MR500

OMG so unprepared :/

Blast from the Past

'A tiny spark leapt instantly into life, a spark that had long lain hidden amongst the dead ashes of the ferocious furnace that had once burnt between them.'

That is from the book that I have just(a few days back) completed reading.

I Like, You Like?

Weight update.

Yay 56.2kg now!

:/

So I do not need to go back there anymore. Why is it always like that?

Days, in the blink of an eye.

2 more weeks to MR500. Obviously it is a 500m race.

I feel unprepared.
I feel weak (what's new?).
I feel lousy.
I feel strength-less.
I feel so tired.
I feel hated.
I feel unwelcome.
I feel lonely.
I feel like no part of the team.

This is MY blog so of course I talk about me. Like, Duh?!?!

Today.

Today I feel weak.
Today I folded about maybe 1000 ribbons. No joke. Do I even sound like I am joking. Cheebye.
Today I feel so full. Maybe my stomach grew smaller. As in the capacity became smaller.
Today I was late for work.
Today I felt shitty.
Today I felt better, the infection I mean.
Today I still feel weak.

Okay bye

ITP SKW

Today I learnt how to tie ribbons nicely. For Chinese New Year. How goddamn far is it from now and I actually have to tie it. Perfect example of how kiasu Singaporeans are.

Was it ever so?

And you wanna pull her close
But your heart has froze
You kiss her but her eyes don't close
Then she goes out of your heart forever
And it hurts you but you know that it's better

The Sun will Set for You

Another start of a new week. Hahahahah I can't wait for this week to end so 2 freaking weeks of ITP will be down. Hehehehe :X
Attachment does not really suck because I don't have to do much. Cleaning cotton paddings day after day. Apparently they run out really quickly. So we have to keep replenishing it. Boring but at least I get to sit down, so I am not complaining much.
Headed to school for ST with Gbaby after work. I want to cry!!! I am such a failure. I need so much support today :/ I should go kill myself. I am weak. Weak. Really felt like crying during gym session but it would be so embarrassing. Done with my laundry and heading to bed soon! I am starting on a new book, Blast from the Past. I hope it will turn out to be a good read!

LUCKY OR WHUTTTTTTTTT

Monday was the first day of ITP and I was absent so I went to get an MC.
Tuesday I packed fertilizer and watered the plants. Hahahahhaha sheep galore, sounds nice right? It's actually sheep's shit and it stinks!!
Wednesday was quite alright. We spilt up and I went to transfer little seedlings! After which I sat comfortably and unwound the nylon strings for tying orchids.
Thursday I got to sit down again and this time I was cleaning the cotton pads. Hahahhaha!!! I also got to water the plants.
Friday was the best day, I got to do alot of things. I shaved the roses, cut the stalks of flowers, changed the water for the plants, watered the flowers.

Best thing about ITP: I GET TO WEAR ANYTHING I WANT HAHAHAH THAT INCLUDES FBTS AND TEES!!!!

The story goes.

I don't know what to update about since I already updated like, only 2 days ago? It isn't always that I have got a whole chunk of words to say! Okay, I shall talk about trainings. HAHAHAHAHA I LOVE TRAININGS I LOVE TRAININGS I LOVE TRAININGS (: (: (:

Hahahaha it feels so different now that I am sitting comfortably on the roller chair and typing all of this when compared to sitting on one side of my butt cheek and at the same time trying to twist and reach, not forgetting the part where you have to use your leg to kick too. Oh and I forgot the part where you have to have a slight lift of your body and at the same time use some of your arms when you recover. Sounds simple? But wait till you try to combine everything together. Hahahah it's so complicating to have to multi-task and I have difficulty doing it.

