You know

you are in for it when you are too absorbed in the vampire high school romance. Of course there is no problem, not a big one that I see if not for the fact that none of it exists. It is not as if I am crazy over Edward Cullen or Jacob Black. It is just the thought of living forever and then not growing older that has gotten me into this mess. I keep reading the book, hoping it will come true, hoping that there is indeed this medicine that can make me live longer and not grow old so I can remain just the way I am, never changing.

I don't know. Hahahah reading Breaking Dawn and then getting to the part where Bella becomes a mother makes me go all, Awwwwwwwwwww so sweet. Sometimes I want to be a mother. Sometimes I want to adopt. Sometimes I want to give birth. Sometimes I want baby sisters or brothers. Sometimes I wish that toddlers didn't have to grow up and that they can remain small and cute and cuddly. Hahahaha. Sometimes I wish that everything can be as it was before. Hahahahah whatever wishful thinking. But who says humans cannot dream or hope or think? It is because of love that is why we hope.