Yet another week has arrived.

This marks the fourth week of itp. So far everything has been going well. I have been going to work, late but better late than never. They dont seem to want to fire me so am guessing this itp would be easy to pass. I dont even need A OR B OR C. I just wanna pass hahahahaha. 4credits only, please. No big mann.

Training on Sunday was great because any training is better than no training at all. I wont ever complain if trainings were to increase in the future because, from the bottom of my heart, work truly sucks and nothing can ever be compared to training with the ladies, well, certain ladies of course. Bias like that, too bad.

Uhm, mixed was a good experience. Got to pace with Bernice. Didnt feel too bad about the sets we paced so good job to Bernice and I if I may say so hehehehe^^ Water finess dropped due to the lack of water mileage, damn. How am I ever gonna clock back the mileage that I've missed due to itp!! ): ):

Because of work, there are plenty of things that I've missed out ): Uhm, okay get it back when work finally ends!

Because I want to, that's why!

LOOK AT HOW FAIR I HAVE BECOME! OKAY LA MAYBE NOT THAT FAIR CAUSE THE LIGHT IS BRIGHT BUT STILL!!!!! ): WHY AM I STUCK IN THE OFFICE ON A BEAUTIFUL SATURDAY MORNING/AFTERNOON/EVENING! FULL DAY ON A SATURDAY IS NO JOKE!

I got no stairs to be left roses on ):

Work sucks even though i have been so slack.

everyday is just a routine. wake up go work have lunch look forward to ending work at 6 so i can meet beezees. sleep and then it continues.

somedays there are variations cause i need to self train but still not much difference. i go run and gym after work. i am so bored during work. yes i get to use the computer but how much exp can i gain in happy farm by helping friends spray weed killer and pest killer? haha 600exp per day. how much money can i earn by harvesting the fruits of my labour in happy farm. not enough money to buy new land also. cheh. i need another 120000 if i am not wrong. boring snoringgggg.

i am losing my tann ): while my teammies and beezees soak up the sun and water and rain and blahblah, i am sitted in the office, with the air con at almost full blast, drying up my skin. oh god, my feet is so dry now. i need to scrubbbbbbb it properly! i dislike dry feet la.

I WANNA GO TRNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG ): ): ):

life sucks without trngs okay.

To let her or not to?

Miss Singapore World, Miss Ris Low is in the stupid spotlight again. the other time it was because of her poor english hahahahhaha now it's because of a credit card fraud. wah she damn power ley! should she represent us or should she not? whey, criminal ley...

Just so you all know

I do not like to be wrong and I do not like to lose.

Hello, how have you(s) been?

i have been missing out on alot of trngs, missing out on alot of ketchups with my teammies and working my ass off (okay, the last part not really) but yeah, i feel work is really sucking the life out of me. it is making me so tired. as a result of missing so many trngs, my strokes currently suck. the length of my strokes is only about 10cm HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA jokingggggggg but still, i feel lousy and also feel like i am a burden to my boat. so what if i am the pacer, i am currently a lousy pacer!!! ): ): ): omg i will just kill myself if my stamina and strength drops :/ land trng cannot compensate for water fitness!

and the best part of all, i can see my weight creeping up. no more 55kg!!!!!!!!!! so bloody sad and depressing. bernice, can your weight stop decreasing? you are making me feel fat and flabby and like a blob ): life sucks!

i wanna wake up, train, eat, train again, eat, go home, eat, sleep and spend all my time with beezeemooze and my ladies! (: but if i had that kinda life, i'd be a fat blob too ):

boo, life sucks no matter what.

i shall go be an office girl nowwwwzzzz :/

Love is tough, or is it?

Relationships, i feel, do not solve any problems and instead create them and results in a mess out of our lives.
Relationships are like drugs, in the beginning, there is this palm sweating, heart racing and the illusions of happily ever after but in the end, there comes the break up and the heart break which is depressing and headache inducing too.

So if we already know that most relationships fail (which is why we seldom marry our first love) then why do we keep getting into one? what do we gain by getting into this deep pit which we are never going to get out of? Happiness? Not so frequently. Heartaches? Most likely. Ideas of kicking that bastard's balls? Hell yeah.

Relationships also take control of our emotions. we cry like pussies after the break up, feeling bitter and depressed. Love came and went, leaving us idiots to pick up the broken pieces of our hearts. Swollen and puffy eyes greet us in the morning, causing us to slather on tons and tons of make up.

So why do we have relationships?

Because you know in the end, there will be, there definitely will be, that one person who will sweep you off your feet. There will be, that one person who is worthy of you. There will be that one person who can make you as happy as a lark, as angry as a bull but also as sad as an emo nemo cow. Happiness comes at a price because the person who makes you happy also makes you sad.

Love is irrational and illogical.
Humans are stupid.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

Ahh so now it has started raining.

omg the rain is so fucking heavy. anyway i realised that when i go to work and get on the comp, i am always visiting the same few websites. hahahaha

imma type out my list of websites. hahahaha.

