Deviated from the original intended purpose of using the computer

while Bzs busy playing SIMS, I shall update this stinking space. I find it a chore to maintain a blog. I mean, I do feel like having a space to express my thoughts and how I feel about my life and stuff but it's kinda become too open? Hahahaha I dont know buttttt nah I wont be doing the lock up the blog thing. It's boring when no one reads. The whole purpose of writing here, I feel, is to let other people see what you wanna say but without telling them face to face? Some things are better said not in the face.

At least here, I get to type whatever I want without getting blasted directly from other people. If they want to comment, at least I wont be within hearing range. Yes, there are some other people who are as loud as me if not louder. Hard to imagine? Hahahaha am not kidding you.

I keep cooking nice food on cafeworld and it keeps spoiling, and it's wasting all my cafecoins! Okay la I know it's damn lame to cook virtually but at least I cant burn my restaurant down right haha would you rather me burn the house down. Some might say yes cause they feel I am better off dead but then, where's the fun when I am gone hahaha no more topic to bitch about. Eh not trying to be shameless here but hahaha you know I know we all know ^^

Wolfman caught with rachel and bzs. Hahaha though I am into such movies but I must say it wasn't up to expectations at all. Why are the werewolves getting uglier and uglier. I think Underworld has the best looking werewolves and vampires. Blue eyes, where can you find vampires with ice blue eyes? Haha red is boring. To all those twilight fans: Please dont throw any eggs at me hahaha I am a fan of twilight as well, ask me anything and I am pretty sure I can answer but I am not such a die hard fan that I will kill whoever who criticizes twilight. Afterall, it's just a story la please. Try writing one yourself and create your own vampire lover. Hahahaha.

More food time coming this weekend. Keep eating and eating and funnily not worrying whether I will get fat or not. Though am still quite concerned about my weight but I dont care and just continue to eat. Aiyer this broken english is getting on my nerves. Will blog again when I get the feel. Gotta go. Bye.

Did any one of you miss me?

I guess not ):

Anyway, CNY has come and gone. So has valentine's. Hahaha and Total Defence Day and Time Trial is cominggggggg :O Worried muchhh.

Okay let's see.
5 yushengs in a span of 2weeks or less :/ One family. One bzs. Two team. One spdb. Omggg.
Much fun and laughter with the girls on our bbq friday. Wonder where the pictures are.

Anyway, been running about to the toilet since Sunday evening...... Must have wasted like 232312 litres of water flushing my shit. Hmm heard that if you are healthy, your shit floats? Hahaha as disgusting as it may be, I looked at mine and whoooo it floats. Hehehehehe. But think I ate too much chilli, I can even see the chilli in my shit and it's made my shit turn orange hahaa not normal brown anymore. See, I am special.

Okay byeeeee sleeping time here I come.

Currently am at the grandma's house and having fun with this cute fat little cousin that I have. What an addition to the family. Hahah finally there are 4 grand children in the family. Used to be only 3 (me, sissy poodle and brother) and the age gap currently stands at 14 or 15 hahahahaha the gap between the brother and the fatty. The gap between me and the baby is about 19. Wah damn fun to play with him though he is damn naughty.

Pictures are up on facebook. Check that fatty out yo!

It's been a long time since I posted

but this will be one of the last posts of my second year as a second year student. I have submitted my last project (okay that was on Monday) and skipped school (that's on Tuesday) and slacked on Wednesday and presented on Thursday (which happens to be today) and coming back for some briefing and class lunch (the lecturer's treat) on Friday (tomorrow!) hahaha. And then I will be done with year 2, can you believe it?

A part of me is thankful that I retained as I have no idea what to do with my life but another part of me aches knowing that my batch mates will be graduating and that we will be doing different things in our lives from now onwards.

Next Friday would be BBQ or whatever mass dinner with the girls team and I absolutely can't wait for that, I haven't seen them in a million years. All of us have been busy with projects (especially me! I have posted them on Fb for all to see and to act as proof muahahahah!) and studying for exams. Well, I have a paper too and it's on the 18th. I am gonna study hard for it! (: and hopefull do well for it.

Nothing much has been happening in my life. All my mornings are filled with trainings and some evenings are filled with trainings too.

Recently ordered this yummilicious thingy called Accelerade, some kinda supplement thingamajig and it's lemon lime flavoured. Hahah call me weird or what but I loveeeeeeee lemon and lime. Okay actually, anything citrusy la. Hahahaha.

