hello december
it's the last month of the year 2014.. this year has passed by so fast. i was actually still struggling in the mid of it.
so many things have happened since the beginning of the year. both good and bad. and this is the year that i made the hardest and biggest decision of all. i left nteam... it may come as a shock to some but for those closer to me, they have heard me talk about this before already. i have never thought about quitting/leaving the team before. and i didnt want to be one who said aiya wanna leave but end up not leaving. so i left this though stewing since announcement was made that seagames trials will be in nov. and i decided that i will leave if i dont qualify for the team.
truth be told, i wouldnt have left the team if i didnt get this awesome job. boss is nice and colleagues are awesome.. i get taken care of and all my needs are kinda provided for. my last day of official nteam paddler was on sunday. the last day of the trials. i am filled with a bittersweet feeling inside of me but all good memories :) and am ever thankful that nteam gave me such great opportunities and memorable experiences. will pen down some stuff another day.
december beckons :D december is here. many things to look forward to. bnj gathering and secret santa and also nteam's exchange which i am also kinda invited :D thankful and appreciative.
so yesterday. for the first time in 7 years?!?!?! i went town without feeling guilty or stressed out. because i had no trng. lol ok i sound like a noob. but 7 years is a long time lah ok? ni bu dong de la.
will go for lunch soon. i smell food. i feel happier and free-er but also a little lost. like i dont have anywhere or anything to look forward to after work anymore. with all that being said, if there's a chance, i will still go back to paddle / maybe join an outside RECREATIONAL team. less competitive hahaha and of course i will still keep up gyming. LOL dwna be a slob. altho the temptation to slack and do nothing is there..
anyways, went to town w hammy and dabaoed 4 fingers for bubs and someone very nicely came to pick me. how sweet. it's been so long and i am still so appreciative and thankful.
so many things have happened since the beginning of the year. both good and bad. and this is the year that i made the hardest and biggest decision of all. i left nteam... it may come as a shock to some but for those closer to me, they have heard me talk about this before already. i have never thought about quitting/leaving the team before. and i didnt want to be one who said aiya wanna leave but end up not leaving. so i left this though stewing since announcement was made that seagames trials will be in nov. and i decided that i will leave if i dont qualify for the team.
truth be told, i wouldnt have left the team if i didnt get this awesome job. boss is nice and colleagues are awesome.. i get taken care of and all my needs are kinda provided for. my last day of official nteam paddler was on sunday. the last day of the trials. i am filled with a bittersweet feeling inside of me but all good memories :) and am ever thankful that nteam gave me such great opportunities and memorable experiences. will pen down some stuff another day.
december beckons :D december is here. many things to look forward to. bnj gathering and secret santa and also nteam's exchange which i am also kinda invited :D thankful and appreciative.
so yesterday. for the first time in 7 years?!?!?! i went town without feeling guilty or stressed out. because i had no trng. lol ok i sound like a noob. but 7 years is a long time lah ok? ni bu dong de la.
will go for lunch soon. i smell food. i feel happier and free-er but also a little lost. like i dont have anywhere or anything to look forward to after work anymore. with all that being said, if there's a chance, i will still go back to paddle / maybe join an outside RECREATIONAL team. less competitive hahaha and of course i will still keep up gyming. LOL dwna be a slob. altho the temptation to slack and do nothing is there..
anyways, went to town w hammy and dabaoed 4 fingers for bubs and someone very nicely came to pick me. how sweet. it's been so long and i am still so appreciative and thankful.
posted by Pam @ 11:44 AM
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