1. www.facebook.com
2. www.hotmail.com
3. www.twitter.com
4. www.livejournal.com
5. www.blogger.com
6. www.xiaxue.blogspot.com

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

sometimes there is also clicktv and youtube and other mundane websites. but whatever makes me happy.

anyway from lj i link to other people's lj also. and from blogger i link to other blogs. so i am stalker much, no? (:

i hate it

that i cannot attend trainings on saturday god damn it! this sucks to the maximum please and it looks like it's about to rain and am i gonna have lunch alone? that is so pathetic. this is stupid. noone will actually read this til they come back from training!!! ): WHO CAN I COMPLAIN TO?!?!?!?!?!

KILL ME NOW!!!!

ANYWAY I AM GETTING TO FAT AND SLOBBY AND BLOBBLY FOR MY OWN GOOD ):
THIS REALLY REALLY SARKKKKKSSSSSSSSSSS

guess who? make me happy onlyyyy ^^

nooooo! you are not fat lor, i like your figure leh. you dont have tummy siaaaa

your arms not so big, just nice got muscles but not buff. you got flat tummy, your thighs not v big also. you dont have carrot calf. okay what!!!


FOR THIS, I WONT SHOUT AT YOU ANYMORE OR BULLY YOU OR WHATEVER ELSE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHADHASDFASERHVAMER/;X
THE CARROT CALF MADE ME LAUGH LIKE MAD. HAHAHA SIMI LUO BUO TUI LA. HAHASDHSK WTF

It's Friday!

this marks the end of the 2nd week of work. one more month to go! JIAYOU PAMELAEEPEISHAN! Hahahaha.

I CANT WAIT FOR ATTACHMENT TO END AND GO BACK TO SCHOOL. SCHOOL IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN WORKING!!!!!!

I FORGOT TO MENTION

THAT STUPID BEEZEEMOOOZE SHOUTED AT ME IN THE GYM.

SHE SHOUTED: FUCK YOU LA (X1000000 TIMES MY NORMAL VOLUME)

AND EVERYONE IN THE GYM HEARD ): ):

HI EVERYONE!!

pam is a happy girl today because her nails are newly painted hehehe. okay i know i have already posted it on twitter, facebook and blahblah but i am really happy with it hehehe! and i didnt spend such a long time on my nails lor.

let me give you a rundown of what happened yesterday.
arrived at work late, slacked the day away doing mundane stuffs like clipping post it notes onto rubber bands, researching for management agencies and developers which drove me up the wall and still is driving me up the wall.
lunch was lonely with me and sharon only. had mee siam, which i didnt manage to finish! dont like wasting food but it's okay, i was already full and besides i need to practice portion control.
beezeemooze came to fetch me from work and we went to the gym together (: it was my first time gyming with her. i felt so embarassed because i am so bloody weak ): bloody hell, even 7.5 front shoulder is enough to kill ): and my biceps shrankkkk ): ): i was sad for a moment but beezees was there to support me (: LOVE YOU BEEEEEZEEES (: 5 MORE DAYS (: hahaha guess who i saw in the gym? NOONE ELSE BUT MY BEST FRIEND HEHEHE^^ SUCH A SMALL WORLD. i miss the days where the ladies would come gym at tamp and then go for a dip in the pool. miss it miss it.
anyway, after this gym session, i realised that my triceps are small little loserish things and i need to train them harder. preferably for them to be bigger and more defined. it's currently so puny now! ): ): uh, back extension was a killer cause my back was already aching from sunday's training. omgggg old already!!! :O
chionged to shower and went to dabao food and then chionged home to watch teevee hehe ^^ me and beezees and my sister all squeezed onto the sofa, wahh so cosy ley (:
I DONT LIKE BEEZEES TO GO HOME. I WISH IT COULD BE EITHER ME STAYING OVER AT HER PLACE OR HER STAYING OVER. I WANT TO SLEEP WITH BEEZEES EVERYDAY AND WAKE UP TO HER SNORING RETARDED FACE HAHAHAHAHA!!
then i went to paint my nails, quite a smart move huh, considering the fact that the show was halfway through and i wanted to sleep quite badly already. good news is my nails didnt smudge at all!! SHI PRO DE LOR!!!

whole body is aching quite badly now. and did i mention beezees commented that my lats rehder beeg. but so beeg for what, also cannot pull myself up properly. argh i are such a weakling hahaha. okay i shall go train pull upsssssss. reverse, jump, simi sai kind of pull ups also i will practice!!!!! to 3 and beyond!!!! JIA YOU PAM!

i want to take a picture of my nails and post it here but i shy. oh and i need to scrub my sister's shoes, i dirtied it quite badly last wed. MICHELLE STEPPED ALL OVER IT!!! YES YOU MICHELLE!!! WANNA HELP ME SCRUB? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!

5 MORE DAYS 5 MORE DAYS!! (: lovely <3

So I finally went for training

and got burnt :/ Damn it. I am peeling after spamming 1 weeks worth of lotion. And now, it's decided to peel. Damn you skin, damn you. I am getting fairer. It's ugly ): I dont like it. Who wants to be fair right. I dont wanna be Fann Wong!!!

