abstractions.

somebuddy said my posts getting very vague(maybe vague isnt the right word). like hellooooooooo. need to read between the lines okay. need to learn to read the mind of pamelaeepeishan HAHAHA.
anyway back to school.
tell all of you a secret okay. i lost my virginity. today. this morning. i lost my bike virginity la. my friend fetched me to school. on a bike, so freaking cool. HAHAHA i can go on and on about it. but whatever-er-er "/
now i am back to complain. i think i overate. cause i had lunch twice. usually i am the one asking people not to overeat and today i did just that, so smart right. give me a round of appaluse please thankyouverymuch :D now i just feel like puking. it is a terrible feeling to overeat. so bloated and i feel so handicapped. like if i move even a little, i will just burst and die. argh damn smart pam damn smart. and i have alot of overdue pictures. post them when i have time, if not, too bad. none will have a chance to see my face. losers, HAHAH.

Nature cannot suffer the human forms within her system of laws. When given to her charge, the human being before us is reduced to dust. Ours is the most perfect form to be found on Earth. The visible world sustains us until life leaves, and then it must utterly destroy us. When, then, is the world from which the human form comes?
did i mention that ebuddy is stupid.
it is stupid.
it is lousy.
it is annoying.
max max max okay. ebuddy is not working out for me la. what the fuck. i am so annoyed right now okay. sorry if i flare at anyone.
and i dont mean to let my insecurities rule my head. sometimes when i get really scared, i say words i dont mean. sometimes when i am all smiley, it doesnt mean everything is fine. i feel small, all the time. afraid of the judgements passed. afraid of what people really think about me. in a world as black as this, i dread all the comments that will be passed. why can people never learn how to keep their mouths shut and use their hearts instead of their eyes to see?

'Words, as is well known, are great ends of reality.' - Joseph Conrad