Some things I need to do for the week:
-Run more and not be cuimax@hotmail.com anymore ): Can't believe I punctured after only 28mins of run and it was so bad that I had to sit down a few times on my way back :/ Life sucks. And the surroundings changed colour too. For eg. the grass turned from fresh green to bright yellow and so did the clouds and skies; the dried leaves on the road turned from brownish orange to grey-.- same colour as the road. Ahhhhhhhh the sun must have gotten into my head hahaha hate feeling this weak ah ):
-Eat a donut hehehe I haven't eaten a donut since like forever! This is a lame thing to do.
-Make it under............... I know can already. The whole world don't need to know.

Okay, gotta pack my class table now. I have so many things to bring home. Fml.

Overdue but I still wanna do it

What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
I don't remember but it wasn't anything too bad. Hahaha passed my freaking ITP, is that counted? Cause I got sacked the first time round hahaha there are plenty of things la like staying over at the gf's so often that I got expelled hahaha then I got back into school again and repeated year2. Became a damn cool girl hahahaha missed SPDB trng camp for the 21312123th time and missed out on Pulau Ubin cycling :/ due to ITP la, thank God I didn't get sacked. Well, actually, almost hahaha.

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No, I didn't bother making any in 2008 la. Didn't make any for 2009 either but 2010 saw me make alot of stupid resolutions which will not be kept to anyway. What's the point of making them? Noone ever keeps to them, okay la, maybe a handful do but obviously I do not belong to there hahahaha :/

Did anyone close to you give birth?
No, they all practice safe sex la, I doubt they would dare to give birth anyway, so painful and uhm stretch marks!

Did anyone close to you die?
My hamsters ):

What countries did you visit?
I don't remember but, I don't think I had the time to :/ Well, sentosa is counted right, cause it's over the seas. Need to travel, want to travel. Must. Travel.

What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
More money, better grades, to be promoted to Year3. More time to spend. Do well in whatever I want to do. Better time management. Better stuff to blog about. Loads of material stuff. To be able to lift 15kg bicep curlzz hahaha and bench 25kg per side. Also to achieve 20 pull ups but it seems kinda impossible. But this question is what would I like to have so it doesn't mean anything hahaha..

What date(s) from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Committee meeting which turned out into Winter Wonderland hahaha walking down Orchard wrapped up in winter jackets and scarves and gloves and also ear muffs. Lol. Michelle's party which saw 010 getting drunk (boom mi ah dah boom mi ah...) and seeing her asking stupid questions hahahaha.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Passed my ITP. It's a damn big thing for me cause if I had failed it again, I would have been kicked out of school. Also, picking up computer skills which I never thought I would understand, for eg. Sketch up and autocad. Omg such killers.

What was your biggest failure?
Not being able to win anything with my batch mates, not being able to stand on the podium with them. And I never ever will get to win with them ever again because they are all graduating soon ):

Did you suffer illness or injury?
All the small illnesses definitely but nothing major. Haven't gotten injured in like forever. Oh, went to the hospital to get the cotton bud removed from inside my ear as it had broke while I was cleaning my ear, now, that freaked me out quite badly. Started to cry and all and my mummy told me my lips turned white. Duh! How could I not be anxious right, I had proj submission the next day I think and I was admitted to the emergency ward only at like 12midnight or something and had to wait till about 3 before I got attended to hahahaha

What was the best thing you bought?
Didn't buy much. Bought toy cameras though. Tried to pursue photography but apparently failed hahahahaha or rather didn't carry on with it. Hmm the cameras must be somewhere around the house and the rolls of undeveloped film along with it too..

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
There are alot of names to this list so I won't even bother naming any..

Where did most of your money go?
Cab fares, food, useless things, transport. Mostly on food, junk food.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
All the competitions that I would be going for with my batch mates hahaha it's their last year after all.

What songs will always remind you of 2009?
Love comes again. In the Dark. Sweet things. Mainly Tiesto's Elements of Life album. Hahahaha

Compared to this time last year, are you…
i. Happier or Sadder? Happier because I might get promoted to year three hahahaha
ii. Thinner or Fatter? Definitely fatter. My weight increased, what do you think..
iii. Richer or Poorer? Same la, as poor as ever.

How will you be spending Christmas?
This Christmas? How would I know. Might not live till Christmas haha maybe God wants to celebrate it up there with me, considering if I get up there, that is..

Did you fall in love in 2009?
Let's say, I maintained the love since 2008 la. Hahahahaha

What was your favorite TV program?
Don't remember watching much TV in 2009 :/

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don't hate anyone. I am too busy handling my own shitzzz.

What was the best book you read?
Read too many books to remember. Loved Blast from the Past, The Reader and also Double Fault. There are so many others, I can't name favourite. Contrary to what I look like, I do read..

What was your favorite film of this year?
Hahaha can I say Twilight lol. There, said it. I just had to. I just had to..

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Fbts and shirt. That will never change.

