Introduction of PEPS!

Standing at 166cm and weighing 56kg CURRENTLY, is Pamela Ee.

I am loud, brash and wilful. I can get a tad violent at times, okay correction, I am violent most times. I usually get dumped instead of me doing the dumping. I wallow in self pity after the break up happens. I go running, and I run a hell lot to prevent myself from crying and usually it doesn't work because I cry after I run when I am alone. I usually check myself out in the mirror and think why am I so ugly. My complexion is considered flawless but I do have small real pimples every now and then. I try very hard to cover them up because I am not used to having pimples and I dont like it. I don't put make up because I don't think it suits me but I won't mind having some on for the hell of it. I cannot stop talking and almost always you will hear me yakking away, non stop. Sometimes it annoys the hell out of other people and they ask me to shut the fuck up. Whenever I heed their advice and really shut up, other people tend to think I am emo-ing because I usually don't keep quiet, so it puts me in a dilemna-- should I talk or not. I have an unpredictable mood swing and sometimes I am high, the next moment, I would be quiet. I especially hate it when people ask me to shut up. I speak Chinese, English and Hokkien. My dialect is Shanghainese but I have never in my life heard of that dialect before. I hate it that I look better in photos and not in real life. Maybe it is because the photos only capture my more glamourous moments. I am rather emotional but I do not like to show it because people always judge a book by it's cover. I have very short hair so people expect me to be more garang and strong but actually I am weak inside. My boisterous exterior is to confuse people and make them not find out my weakness.

I am an extremely straight forward, sometimes to the point where I am too blunt and I hurt others with my words but still I don't see the need to sugarcoat my words just to make other people feel better about themselves. I use sarcasm but only very minimal. I like the colour orange and I don't mind going out decked from head to toe in orange. I always tell myself that I want to have long hair but I end up snipping them off. People think I am cool with short hair but I never ever thought that way because I never grew up with compliments so when people compliment me now, I am not too sure what to say. 'Errr, thanks?'

Sometimes I wish I were a normal girly girl and not this mix that I am in. I paint my nails and have hair so short that I look like a boy, what does that make me? I love painting nails and helping other people paint theirs too. I change my nail colour almost every other week. Sometimes I scream for no apparent reason but I don't think I am weird. I am brave and not afraid of lizards or cockroaches or ants or any other creepy crawlies that most girls are afraid of. I am not afraid of the dark or ghosts. I think ghosts would be scared off by me. I don't forget things easily though I may seem forgetful. There are some people and certain events that happen that I will never forget. I seldom bear grudges because I know I do offend other people at times. Sometimes I get tired and I zone out. I don't really club or drink. I prefer to stay at home, under the blanket and read a good book. I never get sick of reading the same books over and over again. You can ask me anything about Harry Potter or Twilight and I would be able to answer. People think I am geeky or nerdy when I say that but I can say that I am not. I just like to read. My eyesight is quite bad. I used to say that I won't wear contacts but now I have no choice because I lost my specs and am in no state to buy a new pair.

Mummy hates it that I am so dark because of dragonboat and she always says I look like an Indian but I tell her that she hasn't seen the real Indian yet. I get a or an earful from her when I get home late from training and in order to prevent myself from getting an earache, I get home even later so that she would have already fallen asleep. I get alot of freedom from my parents and I think sometimes I do abuse that freedom. I do things without thinking of the consequences and most people hate me for that. I don't understand myself so I don't expect anyone else to either. This post is definitely not enough to introduce myself but I am guessing it would be a foundation to knowing me? I don't know and I don't really care anymore. There would be others out there who dislike me and they don't matter. What really matters is the people who love me. I think I can safely say that there are more people who love me than the people who dislike me.

Wait till I find out more about myself before I tell it to all of you.