The year

will inevitably come to an end on 11:59:59pm today and 2010 will begin.

Certain decisions made this year has caused me to repeat a year in poly and therefore am unable to graduate with my batch mates but I am indeed lucky to have a coach that allows me to row and continue in the team despite my bad academics. 2010 will be a year that I will leave my teenage years behind, all those stupid mistakes and wrong decisions will also be left but the consequences of some of my actions will never be erased and will instead follow me wherever I go. All I hope and want is to learn from my mistakes (which experience tells me, I never ever learn!) and be a better person.

Some achievable resolutions for the new year include:

1. Staying happy and this is the number one and most important because if I can't even make myself happy, the chances of making someone else happy is even lesser.
2. Loving myself more, this includes not punching the wall when I am mad which causes me to have swollen knuckles and fat hands :/ and if I can't even love myself, how do I spread the love to others?
3. Being a better daughter and I can start by shouting at my MMDearest lesser. I am such a vulgar person that sometimes I don't even think twice before I hurl vulgarities and I know that hurts my MM's feelings, I feel bad and I know I can do something about it so I will, in the new year!
4. Less vulgarities but it seems a little unachievable therefore I shall limit myself to maybe 10 a day hahaha when I can currently do like maybe 100 in half a day now!
5. Be less self-occupied. Instead of thinking so much about my physical aspects, maybe I could start thinking more about my projects!

Forgetting about making anymore resolutions, half of them don't come true anyway. Other simpler resolutions include those superficial ones like losing weight and finally maybe hitting my dream weight which apparently isn't very ideal to others, achieving my muscle definition which I can't achieve without losing the fats first so don't blame me for wanting to lose weight hahahahaha and also maybe try to grow long hair or at least start to make up my mind about which hairstyle I want, not forgetting that I also want to try and save some money for a nice vacation somewhere over the rainbow. Oh and also, wishing that I will become more intellectual or maybe at least sound more intellectual when I blog. But tell me, how can I sound intellectual when the most recent book I read was a Lizzy McGuire series? Did I even get the spelling right? Ooooh, I also maybe want to try to start typing in proper english but I am afraid that will be unattainable because, as much as I am ashamed to say it, I will, laziness gets the better of me all the time :/

New year, new commitments.
I guess I really need to buck up if I don't want to be a failure. Need to manage my time well to juggle between killer CCAs and stressful studies. Sometimes I just want to quit school and go out to work but where can I go with only an 'O' level cert? I certainly do not have the capabilities of opening a blogshop (and besides I think the clothes I sell will be quite quirky and noone will ever want to buy it and the blogshop will just go bust!) and managing all the money, clothes blah blah how tedious is that when thinking about it makes my want to scratch my hair off my scalp!


Peering into the bag and trying to see what 2010 will bring and at the same time wishing I were King of the world and Queen of her heart.


A girl coming 20 still hopelessly in love with another girl and I know this will work out if I put my heart and soul into it. Wait, I already have and still am.