wont get better

why cant things not change?
why cant things stay the same?
why cant feelings remain?
why cant we not grow up?
why do we need to eat?
why am i not fit?
why must he be so hot?
why are so many girls crazy over him?
why do i seem like a lousy girlfriend?
why cant i make him stay?
why must all these happen to me?
why cant we have more hours in a day?
why does love feel like a disease?
why does it feel so wonderful at the same time?
why do people hurt so bad?
why does my heart break itself?
why cant we smile at each other?
why must you avoid me?
why cant we continue being happy?
why did this had to happen?

was i not a good enough girl?
was i too naughty?
did i not treat you well enough?
did i not deserve you?
were we meant to be?
were we not mean to be?

i know this love is real and not an illusion.
i want you so much, AYF. i am crazy over you. from now, till as long as i can feel you.