Training was alright, thought I was late but haha I wasnt really late. One million thanks from one million miles away to YILING MY LOVE for bringing the singlet for me!
Felt good to row with the ladies once again (: Eh one whole motherfucking weeeeeeek ley, dont play play. I missed you all so much okay ): ):

Girls training was alright, attendance for yr1s were good. Think the yr2s gotta buck up if they dont want to be overtaken. What can I say about the yr3s right, all were present! But there were only 6 yr3s la, sian. Yes, I am including myself in the yr3s hahahaha!!!!!

Rested for awhile after girls. Mixed training. Talked about camp, seems like I missed out on alot of fun and also the chance to get myself into the pictures. Will someone please photoshop me in hahahahaa!

The next time I get to row will be next sunday, boring and such a long time away.

Currently bored outta my wits, bye.

Did I mention STUPID BITCH OF A BEEZEEMOOZE PISSED ME OFF EARLY MORNING because the school that trains 7 times a week had their rowing early than hers and she was dying to see the HG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK GODDAMNNIT. KANNINAH CHEEBYE. LIFE SUCKS.

PASSWORD:

blobbly plobbly blopply plopply blobby plobby bloppy ploppy bobbly pobbly bopply popply bobby pobby boppy poppy blob plob blop plop bob pob bop pop.

I am very very very excited

because in another 8 days, it will be. hehehehehe :D :D :D

Havent reached a milestone in a long time. will this be it or will it not be anything? i hope it will be but i guess only time will tell.

Yay happy 1st with beezeemoose!

JUST IN CASE I CANNOT UPDATE ON THE DAY ITSELF, WAIT, I CANT, CAUSE IT'S A SUNDAY AND I DON'T GET TO USE THE COMPUTER! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

It's a Saturday and

I am actually in the office working and best part of all, I will be working till 6pm today. Full day shift! How sucky! Hahahahaha the weather is good today, the sun is strong, there is a light breeze. What other better way to spend my day. Damn I could be out there rowing with those dumplings but because of attachment I have to miss training. I only get to row 5 times before I go for SAVA! Omg not prepared not prepared. Intensive gymming starts next week.

Work has been rather fruitful these few days. Been learning lotsa admin stuff. Writing letters, doing emails, quotations, tender references. Heh think I have potential to be a secretary. Lunch has also been good. Kinda spoilt for choices, so many nice food to choose from.

This attachment caused me to miss training camp! I have already missed it twice. Damn it damn it. Hahahahahaha and they went to ubin to cycle again, and I wasn't there again. Omggggg I MUST ATTEND THE NEXT TRAINING CAMP.

Ngzeemooze has been nice to me, meeting me for lunch and waiting for me to end work. I cannot wait to get my pay. There are so many things I want but no $$ to get ): ): Measly pay, sobs.

New shuffle, I want. Preferably the polished stainless steel one, ahhh, that is a beauty (: (:

Okay time to continue with my NParks tender reference :/

it's official now

our new favourite word/phrase would be:

FORNICATING OLD FEMALE GENITALIA! MUAHAHAHAHAHA OKAY WHATEVER NOT FUNNY AT ALL.

anyway i just finished shitting and it feels so good. wonder why i have been having the runs these few days. think my bowel movements improved but ngzees is having constipation. hahaha maybe if we average out our bowel movements, then it will be better for the both of us. she gets to go to the toilet and i get to stop going to the toilet so much. sounds like a good idea huh huh huh!!

training was alright yesterday. feels like normal. but too bad for me i wont be joining them for weekday trainings ): dont like it that i dont get to see my girls ): what if my fitness level drops? okay i need to set goals and targets for myself. need to improve. need to improve. up my level. up it, up it.

sitted in the office now. dont know whether to feel lucky or what. i get to sit on a chair in an air conditioned room. yippee. and the in charge gave us a small talk just now.

i forgot what else i wanted to say. oopsie!

Finally

the much awaited holidays have arrived and i will be stuck in some nursery at katong fulfilling my ITP and crossing my fingers and praying hard that they like to hear me talk loudly and hopefully decide to keep me for 6 weeks and not fire me.

wednesday thursday and friday were spent in the waters of kallang (literally) and soaking up the sun. shit happened but shit passed. the almost nearly but thank god it didnt happen, didnt happen and i am so thankful. when can i ever get it out of my mind. and i think i better try to get as dark as possible nowwww or else i will be the only one as fair as steamed chicken by the time sava arrives. i do hope to clock good attendance and get the most coveted, please please let me get it okay?

back to training today and is it me or does everyone suddenly have a slightly different hairstyle. oh right, i forgot, all your hair grew longer but bernice cut hers short! not short short but her ponytail is shorter now. noone understands why i keep cutting my hair when i keep saying i wanna keep it long. did i grow slimmer? is the weighing machine lying to me with those little numbers. why do i feel fat all the time. portion control. portion control!!

Beezeemooz is in the toilet washing my training stuff and i am so thankful oh i just sneezed on my knee. ahh i am still burnt and my face is red ):

training was alright today because it was back to foundation front catch front catch front catch, twist and pull twist and pull twist and pull, stretch out stretch out stretch out. push push push. whoooo.

keep up the good work team and i may decide to love you more than ever. hahahahaha (: