Time flew

i have been slacking for quite abit now. changed a few jobs but none gives me the fun and joy plus laughter other than bnj. hahahaha which is why i die also wanna continue scooping because office jobs are really mundane. okay i am turning 22 this year and this blog has been with me since i was 18. when i am bored, i read back on the posts and find myself wondering whether i have changed for the better or still remained the same because i keep making the same mistakes over and over again. it is so difficult to keep my temper in check with i am jealous or angry. everything i destroy or spoil, its always with my own bare hands. my own bloody hands. why cant i just keep my hands in my pocket. and i say trust no one because even the one you thought was most trustworthy didnt turn out to be that trusty after all. my heel is dry and i have new abrasions. i cant believe i have another 3 hours of work to go and i am bored already i want to sleep. this job is good but mother far from my place. i have to spend one whole hour squeezing on the train just to get to work. from east all the way to west. how long can i maintain this mmm.