last updated here and guess what now i am going to do just that-- update. yes yes that is what i will do. i am waiting for the presentation to start and i was nice and told the teacher i wanted to present after lunch in order to let my classmates go for lunch and now i am so nervous i can puke out all of my rice and vege oh damnit. and i dont understand why there is this l4d craze. is it that fun hahahah everyone else likes shooting other people.

and i have changed my nail colours again. i think i have decided to let it become a weekly thing. last week my nails were of a happy colour, like red orange yellow green blue well it kinda reminds me of mnms hehehe. now my nails are pearly shimmering PINK yes you saw correctly, PINK with white french tip. hahaha and there is still glitter on the french tip. cool or cool? i need to think of what colour to paint my nails next, anybody got any idea?