What kept you sane?
Trainings and my batch mates.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Definitely Lady GaGa.

Who did you miss?
Don't really have the time to miss anyone. Hahaha the only person I would miss would be the person I was staying with hahahahaha

Who was the best new person you met?
Hahahaha how can I rank anyone.

Was 2009 a good year for you?
Yeah, thought it was gonna be bad since I got retained but it wasn't that bad afterall. Am really thankful to all the new classmates and friends that I have made. They really helped me alot in my projects.

What was your favorite moment of the year?
Hahahahahaha Winter Wonderland with my batch mates. Lol.

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Project submission time..

Where were you when 2009 began?
Working at Rebel as a waitress hahaha trying to juggle with working on friday nights, training on saturday mornings, working on saturday evenings and training on sunday mornings and back to working on sunday evenings...

Where will you be when 2009 ends?
Hahahahaha been with the girl. Lol.

Did you break up with anyone in 2009?
Noooooooooooooooo one year anniversary was in Sept 09 hehehehe

Did you make any new friends in 2009?
Yes, my classmates. Awesome shizzle, they are! (:

Who are your favorite new friends?
No favourites. Too bad. I believe in equality hahahahaha

How many different states did you travel to in 2009?
Like. NONE?!!?!?!?!

How many concerts did you see in 2009?
None. Don't do concerts.

Did you have a favorite concert in 2009?
Refer to the above...

Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2009?
Uhm, I don't remember. Hahahaha.

Did you do a lot of drugs in 2009?
No money to do any drugs la.

Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Definitely not.

What was the worst lie someone told you in 2009?
Don't wish to remember.

What was your proudest moment of 2009?
Getting back into school and actually learning something..

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2009?
Hahaha I maintain my dignity wherever I go..

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2009 and change something, what would it be?
Go to school when school reopened so maybe I wouldn't have been retained..

What are your plans for 2010?
Hahaha get promoted to year three...

In the darkness you came

In the darkness you left.

We try to do so many things at once and we make a mess out of everything. We taste disappointments and experience rejection. I have no idea what I am trying to achieve by saying this. Must be myself going crazy after all the hours of being stuck in the classroom. Hahahaha and why the hell am I still blogging when I have got shit loads left to do. Someone, kill me please.

Anyway, am currently re-reading this book, Double Fault. Hahahahaha and I have finally finished re-reading Phantom.

Miss my batch mates so much they have no idea. Gotta give alot of things a miss. I took on more than I can cope with. I need to improve, to buck up, to be more fiercesome. I am never letting you step over me but it seems I have already concided defeat for I have nothing to fight with. I need to have something before I can start talking or fighting back. It's mine, I know it, I gotta work for it.

I don't like to feel unwelcome and nobody understands that. Nobody is like me. Almost everyone I know have a bad impression of me. Life sucks and I don't need anyone. All I need is you but I am not all you need. But I still love my piggerlicious, one and only piggerlicious hahahahahahahaha

Anyway! Say hi to the more the merrier (:

Oh need to learn how to play l4d2.

A Quick One Before Lessons Kill

I know I haven't been updating much. There has been no time for lengthy pieces complaining about how busy and up to my neck I am due to trainings and projects. The Grandmother was visited by me and piggerlicious on Saturday and we stayed for dinner. Finally, I realised how old she is, she is 75 this year. A full 60 years older than my annoying little brother who is not so little anymore, considering the fact that he is now taller than me and wearing long pants -gasps- Sec 3 already, omg! And I don't think I am home often or early enough because it has been almost a month since secondary schools reopened and I have yet to see my brother in his long pants. You may now call me a loser..

Okay the fake job interview with the teacher ended hahaha and I was unprepared, like duh?! Btw, I keep getting distracted by this book I am re-reading for the 2783461th time. Not joking. I keep reading it that I am sure I can memorize it soon.

'Memories! Memories are like the glow-flies darting across the surface of my mind, showing me here and there images so sharp and vivid that I catch my breath in wonder before the vignette disappears, sinking into the quicksand of vignette and recrimination'

Okay, it's from the Phantom of the Opera and I am wondering whether the story is based on a true story or just created out of imagination. If the Phantom were to be real, he must have been a genius. I mean, geez, he is a scientist, a musician, a doctor, a ventriloquist and god knows what else he can do. Ahh, he can kill.

I need to find new books to read and I have already almost completed all the books in piggerlicious's house. Bleah no money to buy new book. How pathetic.

Gotta learn to be alone. No time no time for anything.

And I don't know why I feel bad when people send me gifts on Fishville and I don't send them any :/ I better start sending them gifts too. Oh and my buzz rating on Cafeworld is dropping!