One day at a time

The other day, we were just talking about death at the dining table, no, not while we were having dinner, it was after dinner and we just chanced upon that topic. Who isn't afraid of death? I am, as much as I hate to admit it. I have played out many scenarios in which I would die a horrible death and the most common one would be me jay-walking and then a car comes whizzing past and knocks me to the ground whilst another one will run me over and flatten me like a roti prata. Scary thought? But as possible as can be if we are not careful. Another of my scenarios would be me, while walking down the stairs, I'd trip and fall and break my neck. Hopefully there would be instant death because the thought of being paralysed scares me to death hur hur hur joke.

Am nearing 1/4 of my lifespan already. As much as I want to look good when I die, I absolutely refuse to die so early and if what they say about 2012 is true, we are all going to die in approximately another 2 years. How can that be possible? Does anyone have any idea what else have I to do before I feel that I can leave this world peacefully? I have not gotten married, learnt how to drive or ride a motorcycle, gotten a degree, or even graduated. I think I might just be the most under-qualified ghost in history, with no achievements to speak of :/ That would suck. Boooo ): A thought that has been constantly nagging me, where would I go after death? Thinking about it just makes me want to go to sleep. It's a topic I think about almost every night since I learnt how to think before I go to bed.

On a side note. Hahaha my sleeping habits are screwed up. Sleeping at about 12mn and waking up at about 4am. That's about all the sleep I can manage to steal. Screwed right. Not to mention I have got the final project looming over me. Even if I were to go to bed early, something in me makes me toss and turn and cause me to be unable to fall asleep. I want to but I can't. Why is that so?

I believe I have become more patient hehehe as in the way I talk to people, I do not scold or kp them as much anymore and I am proud of myself because I speak to them in a civilised way. We must all keep our heads up and improve. Let's all work together for we are, only as strong as our weakest link. We do what's best for ourselves and ignore all the others. We have each other (:

Phew, wordy much.