I dislike it when the attendance for trainings are lousy! Today, there were only 8 rowers, not that I am complaining but 8!!!!!! That is less than 50% of our full strength! And out of the 8, 5 were seniors. And there are only 6 seniors in the team. I have no idea where the missing one went. Hahahahahah I highly suspect she got stuck in the toilet bowl. Thank you Suan, Bee, Yunnsin and Gwen for coming down (:
And the juniors, only 3 (Yiying, Edna and Priya) out of 12. I could have just fainted. But then again, 3 is better than nothing (: So thanks to you too (: (:
For those who only attended Saturday's training, you are slightly less fat then those who haven't attended any. Hahahahha :D
For those who haven't attended either Sat's or Sun's, you suck the most and obviously are fat!!!!!!
But I know we still love you (:

If I had a choice, I would want to rewind time and hand up my year end project so that the chances of me retaining would be lower. If I were to be retained, then I wish for the following year to fly by less quickly because that is all the time I am ever going to have with my ladies. Hahahaha can all of you repeat one module so I have company for one more semester (: Pretty pleaze?

Freaking 2009, nothing seems to have gone perfectly right since you started! ): Why like that? I haven't gotten my ass back to my own home and stayed in my own home for more that one month since the year started! And today is already the beginning of March!!!
Some nights were due to work and other nights were due to being at UT. It isn't that I do not have a nice house, which I have. Or that I have a mean MM or whutttt but sometimes, it is just the tension in the house that makes me feel so choked/suffocated/buried. I am so afraid to go home tonight cause it will be the first time in don't know how many weeks.... Hahahah I think my ass will burn! :O :O :O

Even if I am going to be retained, I will take this as my last year in the team and commit more to the team. It isn't as if I don't but I feel like I can give more. For example, I am always throwing my beloved paddle around (oops, that contradicts the beloved word) just because things do not always go my way, and I am sure Bernice knows why I do that. And I can start to stop doing that. In fact, I already started to be nice to my baobei. I didn't throw it at all today (: Not that everything went my way luh, but I am just trying to give out a positive vibe. Hehehehehhe :D :D

I am having attachment and I am really worried about not clocking enough water mileage. I heard during training today that POL-ITE has been brought forward to April and I think it is on the 18th. That is the day ITP officially ends. OMG, how to cope with water trainings and also ITP and also self training?!?! I am really dead this time. It isn't that my time management isn't goooooood but I am just too lazy. OMGGGGG this cannot be it. But thankfully, it has been brought forward, or it would be so disastrous to be training for JuneRace and POLITE at the same time. Imagine if POLITE were held right before JuneRace, how to cope with both 500m and 800m? Hahahah I just can't switch my programming fast enough. Slow like that, cannot isit? As for POLITE, I am going to prove to everyone out there that I deserve the seat on the boat. The team is getting bigger and it wouldn't be fair that the seniors get the seats all the time, the year1s are going to be seniors too. Everyone should fight for their seats on the boat. Hahahahahah and if I don't get to be in the boat as a rower, I am going to aim for the DRUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Therefore, during this period of ITP/selftraining/hell, I am going to exercise and eat right. Hahahahahahha no, this time it is not just all talk no action okay!

Dragonboat--it is not a mutual understanding between me and him. Yes, I refer to DB as a him. Sometimes, I give in so much to him and yet I do not get the results I want. Simply because there may be others out there who give more to him than I do. He wants the whole team to give in their time/passion/raw skin/aggresiveness to him. It is not just the job of one person, it is the team effort that he recognises, not the lone soldier. He does not want us to suffer alone. The whole team will go through hell together and emerge as burnt warriors when the war is over. We will reap what we sow. If we train hard now, there may be a chance at glory because other schools are also training hard, maybe even harder than us, but if we don't train hard, there will never be a chance at glory. Instead, we will just be at the loser's end with all the other schools laughing at us. But life is unfair, and even if we train hard and earn the glory, we will still be laughed at. Pain is nothing. Pain is pleasure. Glory is forever.

Oh, hahaha as it turns out, I have alot to say.

And speaking of MR500, it will be the first time that SP will have a 20womens crew (: I am so proud of us, although I am only considered the pioneer batch. Hahahahha prior to us, there was not much of a girls team :/ (Zakkiki was considered a man I guess)