ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE

YOU JUST GOTTA SET YOUR MIND TO IT. been working and missing trainings. so many trainings that i have missed that i am scared. what if all those times i miss trainings and spent working cost me the seat in the boat? i am dismissable. the team can do without me but i cant do without the team. db is whats rooting me and preventing me from drifting but sometimes i get tired too. its hard to grow old and have new people overtake you. its hard to see people you once loved, love someone else. its hard to let go of what you hold dear to your heart. and with that said, idk how i will ever leave db. since young, its always been my dream to travel the world and experience and enjoy places that my family could never afford to go. its not that i minded. i wouldnt want mummy to spend a bomb on us either. we have 3 in the family and it costs a bomb for an average income family to go on lengthy trips or tours. i want to pay for myself and make things worth it. i want mummy to enjoy life but it seems i have only brought her trouble. and nobody is stopping me from pursuing this flying dream except for myself. i have procrastinated time and again from going to apply at SIA because i cant let go of db. its not that i think i am damn pretty or damn good. i am average and rather blessed with a height of 166 and smooth skin. i wouldnt say i am awesome but i am not that bad either. seagames is coming up next year and i already find it diffcult to breathe with the current two jobs that i am holding. i have no idea how long i can hold on for. my dream is for db to be recognised and show that a medal made up of 22 ppl's hardwork is as worthy as a medal won by an individual. to eat breathe live db while i can.