initiative to quarrel

it seems so weird that i quarrel with ayf over the smallest things ever. i remember there was this incident where we were on the train and then we were standing and then we just stood there. without moving. without holding hands or what. no hugs nothing. not even talking. then i got so annoyed. i was thinking. why couldnt he hug me or hold my hand or make an effort to talk to me? this is so frustrating. yes tired. yes busy. oh and guess what the most common excuse is? he was thinking of it all along, just that he didnt do it. how annoying can he get right. i like other people to take the initiative. i like people to hold my hand. you may think it is boring. but sometimes, its just the little things that matter. i know i may not always do things right. but! i know i do things right, at times, right?
heck. even i asked him to get together with me. (okay you earthlings can salute me now, what a brave soul i am.) but apparently he rejected me. HAHAHAHA-.- and then he asked me a few days later. it was a very sweet memory. why am i typing all these now? because a phone conversation with his sister made me recall all these. not that i have forgotten it all. i wonder, why did i start liking him. maybe it was because he had an infection on his right thigh the other time, then my heart ached for him. maybe it is a zodiac thing, i am cancer by the way. HAHA maybe my motherly instinct kicked in to yearn to look after him, yes, i think that was how i started liking him. or maybe the feeling was there long ago. but i never let it surfaced. HAHAHA! MM always says that if i meet ayf everyday, there will bound to be a break up soon. but i dont believe. i mean, how can anyone stand not seeing their love for such a long period of time. i cant imagine what i am going to do when he goes to NS(provided we last that long). ahhh! imagine meeting only once or twice a week. i will just kill myself and die please. nah, just joking. never really mentioned when did me and ayf get together. i do not want this to be such a self absorbed post. but i cant help it. anyway, it was on 4th of november. and yes, i know i kept you dbgirls in the dark for very long. but i just wasnt ready to tell other people. didnt want others to judge me. didnt want any comments. sorry! was pleasant the way he asked. 3rd november was Regatta. and i was rushing my proj through the night. he was sweet enough to wait up for me. by the time i finished, it was already 3 or 4 plus in the middle of the night. then we went to sleep together. what happened next is for me to know and for you to find out. *evil laugh* anyway. after we finished everything(whatever it may be), he asked me. when we were both so tired and sleepy. i was shocked. feeling scared that there may be other reasons as to why he asked. but. i agreed. HAHAHA!
to be continued............? anyway. i digressed alot on this post. was supposed to be a post about quarrelling, but whatever, HAHAHA(: