take a deep breath

do you smoke?
no i dont. sometimes air is hard enough.

how does it feel
to be despised?
to be a crutch to someone; and a punching bag the next?
to have no idea what to do with your life?
to fancy someone that everyone opposes to?
to want to belong but knowing you never will?
how does it feel to feel so many things at the same time when all you want to do is to just lay on the grass and watch the clouds pass above you?

its summer all year round. the weather is supposed to be fine, sunshine-y, happy, hot. but it is not. summer is not keeping its promises. the weather take a turn when we least expect it.
lesson learnt: carry the bloodyauntie-ishumbrella no matter what. we can use it when the weather is hot. when the rain is fucking pouring. when there is a bloody person who is having sinister thoughts on your body. HAHAHA so many uses for the umbrella so bring it all around. (i dont usually practice what i preach, but it's okay, you all can bring the umbrella and share with me thanks.)

there are always two sides to a coin. the truth might be distorted but yes. the truth will still be out in the end. i cannot find a way to phrase my posts to make it seem subtle, and not so straightforward. but i cant change the way i am.
i am brutally straightforward. i think i am honest. well, with comments and words that is. take it or leave it. dont ask me if you dont think you would believe. okaythanksbye (:


and somebuddy overate today HAHAHAHA.