it is a gloomy friday ): ugh not a tgif at all. but to those who are tgif-ing, good for you.

OMG I AM FINISHING HIMYMS6 SOON I CANNOT BELIEVE IT I WNA DIE NOW. BUT TO BE ABLE TO WATCH SOME S9 EPISODES TOGETHER WOULD BE SO GREAT.

implicit trust

and with absolutely clarity.

And I know now we're getting older
The world we build is slipping through our fingers
We're running out of time

But you are the one I've chosen
And I won't lay still
Living left behind, Imprisoned by this love

I could feel your heartbeat
I could feel that somewhere you're looking down

Non nobis solum nati sumus.

"There's more than what the eye can see, the heart can love, and the brain can understand.” 

"If she loved him the way she said she did, she wanted him whole. Maybe this was what love meant after all: sacrifice and selflessness. It did not mean hearts and flowers and a happy ending, but the knowledge that another's well-being is more important than one's own.” 

There is only one way to be happy, and that is to make somebody else so.

Life only goes around
Once
But never again

I wish we could do
All the good times all over
Again


No I don’t wanna move on
Oh the memories
always linger on

The good times
The good times
The good times
All over again

this song always makes me cry. haha too big an emotional wreck recently. must be the hormones. weekends still playing in my mind.. there's no way to rewind time. just have to live with inadequacy till there's another chance for redemption.

zhen de shi zi tao ku chi.

i need to fly. with my own wings.

I dare you to love
I dare you to cry
I dare you to run
I dare you to try
I dare you to fall
And lay on the ground
I dare you to feel
I dare you to be here now

... ...

How do you deal with a story that has no ending?

Unfinished. Probably the word that sums up my weekends. They said it'd be calm in the eye of the storm. They didn't tell me what to expect after the storm..

Another flurry of days and nights passed. We're left in the aftermath of this business, hanging onto nothing. Inadequately inadequate perhaps? We're there but not quite there.

always

every day
every way
for the rest of my life

back when words used to spill out effortlessly, i could go on and on about absolutely anything. but now with every word i let out, i feel like i am losing a small part of myself.

a7x

I found you here
Now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life
But will it be forever?

I'd do anything for a smile
Holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come
But I don't want to leave you

i think i rly wna learn the guitar lol. but i have no musical talent at all ): probably gonna be a stupid student. where can i get a really patient teacher? 

Everytime I look at you it hurts.

First is the moment when you think you think it
There's the moment you think you know it
There's the moment where you know you know it but you can't yet say it
And then there's the moment when you know you know it and you cant keep it in anymore

''as long as youre still married to lily, youre doing alright.''

marshalily's relationship is probably the best thing ever. gives us hope, doesnt it?

race schedule is out. nervous as hell. scared as hell. keeping the faith with our chins up. we can do it, together.

If we stay together, I'll have to forgive you over and over again, and if you're still in this, you'll have to forgive me over and over again too. So forgiveness isn't the point. What I really should have been trying to figure out is whether we were still good for each other or not

She taught me all about real sacrifice. That it should be done from love... That it should be done from necessity, not without exhausting all other options. That it should be done for people who need your strength because they don't have enough of their own.

vesak day / rest day (NOT)

was supposed to be a day off trng yday but itchy fingers jos and i went to kallang to do a round-kallang-kayak-marathon hurhur kinda paddled the perimeter of kallang. from merdeka to sheares 1 to sheares 2 to gardens by the bay then upwards towards the barrage and then down back to sheares 1 and to suspension and back to sdba. relatively smooth paddle except for a few scares here and there and i cursed out loud.. jos burst out laughing at me...

went for bosu class at market street after that. it was fun. although it took a little bit of getting used to. lunch with jos and christie and headed home to sleep all the way after that. pretty amazed at my sleep cycle.. home is my sanctuary. after i get home, i do nothing but sleep or watch tv..

back to work on a dreary wed morning.. i just gobbled up my bread. need to do work now..

Right place, right time.

The great moments of your life won't necessarily be the things you do. They'll also be the things that happen to you. Now, I'm not saying you can't take action to affect the outcome of your life. You have to take action. And you will! But never forget, that on any day, you could step out the front door, and your whole life could change forever. You see the Universe has a plan kids; and that plan is always in motion. A butterfly flaps its wings, and it starts to rain. It's a scary thought, but it's also kind of wonderful. All these little parts of the machine constantly working... Making sure that you end up exactly where you're supposed to be.. exactly when you're supposed to be there. The right place. At the right time.

how my weekends went

fri night turned out to be awesome. had a super teammates filled night even though there was no trng. so it all started with a toy that elly helped me buy at vivo and me asking her abt her dinner plans. so dinner was at grouptherapy with the teammates. lotsa different mains that we ordered and kinda shared a little here and there. also had a lemoncello pie, woah super good haha sweet and super sour.

after that we took a long walk to boat quay, all the way from tanjong pagar.. went to table manners bleah~ wasnt that awesome.. had pictures taken at regatta race site and then we proceeded to take the train home..

there was double sessions on sat. the sun was merciless again ): i think we all got burnt. mini trials :S and it didnt go all that well. showered and hitched a ride to tamp cause elly was heading there yay! went to singpost to collect my parcel hurhur and caught up with himym. im now at the finale of s4 omg so fast.

went home and slept all the way until 7plus then i woke up for xmen haha wth

and i continued my sleep after the show and had doubles on sunday omg. everyday also trng. sighhhh my life.. end of rant. back to work on a boring monday.

Thank You

I said I thank you
I'll always thank you
More than you would know
Than I could ever show
And I love you
I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do
to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever

Always, Always and forever

And I thank you
I'll always thank you
More than you would know
Than I could ever show
And I love you
I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do
to say these words to you
That you will live forever

Forever and ever
Forever and ever

That you will live forever

i have a weird rash on my left inner elbow. and it's itching like hell ugh. must not scratch it.

it's a friday night. no trng tonight. i feel a little lost. an hour to end work.. i wanna cont with himym.

too lazy to update chronogically. some stuff that happened

key points:

-spent money on a good dinner for a good occasion congrats anyway it was worth the money
-had a superb dinner at one of the restaurants i used to work at (8 years ago? 2006 i think if am not wrong) and wtf 8 years ago..... i cant believe it
-found out lemon juice???? and tobasco actl go well together oooh slurps
-finally started on himym hahaha halfway through s4 alr which means halfway thru the entire series omg it'll be over soon damn it

i dont remember what else i did alr. work is ok. trng is tough. life sucks.

oh i finally can fit into the pair of shorts i bought from taiwan 2 years ago. was always too fat to fit into it but hurhur guess what. who's da boss now!??? *jumping for joy and squealing like a crazy kid*

today is friday blues cause am in a blue skater dress which i had difficulty zipping up last time and still have difficulty zipping cause the freaking zipper isnt smooth..

75th

too tired. too tired.

They become inseparable and the love they hold for one another is so great that they believe they will be together in both the mortal world and afterlife forever.