not quite over my head.

everything i do, i think about you. i dont know how much longer i can take this. living a life with you in it but not quite in it is messing me up. i got no mood for school and no m ood for every other thing. and i am in the same cca as you. seeing you so near yet so far really kills me. do you know how i feel? seeing you laugh with other people. it m akes me wonder whether i ever really made you happy. did i? will i still be able to make you happy? if you need to study, i can tell you now. i will wait for you. i will wait 2 years for you. for you to finish poly. and i will wait another 2 and a half years for you to complete NS. that's how i feel. but i know i am never gonna get through. i dont know how you feel about me now. i dont know what's on your mind other than studies and training. i think i have been placed at the back of your mind. you can't solve it, so you discard it first. it is okay. it is definitely okay. i can wait. patience is a virtue. and baby, i will gladly wait for you.

so baby i will wait for you. cause i dont know what else i can do. if it takes the rest of my life. if you think i find it just aint true. i really need you in my life. no matter what i have to do. i will wait for you. i will be waiting.

this song just about sums up my feelings right now. playing the waiting game. alone.