It is drawing nearer

the project deadline of course. What did you think I was talking about? June Race? Hahahah of course not.

You know

you are in for it when you are too absorbed in the vampire high school romance. Of course there is no problem, not a big one that I see if not for the fact that none of it exists. It is not as if I am crazy over Edward Cullen or Jacob Black. It is just the thought of living forever and then not growing older that has gotten me into this mess. I keep reading the book, hoping it will come true, hoping that there is indeed this medicine that can make me live longer and not grow old so I can remain just the way I am, never changing.

I don't know. Hahahah reading Breaking Dawn and then getting to the part where Bella becomes a mother makes me go all, Awwwwwwwwwww so sweet. Sometimes I want to be a mother. Sometimes I want to adopt. Sometimes I want to give birth. Sometimes I want baby sisters or brothers. Sometimes I wish that toddlers didn't have to grow up and that they can remain small and cute and cuddly. Hahahaha. Sometimes I wish that everything can be as it was before. Hahahahah whatever wishful thinking. But who says humans cannot dream or hope or think? It is because of love that is why we hope.

Some days

i wake up and feel good about myself and then there are other days when i wake up and wonder what the heck am i doing on earth.

some days i wake up on the correct side of bed and everything seems to go smoothly but there are also other days when i wake up on the correct side and everything goes wrong.

there are days when the weighing scale shows my the number that i want to see but then some days when the weighing scale shows what i wanna see, i am still unhappy.

feelings are subject to changes and i hope this shitty feeling of my life going wrong goes away.

So I am back here

Okay camp is starting in less than or about 6 hours and I have come a full circle, starting from a freshie to a GL and now a senior. I don't know how I should feel. Glad that everything is now ending or sad that I might be leaving soon. But then again, I still have got one more year in school and I can be a super senior. Hehehehe not forgetting that I have YunnSin still in school with me next year.

Anyway, I think I have 2 attachments in year3, how sucky is that. Does it mean I can't row properly for MR or Regatta? Omg, I would dread that. Hahahaha I am still aiming for 4 IVP jackets and I know that I can get it, if I train hard enough.

So me.