After a long (well, not that long) absence,

yes, I am back here again.

I have been thinking lately about the upcoming competition. And I find myself wondering what is it like to get a podium finish and on top of that, the inedible medium sized gold cookie. How does it really feel? All my life, I have never been top of anything that I have done except for 2006 in sec4 where I finished first in Xcountry but I don't think that was counted because the fastest runner (in my opinion) in my batch couldn't participate.

Studies, I did well in Pri Sch but I was never first in class. Top 3 yes, but never the first. Then all slid downhill when I got into Sec Sch, maybe I lost my interest to study. My results were so bad that I almost had to retain back in Sec 3. It became even worse when I got into Poly (results so bad how to go JC?), not the least bit interested in my course. I had thought it was gonna be fun initially but then I am obviously not going to get a degree in Landscape Architecture so I can never be a qualified Landscape architect so what's the point of continuing, I constantly ask myself.

CCA in Sec Sch, don't even talk about it.

CCA in Poly, maybe we can start talking about it now.
There was no girls team previously and if you are talking about a young team, I think we have done pretty damn well. I would really love to win, to show other people that we have improved. Improving a little isn't enough because there are other people who have improved too. Sometimes, we should all have a little confidence in ourselves. Sometimes, we should all attend trainings dilligently. Sometimes, we should not listen to the voices that pull us down. We should all believe in ourselves.

Sometimes we want to aim high, and then we end up falling down instead. How does it feel? How does it feel to have someone say that you can do it but you didn't achieve it in the end and then you feel so stupid to have listened to that person? We should believe in what is possible. There is no reason to aim for the stars that are so faraway. Maybe we should all just aim for the skies and then fall back on and into the trees, at least the canopy of the trees would provide a nice cushioning.

We all want what we cannot have but what if we get it? Would we appreciate it and be thankful?