insanity might just be sanity

why cant you believe that more exists than what you can touch?

Cupid rules us all.

okay, first things first. today is the first and the first, today is the twenty first. nowwwwwwwww, who gets what i mean? HAHAHA anyway, i need to cut my hair. i look like a walking lump of hair now (not that my hair is extremely thick or whatsoever). i need to get it. cut? i think my fringe is getting very unbearable but the mere thought of just getting it shortened makes me want to cry (in that annoying slang, come on, denise laugh HAHAHAH!). i cannot bear to have it cut. but it is always falling over my eyes, making me more blind than i already am. to keep blowing my fringe is such a chore. would anyone like to help me blow my fringe? contact me please. HAHAHAHA!
the point is :
i need a drastic change to my hair. wait for it, will you all?

i seem unable to grasp the simple fact that it is so simple to fall. fall down. fall from glory. fall into a pit so deep you cant ever climb out of. fall into a routine. fall into the vicious cycle of life. fall from where we are standing and we dont even need to do anything. soooooooooo! it IS extrememly easy to fall right? correct me if i am wrong.......... and when you fall, you dont know what hit you.

PAIN IS PLEASURE.
keep that in mind when we are doing our weights, the pain that arises from pumping our muscles, yes, it is pleasure.
keep that in mind when we are rowing, when our muscles start to ache, when the lactic acid starts to build up.
keep that in mind when you fall in love and you get hurt from it, pain is pleasure.
pain IS pleasure.
it is so pleasurable to be reminded that we are still mortals. stuck in our bids to escape from this world. this life. to get to a better place, up there? which i am not sure even exists (ohh, please read this with an open mind).

HAHAHAHA okay super vague i know. am not even sure what i am talking about.
it is not a matter of why we are escaping, but what we are escaping from and escaping into. HAHAHA sweet escapade? tell me when you find yours.

why is the wind so wild? i need to run and hide from the wind. i can feel a storm coming. and i do not feel at ease. i think i shall hide. under my umbrella. yes, thats what i should do.....