trainings.....................hurt
due to my toe. i couldnt run. had IT when i walked to class this morning. unlucky ): masters this sunday. 2nd series of the whole masters. training this saturday. better chiong project. i am left with colouring, lots of drawing, scanning, photoshopping and i got to compile everything into 4slides. luckily we dont need to print out the panels. 4 A1 panels, wah wah wee ah! that will cost a bomb. i am a poor kid. does that sound like little to do? HAHA i can assure you it is not....... my pullups suck. i suck........ i am a depressed little kid. watched a video on giving birth in class yesterday. sharon intro to us. oh mann. the video turned me off so much i decide i dont want to give birth the natural way. i would wanna do a c-section but it will hurt too. argh! can we adopt please? but then it'd be different...... cheh............... i want kids la. i can feel my maternal instincts kicking in. HAHAHA to have kids means to HEHEHEHE. but i shy-.-! just joking. like what someone told me. we are still young. still young..................?? i am not prepared to have a kid now but i wont mind looking after little kids. i like to carry them. unless they start shouting in my ear, then they get it from me. after training, pushups as punishments and more to come during other trainings. juniors were alright. they are getting better (: jiayou bah. had maggi mee. i am sick and tired of instant noodles. but boh bian. training end so late. all the stalls close liaoZXzxz la. trained home with zakkybunZXzx and germaine, cheryl and ruifang. had fun on the train. but the bond wasnt there yet. zakky!! i think you are scaring the juniors. HAHAHAHA while walking to bathe, yellow man was walking back to club. and zakky.................... was smiling from ear to ear. ZAKKY! dont think i didnt see what happened. BRIBE ME!! and i will keep my mouth shut. HAHAHAHA!
are we so young that we are not sure of what we want, what we need, what we yearn for? coming 18years of age, young i may be. but definitely old enough to know that i wouldnt want this just to be a fling. a short relationship. coming almost 7months, whatever we put in, is it going to end up in nothing in the future? yes short compared to others that you have had. but long enough a time to make me sure that i do want to spend the future as us, not just me or you. are we so young that we dont know what's our heart's desire? 18 is definitely old enough an age for the heart and head to work as one. i am pretty sure this isnt just an infatuation, nor a trick of the mind. this is not a mental illness that i am suffering from...... i am sure i want it to be us but i am not sure about us. i am not sure about anything anymore........... because you dont assure me. because there is no time anymore. because there is never enough time. not enough hours in a day. 24hours a day seem to pass in a flurry. no time to do anything. we can do nothing at all.........
blogger's timing is screwed. and i am pissed.
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